Please Don't Go

I miss us Megels
We were on such an adventure together
My mistakes haunt me daily
I miss holding your hand

If I was a stream
Searching for the ocean
You would be my current
Keeping me in motion

If I was a seed
Buried in the snow
You would be my sunlight
Helping me to grow

If I was a spark
In the middle of the night
You would be my flame
Keeping me alight

If I were a ship
On a stormy morning
You would be my lighthouse
Flashing me warning

But I'm not a stream
Spark, ship, or seed
I am a person
And it's you that I need

I do not need a current
Lighthouse, flame, or the sun
All I need is love
And for me, you are the one

I continue to dream of our days together
Trying the food in the area
Going through all my movies
Fighting each other in Mortal Kombat

I miss making the bed before you got home
Cooking for you after a long work day
Drawing for your beautiful eyes
Making you laugh

Remember how I would hold you from behind in the kitchen
Watch you tease me through the closet open door
How you would tell me about your dreams
Your excitement to try new games with me

You are my true soul mate
I don't believe you'll be truly happy with him
I know in my heart how well we connected
Your words written in your letter were too true

My hand will continue to be held out for you
I will always be standing at your door
Our interests the same top to bottom
Our hearts always reaching out for one another

No matter how long
No matter how far
No matter what we go through
I am yours
I love you will all of me

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxxooxoxoxxooxoxoxooxo

Each Beat of My Heart

Time goes by, my love endures
I love you more with each breath
Each beat of my heart

Night goes by, my love is eternal
Every sunset and sunrise
Strengthens my love for you

Daylight fades, my love is everlasting
I awake and you're sleeping beside me
My heart swells

Weeks pass by, my love is timeless
I hold your hand
Love shines in your eyes, a mirror of passion

Months disappear, our love is unchanging
We become one and share our hopes and dreams
And future

Years fade, our love is evermore
We vow to love and cherish each other
Until the end of time

Decades vanish, our love is ageless
We ripen and wrinkle like autumn leaves
Our love matures while our life light fades

My heart, I will love you til death do us part
We will shine beyond the earth as infinity of stars
Souls entwined, heavenly sparks of love

Megels
You are my future
My hope
My joy

The smile on my face
The dawn of the new day
The gentle light of the moon and stars
The song of the birds

The colors of the rainbow
The touch of a butterfly's wing
You are love
We are one

You are the true love that burns in my heart

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxooxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoox

Don't Settle For Less Than True

I think of you more than ever Megels

Wondering if it is like it was with us

Are you settling because of the pain and frustration

Is it the same fun we had every morning, noon, and night

I'm so depressed and it is really taking a toll

My health is getting bad and I cannot focus on anything at all

I miss you like crazy

Beat myself up daily for the pain that I have caused

Do you laugh the same way I was able to make you

Can you be your real self without putting it to the side

Does your heart still remember how it kept reaching for mine

My ears miss your voice more than life itself

Spending time at our special place

Standing in lines holding hands

Making our little inside jokes to one another

Curling up together at the end of the night

My love for you fills my body top to bottom

I don't see them as someone who is your compliment

The sharing of many common interests

Someone who won't let your nerd flag fly

I revel in the real you

Appreciate and love every little thing that is you

Are you truly completely sure of the soul mate

I am standing right here for you until the end of time

In any hour, place, and all circumstance

Only thoughts of one do occupy my mind

They are thoughts of you, my beloved

And forever to you I do myself consign

In your times of absence, I yearn for your presence

In your times of presence, I yearn for your stay

You seem to me as vital to existence

As the rising and setting of the sun each day

Although we will face a great many obstacles

I also know if our devotion is true

That these will prove to be of little consequence

And our love may be perpetually new

My heart is yours no matter how long or how far

Those sleepless nights awake

I will be there

All of your dreams

All of your interests

All of the real you

I'm right here for you

Always

Love, Your Edward

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My Light in the Shadows

You are the song within the wind
The glow around the moon
The silver lining of each cloud
The brightness of the sun
The sweet smell of spring
The warmth within me in the midst of winter
The cool breeze on a summer's night
Everything that is wonderful and great in this world
My joy, my happiness, my love, my passion
An amazing girl that I will love forever
You are like the snowflakes that fall upon my face
Bringing refreshing newness to a soul once arid and dry
You are like the song that seeps from the heavens
Bringing melodious grace to a soul once quiet and note less
You are like the sweet smell of earth that softens my step
Bringing assurance and blessing to a soul once faltering and alone
You are like the moon that brightens the night sky
Bringing hope for a future and a longing for the morrow
You are like a breath, a whisper, a laugh, a tear
You are my life, and my love
My light in the shadows
My shelter from the storm
The air when it's hard to breathe
That keeps me going on
The stitches when I'm hurt
The way home when I'm lost
The clear blue of the river
The bridge so I can cross
The moments that become memories
The sound so I can laugh
My protector when I'm threatened
You are my other half
No matter what the skies may bring
No matter how time pushes forward
My memories of our love are my most cherished
Forever hoping one day I can hold you again
Megels you are the one true soul
My one true love

