Saturday, May 13, 2017

Entertainment Stuffs Part Two

What a long period of time of just accumulating things.  There's so much piled up that it gives me anxiety that I'll never get to anything.
Books have grown a lot, mostly due in part to my one job but there are a few stacks laying around now.  I got all the hardcover Harry Potter books and even the first two that have been released that are all illustrated.  Those are nice.  A few notable ones have been a star wars character encyclopedia, a few movie books, a Friends book that goes through the series and cast members and everything, a casual vacancy, ready player one, doctor sleep, some Marvel and video game books, and I have been subscribed to a monthly box (like we were before) but it's just comic books.  Graphic Novels specifically.  So, every month I get four of them and depending on what the book is, I'll read it and like it or not and put it in a pile to trade in at work.  Some notable stuff has been delivered that I have really liked, like Old Man Logan, Days of Future Past, Fantastic Four, Hulk, Spider-Man, Spider-Gwen, X-Men.  I got really really nice and detailed and well done making of/behind the scenes/collection of all info books on Ghostbusters series and Back to the Future series and they are really well done.
I was going to try and save a lot of the things I've gotten as surprises but I'll let a few slip lol
One was one I was going to leave for you on your porch or something while you were here and if you've seen those adult coloring books around, well, I found a Supernatural one lol
Grabbed a Marvel one myself and it's crazy what they have, I've seen a Home Alone one haha
The best and worst part of working half price on the weekends is that I get a discount.  Half off the books and movies and i think like 20 percent off games.  So half off half off.  Let me tell you how much time I spend in clearance and stuff getting things for one to three dollars lol.
I really need to be getting more sleep but I want to make sure I get enough out while my head is clear enough.
I picked up a few other movies while at Half Price, one such came in one day and I grabbed them right away.  A few years ago they put out a limited edition set of 3 dvds of the orignal star wars trilogy and each had a second disc with the orignal orignal unaltered theatrical release of the film as a bonus feature.  So naturally I grabbed those.  I started picking up a few other things just because they were so cheap or to replace my dvds to save space and upgrade the disc I had.  Upgraded a bunch of disney dvds, Batman the killing joke which is a great graphic novel and the animated movie was just as good but they added a little bit to the beginning before the main story where batgirl has a crush on batman and they kinda sort have sex on a rooftop i dunno it's weird, I got the Mummy trilogy on bluray and it always makes me think of you because you are a big fan of those movies, I got Showgirls for some reason too lol it's not a good movie but, and I hope this doesn't sound creepo, but I like porn and naked stuff and like watching it a lot.  I dunno, something about seeing people naked and how they do things and all that.  I dunno, moving on haha
I've been watching a lot of video game retrospectives, mostly Resident Evil.  Been looking for older games and due to money can't get much of anything but I did find Sonic Spinball with the case for a dollar, some playstation 1 games like Resident Evil 2, Hulk, Theme Park.
Jumping around a lot but back to dvds lol
I know you were super jealous of me getting Doug but I also got Rocko's modern life lol
Old Marvel cartoons, I feel like a hoarder at this point because I'm not doing anything but collecting and not having time to watch or play them.
Hearing that you were going to Universal made me so sad.  I miss going there almost every weekend, that is probably my most favorite place in the world.  I really miss going all the time.  Anytime I hear the harry potter theme or jurassic park theme I go right back to that place and feel so sad.
Crazy how much has gone by.
New Nintendo console came out.  new zelda.
Movie announcements like It, Avengers 3, Deadpool 2, young han solo movie, pitch perfect 3, another xmen movie.
Penny Dreadful got canceled noooooooooooooooooooooo
Tired is calling again, so I must go.  I love you and hope you have a good weekend.  I shall type more posts very soon, have a good night and good morning!


