Her eyes were windows to a world worth more than gold

The path traveled grows even brighter and faster and the smile that it causes is hard not to light every room.  My mind regails me with memories that I can still feel to the touch.  Standing in the cold while you smoked and seeing the snow flakes fall before we went back inside to finish a movie.  Sinister scaring the ever living out of you one scary night.  The way I could just look at you and watch you do anything from crafting a powerpoint for college or the way your fingers moved over the buttons while you conquered Mystical Ninja.  The plans and roadmap are being drawn up now and I am every night floated on a cloud of love of you and how you make me feel.  Being lost in a million mile road to find Ikea, a slow headbang to lionel ritchy, a picture sent of a key broken in a lock, and an infected bug bite being tended to by a hot nurse who enjoyed cutting it out of me more than she should have.  The rain may be falling but it is music to my ears and a symphony of hope and excitement that I haven't felt in some time.  I will be that phoenix rising and bringing with it all that I have to offer and all for a one and only.
<3 p="">
and also this because we are seeing it and I will need someone to carry my body out of the theater once I pass on from viewing it.

https://youtu.be/6ZfuNTqbHE8

~~~~;~~;~~~;~~~@

The brightest star in the darkest sky

When I look out of the window I see a star shining brighter than all the others.
I look out there and know that the star is out there and that I am closer than ever before in leading my way out of the tunnel towards that star and happiness.
Agreements have been made and talks gone through and for the first time in a while I find myself smiling and excited with day dreams of my vast ocean of ideas I've wanted to share and spend with you.  From youtube shows to speed art to charity work to family to being able to achieve full potentials in both of us.  The path that I set out for myself to fix everything, make it right, and follow my dreams with your smiling face has accelerated and I can feel the energy grow.
The smile spreads across my face while I work with the visions of your silky soft hair, smooth skin, weak in the knees smile, and infectious laugh dance through my head unbeknownst to all those around me.  The cold air bites at times but I walk warmly being heated from the inside out with the fires of hope and redemption that yearn to reach that beating of my heart that only one person has managed to conquer like Frodo and his global walk to the fires of Mt. Doom, oh yes lord of the rings reference.  I remember your adorable white winter hat that let out just the right amount of hair while the flakes surrounded us like we were in our own little snowglobe cut off from the rest of the world and happy in our little bubble.  The world is huge and the best playground in existence to have fun in and you are the one person I want to hold the hand of while we take over the world.  Call me crazy, call me stupid but it wouldn't be true love if all of it didn't feel that exact way.  And so happy.  <3 p="">

Thanksgiving Love

This year I am thankful for someone truly beautiful and smart and having the ability to really open my eyes.  You've always been the angel on my shoulder and the one i am always thinking of and working to be with.  In my heart I know what is meant to be and know that being thankful for the holiday is also a time to reflect on one's self to know how to be better and the mistakes made.  My excitement for activities and adventures and a life with you is growing almost making me giddy.  I'm not proud of myself and have a high level of shame but I know that that is something I can change and construct into something truly strong and worthwhile.  You always bring that out in me and the best way I can repay you is to show you that I am the rock to which you can rely on and know contains the strength needed.  To do whatever it takes to make my path right and make the highly sought after happily ever after part two become a reality.  You are my reason and growing up the last few years and hearing people say that I need to mature and cement my future always made me feel like they were attacking me for my hobbies and what I enjoyed when I've finally understood exactly what it all meant.  For the first time in my life, the course I want my life to be is crystal clear.  I know the top most important things I want in life.  A career in the field I love whether it be an already established company or one I create on my own showing my art to the world and inspiring and telling stories while growing my talent as I go.  A life of joy, travel, fun, and family where my passport gets worn out and my experiences can fill a book I will write before I die late late in life. And you.  You only get one life and this Thanksgiving I am thankful that in my one life I have on this Earth, I bumped into an angel, soul mate, cheerleader, teacher, partner, and lover who took my heart places the gods would be jealous of with just a phrase.  Hey darlin.
I am thankful I have family that cares and is worried and watches out for me and thankful that I was lucky enough to find jobs to keep myself afloat through the war that has been the last years.  I am thankful that I have the right state of mind to know what I want and what I have to do to achieve it and I couldn't be more excited to chase it.  You are the best example of not needing to be asleep to have someone who makes every day a dream.
Happy Thanksgiving, the one day where it actually is normal for a Turkey Leg.

A Part of Me

No one person has gone through my head at a constant like you.

every second of the day.

I miss everything about us and will do whatever it takes to prove it's everything I want in life.

I'm very unwell without you.

Just a mental picture of your smile gets me through an otherwise black day.

Never do I want to be the demon of the nightmare but the knight that brings the light.

Words are nothing but these feelings are real.

The pain and true depression are unbearable, I must make this right in a way that I've never had the strength to before.

Love is the strongest and most real feeling in existence and there is only one person I've ever encountered that has earned that feeling in spades.

I carry with me a letter that I read constantly and her words are my wings.

My solace.

My peace.

Things I love about you while I make what's right: The Sequel Part 24

This-

You goofy little turkey leg <3 p="">

Things I love about you while I make what's right: The Sequel Part 23

I really loved and still love the fact that you have a bucket list.  I'm sure most people do but you never seem to hear about it.  I remember the first time you told me a lot about yours.  We were at the mexican restaurant on McKnight Road by the FedEx office and we sat at a table near the back and you started telling me the various things on your list and ones that you've been lucky enough to have crossed off.  Riding in a hot air balloon, getting married on the beach (although now stolen), visiting Paris, go skinny dipping mmmm
You are of the rare breed that they don't seem to make anymore.  Smart people with goals and ambitions and interests and hobbies.  To have a list of things you want to accomplish is very inspiring and to be a part of that list is a wonder, privilege, and part of my own bucket list.

Things I love about you while I make what's right: The Sequel Part 22

I love the time you were dabbling in photography.  You take really great pictures with your phone and are always making funny faces.  You took great pictures of our little Christmas tree and when you got a hold of my camera camera you did a full photo shoot with the little kittens.  It was very interesting and neat to see what in your eyes you saw as something interesting to photograph.  Being an artist it is always interesting to see things like that and maybe what I didn't see before or a view or situation from a different angle or view point.  This computer here still holds so many pictures that aren't just a memory in time but a story and colors and feelings.  Your photos always evoked more than a snapshot to me and let my mind wander to that moment in particular as well as transport me somewhere else on an adventure without even leaving the spot I was in.