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

A Treasure in My Heart

I always knew that love would come find me someday
But never did I know that it would be you who was headed my way
You caught me off guard and took me by surprise
But you simply captivated me
The same way you do when I look into your eyes
It's true that every good and perfect gift is from above
You were presented to me as a beautifully packaged gift full of humor
Full of talent, intelligence, beauty and love
It isn't finding the perfect person but learning to see an imperfect person perfectly
We all have our flaws but when I view you through my eyes, perfection is all I see

I don't love you as if you were a rose of salt, topaz or carnation
I love you as one loves certain obscure things
Secretly, between the shadow and the soul
I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom but carries
The light of those flowers, hidden, within itself
Thanks to your love the tight aroma that arose
From the Earth lives dimly in my body

I love you without knowing how or when or from where
I love you directly without problems or pride
I love you like this because I don't know any other way to love
Except in this form in which I am not nor are you
So close that your hand upon my chest is mine
So close that your eyes close with my dreams

From when you laugh to when you're upset
I still love the little things you do
Especially hearing you laugh and seeing your nose wrinkle
Coming into our relationship, we hard our share of hard times
But we always made it through
I know as long as we're on this journey together
There's nothing we can't do, Megels
I may not know what tomorrow may bring
For God is the only one who knows
The one thing I do know is that you are my one and only
A treasure in my heart that I want to devote my whole life to completely

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooox

I Want To Be The One

The ways I miss you continue to number
I want to be on our adventures once again
There was so much that was ours
Why wasn't I strong enough to stand

I want to be your favorite hello
That fluttery feeling in your tummy
I want to be the one to give your lips reason to smile
The one who puts that sparkle in your eye

No matter how tough, you said you'd always love me
Your words saying that our future was the one
I cry at night wishing I had never left our place
Being without you is a constant pain

I want to be the one you trust
I want to be the one you can tell all your secrets
I want to be the one always by your side
The one you're stuck like glue

I miss the way you'd hold my hand
Your thumb tracing circles around my palm
I never saw a future without you
I still can't

I want to be the one who makes you happy
I want to be the one who makes you smile
I want to be the one waiting for you as you're walking down the aisle
The one to whom you say 'for you i'd walk a thousand miles'

Perfect is too soft a word to describe our life together
Travels to discoveries all share for the first time
We saw each other at our worst and our best
Every day is becoming a constant struggle

I have difficulty with the sadness and the memories
The number of them are so great it's all I have
You were more than my true love
You were the best friend anyone could ever ask for

I want to be the one you truly love
I want to be the one who fills your heart
I want to be the one who's always there to hold you in the dark
The one who loved you from the very start

Megels, I can't take back the pain I've caused
My karma is to feel that pain in double every single day without you
It doesn't matter the amount of time
It doesn't matter the amount of pain
If it means I can be with you again
It'll all be worth it ten times over

Always

I love you
Your Edward
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You Completed Life Itself

To the Megels who owns my heart

I was miserable until you

Working day to day with no feeling of being complete

Searching and praying for someone like you

You had your claws of love already pinned to my heart

The day we met I was thinking of not going out at all

Lucky I did because I was lucky to add you to my life

I was sad

depressed

Didn't care about anything

Then you showed up and turned my world upside down

You turned my frown upside down

No one has been able to do that in a long time

I looked at you and you looked back

You ask me what is wrong

I say nothing

I've just been wondering where you have been all my life

You say that you were wondering the same thing about me

I smile and think that you are just perfect

I tell you

Until you I wanted my world to end

Until you I had nothing to look forward to in the day

Until you I was just part of the crowd

When I had you, it was all the complete opposite

No one can ever change that

With your hand in mine

You completed me and life itself

If it wasn't for you I wouldn't have accomplished so much

Traveling to a new place

Starting new adventures

Regaining my confidence in my dreams

Knowing the feeling of a future with someone

It's so sad knowing you may not be reading these

May not even have a single thought of our memories

May not even miss me

I miss you more than anything life could give me

Life is just a series of days without you

Life is the most beautiful gift with you

My love for you is eternal

I continue to hope and pray that I can hold you again

Atone for my mistakes

Give you that smile and happiness you fell for

You are my one true

I miss you

I love you

Megels darlin dew drop

Always

Love, Your Edward

xoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

My Love You Took xoxo

The snow has turned to rain
Each drop splashing on to the windows around me
The same sound they made when we sat together
Looking out of our balcony at the lake