  1. No more anxiety allowed lol. We have the rest of our lives to go through 2 years of stuff and we will. We will get through all of it and then some I promise. You’ll be sick of showing me things lol. Did you get the new blue cover Harry Potter’s? I was so close to buying them around Christmas but passed cause I’m a poor kid at the moment lol. I did see the new ones with the illustration which I love! We may have to read those again.
    I’ll have to really go through your books, you so I don’t buy you something you already have or maybe for future presents I’ll have to skip the books lol. Speaking of presents I did get you a little something yesterday. I didn’t mean to make you sad by bringing up Universal it turned out to be a crappy day it rained pretty bad and we only got a few rides in. Any way I got us these bookmarks that we can share there’s two of them and they are magnetic both have the deathly hollow symbol. But that’s not your present lol I got you just a little something as a memento of our time, nothing big but you were on my mind like crazy and there were a few moments I had to fight back tears thinking of how much I wish you were with me. We did get to go on the new ride Race through New York. It was neat I think you’d like it, I won’t give too much away right now.
    I’m glad you found a box you like. I started to get lootcrate for a few months but I wasn’t a huge fan of the things I was getting and money was getting a little tight so I canceled. I did see that Stan Lee has his own box now, that might be something cool to get together when we are financially comfortable.
    If you would have left a Supernatural coloring book on my porch I would have had to come find you lol. That is amazing! I didn’t know they even made that but I have seen some odd ones at Books a Million. I think you working at Half Price is really great! You’re going to buy those things any way and now you can get a discount lol but I hope we can be comfortable enough that you don’t have to work 7 days a week. I want us to be able to spend time together and snuggle up on the couch watching all the movies and shows and and and and lol.
    I’d like to see the Star Wars and the second discs lol I mean it. I don’t know anything about Batman the killing joke other than I think that’s the one with the creepy cover. I do love the Mummy series and was able to ride that yesterday (the even said “not even the madjai can save you now”). I have never seen Showgirls but I’m glad you have the same excitement in you still. I’m telling you we will make great use of that lol oh sexy time is one of the things I’m looking forward to most.
    We will also have to watch the 90s cartoons that you have been storing up and then some! I did find a channel that plays 90s cartoons at night (Marianne has cable lol) so I’ve watched that some but I do enjoy those shows lol. I’ve never watched any Marvel cartoons other than anything you have showed me so that’s on the list, and I never watched any Penny Dreadful but we can go through that am I’m sure there will be another show you love just as much. I am so excited to start all of this!
    I hope you enjoy your time with your family today. If you get a second give me a call. I’m being super lazy today just laying around by myself so I’ll be here if you can. <3

  2. I'm struggling bad here, again not trying to upset you or give you more anxiety I'm just really scared about this. And I think talking to your mom when I can't talk to you may be making things a little worse. I was under the impression that you were going to call me from her phone yesterday. I sat at home alll day just waiting for the call. Then around 8 or 8:30 your mom said you had blown them off again. I asked if she heard from you and she said she was going to try to call. A few minutes later she said you were walking over so I figured I had enough time to jump in the shower and get ready for our call. And nothing. So 2 hours later I sent her another message just Asking how the night was going and as a reminder that I am still waiting for a phone call lol she said she mentioned it to you but you were just annoyed. I sat up as long as I could hoping and praying to hear from you and nothing. Around 1:30 in the morning she asked if you had called. That was it you had left and I knew I wouldn't hear from you. The amount of defeat and disappointment I felt has me terrified right now. I'm truly not trying to make you feel bad but I want to be clear and honest about my feelings so that there are no surprises. I'm not ok with this situation. I'm so scared to leave everything. And I hate that my happiness rest on a child with an attitude problem. I love you and I'm ready to make this move and start our lives together but I need to stress how much I can't go through this again it's been a year since I gave it all up once and it's worth it if I get you in the end but if I don't I will literally walk away with nothing. I need for you to be sure, and I need a date of when. You keep saying that this is going to take longer than we want so should I not plan on coming up Memorial Day? Do you have any idea of when we can begin our lives? I'm sorry I really am I just need to know and what to expect and what you expect from me.

  3. I am so sorry, I feel like my mom is trying to mess this up or has some really great anger towards me that she wants to somehow show that she is tough and can rule with power over me. I was late going over to their house yesterday because I have been ending things with Mary. It isn't super easy and does hurt a bit when you have to tell someone that you don't see a future with them. Having it done to me just about every year since high school and now being on the other end of it still feels just as bad. But, it's been said and decided and we know now that I don't see a future and the relationship has to end.
    I hadn't meant to be late yesterday but I am not fond of hurting people so I spent a little more time at home. My mom keeps setting up things and not either telling me or just taking it into her own hands and moving things along how she sees fit. She had ripped into me through text just the day before and did it once again today on how terrible of a person I am and don't care about family and treat everyone so horribly. I don't know if I am just weak or what but I just cannot handle the feeling of someone having zero confidence in me or belief and just getting so tough and angry that they threaten to never help or speak to me again.
    I was not annoyed about the phone call at all and didn't dismiss the idea, it was just after hearing how much she was angry with me it put me in a real depressive place. She even said that she doesn't think I should be with you because I'll just ruin your life.
    I honestly am just handling it all at my own pace the way I want and promise that I am still on course. It's nobody's fault but mine. I'm not in the best of places being depressed, upset, tired, worried, but I very much understand what is going on and the opportunity that we have here.
    I didn't mean to disappoint you, honest. I completely understand where you are coming from and your concerns and fears. I don't want to add to those and only want to lessen them.
    I will admit I feel a bit rushed and like all I'm doing is upsetting people. I want to cry so much and don't want to mess anything up for anyone. It was very hard to express the end of the relationship and not fun hurting someone but I took a step that was necessary. Another step down the path. Just feeling a bit sad and upset after doing something like that to someone.
    I also don't want you to hate me for not trying to speed up this process. I really am trying and don't mean to frustrate or scare you at all. I don't have an exact date no, but I did take the big step that was needing to be done next. So I know the big part is over.
    Please please don't be mad or upset with me, I really am trying and it isn't super easy, especially emotionally.
    I promise I'm not wasting anyone's time either especially yours. Having anxiety and a lot of saddness isn't helping either.
    I liked talking and catching up as it was making me feel better, I'm really not feeling well lately.
    I meant to inquire more about the books you were writing and what the second one was about more.
    Please don't hate me megels, I'm just struggling with depression and feeling overwhelmed with all the work and stuff lately. I feel like I messed my life up so badly and dug myself into such a deep hole and just hurt those around me on a constant basis when all they do is care. I never thought I would have gotten myself into a situation like this. I know you yourself have gone through some situations close to this and you pulled through, anything you did or found out doing that really helped you out?
    I really hope your week has started off nice and my upsetting weekend didn't mess yours up.
    I'll try and check here again before I go to bed soon, but if not, please have a good night and have the sweetest dreams you can.