I miss holding your hand
Talking to you at the end of the work day
I miss the way you'd hold me in your sleep
How excited you were to start our future

Each day goes by without you like needles in my skin
Pain for my actions
Sorrow for my mistakes
Not a day goes by where I don't miss you completely

Can we just ran away
Together, just me and you?
Have fun, forever play
You know, just the two of us

Can we just leave this place?
Just run hand in hand?
Be together all of our days?
And never look back

Can we just walk
Together under the stars?
I'll kiss your hand and your lips
And you can have my heart

Can we just laugh?
Innocent giggles and loving looks
I'll have your love and you can have mine
Because it's my heart and love you took

Can we just walk
For hours on end?
We'll talk about anything
And we can lay upon your bed

Whatever the cost to have you back darlin
To know happiness like we never have before
To call you my true love and soul mate
Megels you are the sun that warms my world

I miss you so much each day feels like the same on repeat
Waiting and hoping and praying
I have atoned for my sins twice over
The pain still remains

Remember our days?
How every day and every moment was our little in joke?
That place was ours and we made it our own
My heart yearns for that again and so much more

You have my heart
Fully and completely
I've never known anyone quite like you
You are my love

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoooxoxoxxooxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxx

There is Only One True Soul Mate

I can't stop thinking about how happy I was when you were around
Those days we would hang out
Watch a movie or walk the dog
The nights in your room gaming or under the sheets

I miss you coming over and starting our nights
Waking up to your beautiful face every morning
Every weekend seems empty without our adventure
Megels I miss our life together so very much

I wish I were a bird
Every morning I would fly to your place
Sit on your window
Be the first one every day to see your lovely face

I wish I were the dew
When you pick the rose and smell its scent
I would silently wish you good morning
And kiss you on your nose

I wish I were the mirror
The mirror on  your wall
When you ask me I would tell you my love
You are the fairest of them all

Every morning when you pray
I wish I were the sun rays
To see you and be your admirer and pray for your happiness
Full of grace

I wish I were with you
Spending your seconds, minutes, and hours together
Drawing you art to place above your bed
Singing to you the song of love

I continue to pray and wish and reach
Knowing that in my heart I believe it is still for us
They may show you a future but in the end they aren't me
True love is forever

I would drop every single thing to hold you again
Promise the rest of my days be devoted to you
Where our memories and happiness once were
They can be again and much much more

I'm head over heels for you and never lost a bit
With tear filled eyes I watch from a distance
With blue box and letter in hand
I stand at your door forever asking once more

Be mine again
I vow to spend the rest of my days making it up to you
Giving you back that smile that you treasured so much
The us you've always wanted

Me and you darlin

Always

Love, Your Edward
xxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Your Love Defines Me

The thoughts of you surround me
You're the beating of my heart

The love you give defines me
My life no longer dark

You give your hand so sweetly
I am lost if you're away

You have me so completely
I cherish you night and day

Without your breath, I cannot live
I need your lips on mine

Nothing at all I wouldn't give
I'll take nothing and be fine

For in your arms I'm always home
So happy and proud

Never a day you'll feel alone
And I'll yell it oh so loud

I love you with all of my heart

If I had the words to describe my feelings for you
I would be the happiest man in the universe

But words seem to fail me time and time again
So I have to settle for the words in this verse

Your touch, your smile, your presence and soul
Mesmerize and entangle me completely

If I had but one ambition, one utter goal
It would be to stay by your side for eternity

Forever and Always

Love, Your Edward
xooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxxoxoo

An Angel From Above

Gazing into her eyes when we first met
I knew ten she was heaven sent
All I ever dreamed of
An angel from above

She had no idea from the start
True love, I'd found my heart
One of a kind, love that lasts a lifetime
All I ever dreamed of
An angel from above

Still, her smile, my breath it takes away
Wanting, needing to her hold, so much to say
All my prayers answered when into my life she came
To me, she is everything
All I ever dreamed of
An angel from above

Like the moon, stars, morning sunrise
So much beauty, so much grace
She's even more through my eyes
All I have ever dreamed of
An angel from above

Together forever, I long to be
Can you see, you're very precious and sweet
The only one for me
All I ever dreamed of
An angel from above

Your gentle words, your tender touch
Life meaning so much
Wrapped tightly in each other's arms I wish to be
With you, I feel so free
A vow to you I made
Forever
You'll have my love Megels
All I ever dreamed of
An angel from above

Miss you so much darlin

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxooxoxoxoxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Being With and Loving You

To the beautiful Megels who makes my heart sing

To love is to share life together
to build special plans just for two
to work side by side
and then smile with pride
as one by one, dreams all come true

To love is to help and encourage
with smiles and sincere words of praise
to take time to share
to listen and care
in tender, affectionate ways

To love is to have someone special
one on whom you can always depend
to be there through the years
sharing laughter and tears
as a partner, a lover, a friend

To love is to make special memories
of moments you love to recall
of all the good things
that sharing life brings
Love is the greatest of all

I've learned the full meaning
of sharing and caring
and having my dreams all come true
I've learned the full meaning
of being in love
by being and loving with you

When I looked into your eyes
I saw all the love you had for me
I saw in your eyes you cared for me a lot
That your love for me was true
And would do whatever it takes to have me in your life

When I looked into your eyes
I see love as unconditional
That we would never leave each other
Staying side by side

When I look into your eyes
I see with you everything is possible
I see in your eyes your love for me is everlasting
Your eyes tell me you really, really love me

I continue to relive our memories and fun adventures
Missing every single aspect of it
I would give it all up in a heartbeat
Just to go at it with you again
To be on our adventure that we always fought for

Always

Love, Your Edward
xxooxoxoxooxoxxooxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Holding You in My Arms Like I Do

In my arms I would hold you tight
Never letting go through the night
All of my dreams are peaceful because of you
Holding you in my arms like I do

Your lips were always sweet as ever
I wish to kiss them forever
My heart beats only for you
Holding you in my arms like I do

When we met I knew it was fate
I found my one true soulmate
As I looked into your loving eyes
Knowing our love would never die

I hold you in a warm embrace
In my arms you'll be no other place
To be with the one I love
Which is you
Holding you in my arms like I do

Time spent away from you brings to mind
One of the many things that I miss
There is nothing more scintillating than your kiss
Your hair is soft and pretty and begging to be touched

It is time without your kiss that grieves me so much
I love holding your hands, so soft warm and tender
The thought of your kiss leads my heart to surrender
Your kiss is what lures me because it is so deliciously sweet

I love to playfully look for freckles on your neck
But it's your kiss that knocks me flat on the deck
Your eyes sparkle like diamonds, leading to your soul
But it is thinking of your kiss that causes me to lose control

Spending time with you brings me peace like a dove
But your kisses always fill me with endless love
There will always be time and a chance to rekindle what we had
It's never left my heart, no matter how bad

I miss our walks on the beach
Our talks at night
The way you'd hold me while falling asleep
Cooking together and flirting like newfound lovers

I miss taking pictures of you and going on adventures
The way you'd dance and sing in the car with every trip
I miss the way you'd say it would always be a yes
No matter when I would ask you the big question

I miss you Megels
So very very much
There's nothing in this world I wouldn't give to have our adventure back
Spending the rest of my days with you in my arms

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxxooxoxoxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Miss You So So Much

To the beautiful Megels and all that you are
Between our little fights and our giggles
Do you remember when our lips first touched?
The first time I held you hand
The first one I cared for
The only one I ever loved
Do you remember you made me smile when I first saw you?
The first time I did I knew there was something there
A spark between us that I felt only when I was with you
Do you remember when I first put my arms around your waist?
The first time I lifted you in the air
You were my Juliet, I was your Romeo
Do you remember when we couldn't see each other?
But we still made it happen
We couldn't talk as much, but still, we managed
Do you remember when we happened, you held me so tight?
We didn't want to let go
Do you remember when I would look at you and just smile?
You gave thanks to God everyday since he put me in your life
Do you remember when it was over?
We still cared for each other
You told me you still wished it was us.
Do you remember that you were the first one I truly cried for?
Do you remember we had something nobody had?
Something people looked for but didn't find
You were the best I ever had
You were my first true love in every sense of the word
If I had three wishes the first one would be
To see that beautiful smile I love to see
The second would be  to be in your arms just one more time
The third would be to have you back in my life
To have you forever
To this day you are still in my heart
Holding every single memory with utmost care
Seeing every photo we ever took
Our faces in love
I wish those three wishes every day
The tears never stop
Neither will my heart for you