  4. It is 12:35 am and I am going to be on my twitch site in the chat room for a little before bed :)


  6. No darling I am sorry. I’m just scared and I don’t mean to take that out on you. There are just a hundred small steps that I need to take to get there. Maybe I have been unfair as to not tell you my whole situation, which is a big reason why I’m freaking out. It’s not just about being with you (which I cannot wait for). After I returned to Florida I moved in with Marianne and got a job at Advanced Medical as a recruiter I was just promoted back to HR but the pay is so very low that I haven’t been able to save anything up to move out. I really like the people and the job itself but I’m struggling financially so I needed to find a new job, even before you and I decided to get back together. Jamie and Jesse are moving down in July and they need money and help moving (so I’d only have until July to stay with them), and Marianne needs me out before September. So not only do I want to be with you and want to start our lives, but if there was even a small possibility of that not happening I would need to start things here. I really and honestly do not mean to rush you I just feel like I am running out of time myself.
    I’m sorry your mom pushes you the way she does. We talked about that once and I tried to explain to her that you need to take your time, it was actually a nice conversation and I thought maybe it did some good but I guess not. I’m sorry. You do not deserve to be told what a terrible person you are because you’re one of the best people I know. I hope I didn’t make you feel that way as well, I wasn’t mad just disappointed, talking to you is the highlight of my day. This is a hard situation and I don’t know how to handle it. I don’t want to add to any upset feelings I want to make them better, but I can’t do that when I hardly get to talk to you. I do believe that everything will be 10 thousand times better once we are together. I want to make you happy mr and I’ll try my hardest every day. I’m sorry my emotions and fears are making this harder than it needs to be.
    It does make me happy that you talked to her. I’m not happy that you have to go through any more pain but I am glad the ball is rolling. I know you are a great guy and would never hurt anyone on purpose so I’m sorry that you had to let her down.
    I want to be clear that I am not now nor was I ever mad at you. I want you more than anything. I know this isn’t easy and I want you to feel better. I could NEVER hate you. I want this relationship so badly. However, I am mad that I fell asleep at 10 and missed you on twitch lol. I didn’t even get an email about it! Rude! Lol. I’ll have to watch the youtube video you sent a little later.
    I am really enjoying catching up as well, I’m sorry I’m such a planner lol but as far as the books go I am reading a series about an angel falling in love with a girl who I’m not sure if she’s mortal, it’s a little weird it’s call Fallen. I’m on the second of the series I feel like I have to finish it because I started it lol. The book I am writing (which I think I’m going title “It’s Been a While” lol) is going slow I’m on the third chapter. It is basically my/our story just embellished and altered a little. Maybe I’ll post a chapter or two if you post maniac mansion ?????? lol I’ve named you Peter Cammy hahahaha it seemed fitting when it popped into mind.
    Please know that I love you more than words. I really hope this week goes well for you too and your days don’t drag on. I don’t like you being so unhappy I want to fix it. Also, should I still be planning on coming home memorial day? Should I be starting these interviews? I’m not trying to provoke a fight or more bad feeling. I just want to know what you think I should do. I love you Mr and can’t wait to kiss that face! lol

  7. Just updating that I will write more later today, not doing so great but I will type more later today I promise, didn't want to leave you in the dark and hope you have a great day!

  8. Thank you for updating. I'm sorry you're not feeling well. If there's something I can do I'll do it in a heart beat. I love you darling feel better ❤️