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoox

I Wonder if You Think of Me

It's truly difficult to get through a day without a memory
Without something bringing sadness for things I cannot have
The moment I see an ad for the Spider-Man ride or Universal
My mind travels back to those days spent with you

That is our special place
A place for only me and you and all our love
When I hear the theme to Harry Potter I can't help but shed a tear
I miss you so much Megels, it gets harder and harder to breathe

The moment I think about you
I go to another world
A world where you love me too
And where I can never be hurt

The truth is, I don't know what to say
My mind goes completely blank
I have never in my life lost my way
But my heart with your love simply sank

Letting go isn't a choice
Something in my heart and soul
The strongest voice I cannot control
That's telling me I never should

I sometimes wonder if you feel the same
I wonder if you think of me
I sometimes wonder if you silently call my name
I wonder if you'll ever see

I can't stop wondering where you are
If your thoughts like mine travel into our memories
Does our special place still hold that spot
Do all the same triggers affect you too

My love for you is way too strong
For me to simply forget
Your love is one thing I can't forget
Never in a million years something I could regret

I think about you every single day
A depression I don't see an end to
Too much is linked to our hearts, our travels, and our laughs
Every time I see your name I fall

My heart pushes me time after time to send my words to you
In hopes that one day, just one, even for but a moment
You may look or check
Something in your heart feels it too

I never knew true love
Never knew there was a perfect soul mate made for us
Never knew until you
I cannot ignore my heart
Megels you are the most beautiful reason for everything

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoooxxoxoxoxxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoox

Even Seconds Are Too Long to Miss You

I want to hold your hand and walk a mile
I don't want to miss you even for a while

My life is so beautiful because it's you
Darlin, it's you, my life

Hug me for my worries to die
My tears to dry
And my loneliness to fly

It hurts me to know
How I sometimes can be a little selfish
When it comes to you

I miss you every moment of the day
I keep me awake just to listen to you
I keep me empty just for you to fill
I keep me alive just to see you

My mornings miss you
My evenings seek you
Where were you all those years
When you weren't there to dry my tears

Fear of future is worse than pain of past
Still I bother the least because you are there

Even seconds are too long to miss you
I want to hold your hand and walk a mile
I don't want to miss you even for a while

My dreams are full of you and everything about you
Every time I close my eyes, there you are
My favorite dreams are the ones where I can feel you
The way you would look into my eyes

I used to wake up and not know if I was still dreaming
You were there next to me
My better half in every way
Now I hate to wake up from my dreams
Because when I wake, you are not there

I miss you so much and all of our fun together
The letter you sent burning a hole in my heart
I will forever look out my window in hopes my heart reaches you
No matter how long or how far
It'll always be you

Always

Love, Your Edward
oxooxoxxxoxooxxoxoxxooxxoxooxoxoxoxoxo

I Love the Smile Upon Your Face

I love your eyes and your soft sighs
I love your inner beauty too
I love the way each passing day
You give a love so warm and true
I love your clothes, your turned up nose
The way your precious kisses taste
But most of all
I love the smile upon your face

I love your lips and slender hips
I love the giggle in your talk
I love your class and your sweet sass
The wiggle in your sexy walk
I love your shrug and your warm hug
Love your tender and warm embrace
But most of all
I love the smile upon your face

I love your look, the way you cook
I love your heart, your soul and mind
I love the way you laugh and play
How you always treat me so kind
I love the fact you are intact
I love your style, charm and grace
But most of all
I love the smile upon your face

I love your charms, your loving arms
How you hold me so tenderly
I love the bliss, the happiness
When you're making sweet love with me
I love when you get naughty too
And kiss me all over the place
But most of all
I love the smile upon your face

You, Megels, have the greatest most beautiful smile
One I can never tire of
The one place my own heart feels right at home
No matter what

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxxoxoxooxoxoxooxoxooxoxox

How I Wish For You, Dew Drop

I met this beautiful girl a few years ago
I wanted her
I liked her but I didn't know
If she felt the same way as me
I laid awake every night thinking of everything we could be

I kept thinking of her day after day
Thinking of what all I could say
What all I could do
If only she had known

How I felt about her
How I wished things between us would occur
I wish I had the courage to talk to her quick
But truthfully, I was never too slick

I never had the courage to talk for more than a minute or two
But every time we talked, my feelings for her grew
I loved her more than anyone I ever met
But that love kept me up at night upset

With feelings of sadness and regret
That did not tell her yet
That I loved her more than myself
More than money and wealth through sickness and health

My life went by month after month, day after day
Then came the day that I moved away
There was nothing I could do, nothing I could say
As I left, my skies quickly started turning gray

Then one day I got a call from you
You said you loved me so much
I couldn't believe it was true
You said my missed my touch

You missed my sense of humor
And you wished you had told me sooner
You told me you stay up crying day after day
Ever since I went away

You said we could love each other long distance
That I was the fabric of your very existence
Time went by month after month
Year after year
Every word you spoke honest and sincere

Our love never faded, only grew stronger
Even as time passed longer and longer
Till the day we finally met again
We talk how we were back then and we had been

Both of us together, forever
On this endeavor

Time went by year after year
So happy neither of us shed a tear
We went on till we hit the age of seventy one
So much love and adventures we'd never be done

I miss you so much my darling Megels
Every day is a dream of love that I would give anything for
My heart believes you are the soul mate  made for me
Depression may be a demon constantly darkening my life
But thoughts of you are my light in the shadows

Always

Love, Your Edward
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To Be with You is My One Desire

When I fell in love with you my heart was on fire

To be with you is my one desire

And if you love me

I'll give you everything you need

A lifetime of promises and a world full of dreams

For only my heart knows what it means

And I promise you it won't be wrong

One love

Two hearts

We will make it strong

But now my love is lost in your sweet kiss

Megels, when I'm alone you're the one I miss

And your sweet tender love is heard to resist

Darling it's true

My heart has fallen in love with you

Looking upon the stars tonight

Wishing with all of my might

Hoping someday you will realize this passion I hold inside

It doesn't cost a dim

If you give your love could be mine

I feel truly blessed for this feeling the Lord has given me

Accompany by faith and much understanding

And I know this gift will guide me all eternity

As my heart flies by with angel wings

And the clouds form into wedding rings

A woman in love the angels sing

On and on a soft melody

That's how it feels to be in love with you

For thoughts from my heart are never ending

Day after day my heart yearns for you again

My mistakes hanging over my head every moment

My soul and life I would give to spend with you

I miss you so much sweet darlin dew drop

The days ahead I will dream of your hand

Always

Your Edward

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What Do I See In You

Spent the day sick and not feeling well
Resting in bed reminded me of our afternoons together
Us on the couch snuggled up
You napping under the covers while I played with your hair
It's amazing how just a thought of you makes me feel better

I miss you so much and every day seems more depressing than the last
Fantasizing about what we would be doing now
Sending funny messages to one another
Planning what to eat for dinner after work
Getting excited to go to Universal the upcoming weekend

I miss you Megels
I miss looking into your eyes
Feeling your embrace warming my heart
Setting my eyes on your beautiful self
Seeing so much I never thought I'd be lucky to

What do I see in you?
I see mountains and rivers and a lifetime of joy
I see the sun shining on the grayest day
I see clouds of sliver lining my way

What do I see in you?
Oceans of blue
Colorful rainbows and morning dew
Trees of glory displaying leaves of green
I see goodness and beauty in all living things

I hear creatures of darkness prowling in the night
But I'm safe in your arms as you hold me tight
I feel the whispers of the wind entwining my soul
I feel you breathing and that makes me whole

I hear the rain falling
The sun on my face
I feel the shadows of darkness as me you embrace
I feel happiness and laughter, tears and sorrow
But without you my love there would be no tomorrow

I feel thunder and lightning whenever you're near
I feel whispers of love that wind brings to my ear
But of all the things that nature may bring
It's your love I cherish above everything

Your love that matters most

Always

Love, Your Edward
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I Await You in My Dreams

Thinking of you fills me with a wonderful feeling

Your tender love, your warm embrace

Your sweet kisses

I love your touch

Your gentle nature and loving heart

I love the way you smile

The way your eyes sparkle

When you laugh

I adore the sound of your voice

Strong and enduring

The sweetest sound is your name

As I say it over and over again

You have allowed me to open up my heart

You taught me how to love

How to trust, live, and to smile again

You have brought so much into my life

I never thought I could feel this way again

Now I see a perfect life ahead

New places for my heart to explore

New thoughts, memories, new feelings

Feelings that go far beyond expressions

I can't stop myself from holding back the tears

Tears of happiness, of a love so strong

It surges through my heart like a storm

Each tear falls warm upon my face

And I smile

Such a perfect love we had for each other

You fill my life with joy and laughter

With dreams and with the promise

Of a new tomorrow

I will forever be indebted to you

You have changed my life

Captured my heart

And now hold the key

Your love I will live and die for

I will treasure each and every moment

I spend with you

And I promise to love you for the rest of my life

Because my eternal love

You complete me.

I await you in my dreams

At your door with hands held out

Your love is my heart's desire

Always

Love, Your Edward

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Hold My Hand and Don't Let Go

The toughest weekend I have ever tried to get through.  I haven't cried that hard since I lost you.  I miss you so much and every single day there is some reminder of you that brings me back to the fun happy adventure we had.  I would give anything to be with you, pick back up and have our life again.  Nobody has ever hand written me a letter that has made me feel so truly happy and in love.  I still continue to read it every single day.  Megels you are the soul mate I forever wished for.  No better match have I ever met.

Calm the winds as angels sing
Lover's tune and flowers bring
Little buds caressed by dew
Sending pretty thoughts of you

Hearts entwined with heavenly bliss
Spell the most romantic kiss
Yearning for the sweetest place
Nowhere less in your embrace

Ringing bells of autumn air
Whispers of my love and care
Set the mood, begin the dance
Paint the colors of romance

Inside out, your beauty shows
Inside me, this feeling grows
It's your hair, your voice, your smiles
It's your most angelic eyes

Sparkling stars will soon reveal
Shifting breeze that ever will
Hold the sentimental light
Let the love consume the night

Nevermore will dreams expire
Keep it burning, guard the fire
Hold my hand and don't let go
Feel my heart and you will know

Amber-hued the sunset sails
Leaving dust of loving trails
Chanting words that say I do
Sweetness, I'm in love with you.

My dream, wish, and pray to spend my days with you again.  To hear your laugh in my ear, see your name come up on my phone.  Fall asleep with you clutched on tightly, our inside jokes filling the air.  Hold hands going to Universal, my beautiful gaming player two.
I miss you with all of my heart darlin dew drop
Megels I love you
My heart continues to beat in hope to hold you in my arms again.

Always

Love, Your Edward
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Can't Handle it

The pain is becoming too great.  I haven't stopped crying for almost two days now.  It is almost too much to bare.  I don't know what to do.  I can barely sleep and the depression is getting too much to handle.  Being at work is impossible.  I sit and can't sit still and spend most of the day hiding my face to cry.  I really don't know what to do.  The pain and depression is too overwhelming.  I don't know what can make it go away or numb me.  Every day is becoming so so horrible. I try and write love but the pain just keeps growing.  If this is what I have put anyone through then I cannot apologize enough.  If this is karma for anything that I have done, then I assure you I get it and have learned my lesson.  I'm spiraling out of control and am afraid I'm going to do something to hurt myself or make myself sick.  I just want it to stop.  I need a hug so badly.  I'm not a bad person.  Why do I keep messing my life up and hurting the ones I love.  I can't live my life like this.   It's too much.  I miss the happy times, I miss smiling.  All I do is work and cry and feel worse every day that goes by.  Please make the pain stop.  I'm begging.  I'm suffering and have no idea how to make it stop.
Please
Please don't let me hit bottom
PLease take away the pain
I can't handle it, it's too much

Nothing I'd Rather Do

One of the rougher nights filled with stress and pain and tear filled sleep.
Getting out of bed in the morning has become harder and harder.
The sun doesn't come out to shine anymore.
I fear that the depression will never release its grip on me.

Would it be okay if I took some of your time?
Would it be okay if I wrote you a rhyme?
Would it be okay if I opened my heart?
Would it be okay if I took on the part

Of being your man and showed you a view
One that only a real man could do?

Would it be okay if I could make you smile?
Would it be okay if I held you a while?
Would it be okay if I kissed your face?
Would it be okay if I were to replace

All the men in your past that just wouldn't do
And vow to be faithful and always be true?

Would it be alright to look in your eyes?
Would it be alright to never tell lies?
Would it be alright to find a way?
Would it be alright to long for the day

To pull you close and whisper in your ear
And tell you our feelings are nothing to fear?

Would it be okay if I took some of your time?
Would it be okay if I wrote you a rhyme?

To tell you there's nothing I'd rather do

Than spend my whole life loving only you

I miss you and all the sunshine that you brought, Megels
I knew every day was going to be better than the last
I sit here now dreaming of the fun times we had
All the ones we could add to that
I miss you and every single smile you brought to life

There's nothing in existence that I would rather do
Than spend my whole life loving only you darlin

Love, Your Edward
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Remember Our Love Again

A new years past where I couldn't bring myself to do anything
Without you it is just too empty
I did sit and remember my favorite moments with us
Made quiet promises of all I would do for those again

I won't lie and say I didn't cry
Tears for you come all too easy anymore
My heart loves our memories so much
Megels you are the true love I always wished for

Remember when we first did meet
Our hearts rejoiced and skipped a beat
Remember our first kiss goodnight
The hug we shared on that summer's night

Remember when we walked the beach
All our dreams within our reach
Remember how we used to be
When I had you and you had me

Remember when we used to talk
When we held hands and took long walks
Remember how we spent our days
In warm sunshine and in the rain

Remember when our one desire
Was take a chance and ignite the fire
Remember the times that made our hearts melt
And all of the passion and desire that we felt

Remember when you looked at me
Saw the one you love and need
Remember when you reached for me
Knew that we were meant to be

Remember when our love was new
Everything I could ever do was for you
Remember the journey we started together
Our love was always forever

Remember the promise we made together
To love and cherish and care for each other
Remember the promise in good times and in bad
To make each one happy rather than sad

Remember when the world was bright
When we would laugh and hold on tight
Remember when our hearts were broken
When times were tough and words unspoken

Remember when our love endured
The pains and heartaches of the world

Remember the life we shared
Our love so rare
The kisses goodnight
The love at night

I know in my heart your arms I do belong

Can we live our lives together just like it all began
Hold and cherish each other
Remember our love again.

Miss you so much
Please let my words reach you
For as long as I have air in my lungs
My heart will dream of your beautiful face
Hand held in mine.

Always

Love, Your Edward
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New Year Wish

For the New Year I wish for you.
Whatever it takes
However long it takes
Megels, I know our hearts match up too well for anyone else
My love for you is beyond what I ever felt before
My New Years wish is for you

If wishing were a reality, then back in time we'd be
To when we were children, happy and carefree
If life could be that simple, how happy I would be
You were always my special love
I thought you'd be there until the end
For me you were the best, and that is why I love you.

If I could have one wish come true, I know I'd use it up on you
It was enough for me back then just to have you as my friend
But I can't turn the clock back to when you were just mine
If I could, I'd keep you there and show to you how much I care
I'd tell you of the many things I'd like to share with you
All my days and then my night times, too

You've given me a reason to smile
You've filled my life with peaceful dreams
You've made me want to feel again
To laugh, to love, and to see
You are the life within my soul
The other half that makes me whole
You are my true love

You are the love I've longed for my soul mate from the past
You are the ray of sunshine that brings a rainbow from the storm
The one to watch the stars with as they twinkle in nights sky
The one to watch the sun come up from its sleeping bed
To see the birds awaken and listen to their song
The journey could be beautiful if you came along

True happiness is hard to find, it's given to so few
If you could only feel the same, it'd make my wish come true
More life we have behind us than we have to come
What time we have together could be so much fun
If I had to cross an ocean, that is what I'd do
If it means that I could spend my time left with you

Past all of my mistakes
All of the pain
My heart and mind live in the most wonderful memories
I know that inside your heart you still wish it was me
Singing while cleaning the apartment on weekends
Gaming next to you on the couch
Drawing for your eyes to see the wonder
Holding you at night under the covers
Making you laugh while we drive around
Being your nerdy other half


I've never been in love with someone the way I am with you
There's just too much in common
Too much we've shared
The Ramona to my Scott
The butt kicker of Mario Kart
The car singer to my slow headbanger
My most beautiful dew drop, turkey leg, darlin

My new years wish is you.
I want to be yours again.
There's nothing I won't do
To the most beautiful, fun, smart, amazing girl I've ever met
This new years, I want to be yours
No matter how long it takes
No matter what I have to go through
Everything will always be worth it
Because the end result, would be you

I love you darlin
I miss you so much I can barely breathe
We were the definition of each other's dreams
For the new year my wish is to be yours again
I can promise you that every single day you are mine

Always

Love, Your Edward
Every single day of your beautiful life
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