The Fall Season with Two Lovers

The fall season back home would bring about the changing of the leaves, turning the greens that covered the trees to the golden yellows and oranges.  The temperatures would fall a bit making the streets a cool breezy atmosphere that had the streets covered in leaves.  Down in my new home, the days continued on with the palm trees and afternoon rains with the temperatures not really falling much and November looking just as it did when we arrived.  It was different to say the least.  The new jobs were picking up with each of us settling in to our new daily routines.  The dermatology office was a job where I would come in and start gathering personal files for the patients who had scheduled appointments with the doctors over the next two days so that their files would be ready for the doctor when the patient arrived.  The files were located either in the office next to me where I was or across the way above another office.  If they weren't in either of those places, we would communicate to other offices to see if they had the file.  The day went on rather quickly while I gathered what I needed and then prepped for the next couple of days.  On my lunch break I would sit outside and read a book in my navy blue scrubs.  Meanwhile my lovely partner Megels was settling in at her new job where she would continue to schedule people to work and take care of those in need.   It was a noble job and that which required patience, especially with how some of the workers treated the job and her.  The job transitioned to her working at home and operating out of a laptop to try and cover every shift needed and being on call almost all the time.  She didn't really like much being stuck at home all day and the it was beyond frustrating trying to cover certain shifts when nobody wanted to do it.  When we weren't at work was where the real fun was happening.  We continued to watch various movies and she would watch me draw and continue making an animated short film.  She would post a photo that I really liked of me drawing one night and she labeled it saying "I could watch him draw for hours."  She continued the bug of playing Lego Harry Potter to the point where once she finished the entire game, she restarted it from the beginning.  She also played Ducktales trying to get the achievement for bouncing underground across the level without once ever touching the ground with her feet.  This proved very frustrating. 
We took time out to hang out with a friend of hers and her husband, going over their place for food or nights to play card games or see other friends around a fire.  I'll admit it wasn't my favorite thing to do as it seemed like she would drop everything for this friend no matter what we were doing or how I felt.  It wasn't that I was jealous, I guess it was more of a feeling of....maybe I wanted more attention or more time with just us.  Seems silly now, seeing as how I lived with her and got to see her every day.  We took a few little dates to the movie theater to see a lot of movies while we were there including Cinderella, 50 Shades of Grey, Minions, Ant-Man, Avengers Age of Ultron, Insidious 3, Deliver us From Evil, and Ninja Turtles.  At home the two gamers in love were playing through Mario 3D world, having rousing games of mario kart, and she introduced me to games that she grew up with like Diddy Kong Racing.  We discovered a video game store in the area called Blue Dragon where we found our classic gaming needs and she found even more of her childhood gaming favorites like Taz-Mania on Sega Genesis and the Little Mermaid on NES. 
The big holiday for that month was Thanksgiving, since we were both away from our families, we spent the evening and dinner with a friend of her's family.  Her friend was a policewoman and her parents had come down so we went over to her place.  The dinner was delicious and they were very hospitable and I for the first time in my life said something before dinner about what I was thankful for.  I don't remember it word for word but I do remember saying that I was thankful for the family I had and the new family I was about to start.  I was incredibly thankful for Megels.  Never had I met someone who was so caring, sweet, generous, and strong.  So beautiful and fun and who was my perfect other half.  I had fallen in love with someone that completed me in the very best of ways.
Afterwards we set around to a little Black Friday adventure of our own, buying gifts for family and each other and then going home afterwards to check out our bounty.  One of the best most heartfelt holidays I had spent with the love of my life.
And she had a surprise for me.
Unveiling to me that she had bought some supplies and setup for two new additions to our little home.  We went out one night and picked up two little kittens who we named Harley and Quinn.  The tiny little fuzzballs were brought home and we watched them eat and walk around adjusting for hours.  We loved them so much and it was adorable and sad when little Harley had some health issues and had to be closed in the bathroom with a little felt cone around her neck while she healed up.

The two kitties loved the place and ran around it frequently.  Harley being the rebel who liked to jump up on the counter wanting all the food and knocking stuff over and Quinn being the more quiet reserved one who hid a lot of the time.  Megels proved once again that she was the best woman I had ever met.  Me and Megels explored around the area around us and found that not too far from us was a very large flea market that sprawled many areas that had a ton of people selling a multitude of things.  It covered outside and inside and was almost like a maze inside.  We also took a few trips to the beach, a place that being so close to us it was a wonder how little we went there.  We would lay in the sand and get our tans, our hands holding one another by the pinkies so we were always holding one another.  I would keep peeking out of my eye to see her laying there, the breeze from the ocean blowing the perfect amount of strands over her face.  The sun brought about freckles around her cheeks and nose that I found even more attractive.  Once we were sweaty beyond belief we would go down to the water and play around, trying to splash super cold water on each other's backs and see how far we could go out.  The waves always trying to throw us back out onto land and me hoping it would hit hard enough to knock her top off....one time getting my wish.  The majority of the month was spent working and getting into the grooves of our respective jobs, I could finally really breathe easy knowing that a healthy paycheck was coming so I could pay things off and not have that worry hanging over my head.  Me and Megels developed a grocery shopping routine that became like second nature and was a welcome trip away from ramen every day.  We developed a taco making system that we could do in our sleep and she would have a jug of her juice in the fridge while I stocked the freezer with all manner of TV dinners for lunches.  We had a snacks cupboard and fruit on the counter.  Nights had me playing through some games including The Evil Within that had a creature that would give Megels nightmares and she was the perfect other half to walk me through any game with a guide online if I was stuck or having troubles.  All other nights we would sit or lay on the couch watching tv, sometimes with her head in my lap while I played with her hair.  The smooth silky strands falling through my fingers and slipping around my palm.  Writing this now I am feeling more in love with her than ever before.   It's crazy how when you meet your one you just know it and when they aren't next to you it actually feels like a piece of you really is missing.  A bond is formed in your heart that connects on a true level with that person and feels like drained batteries when they are apart from you. 
Nights with her friend continued at various venues and while they weren't my ideal things to do, I knew it was something Megels liked to do so I would go along with it, I may or may not have whined a little bit to do it but it was just my little selfish need to want to spend all my time with my love and not have to share it or give it up for others.  Like I said, silly.

November was a fun month and as it was coming to a close, I was giving news that her family was coming down to visit for I believe a wedding, apologies if that is wrong.  They would be staying with us and while they were down they wanted to go to Universal studios for a fun day at the theme park.  I was very jealous but that was very quickly erased when Megels said that I should come and do the park with them too, I just had to drive over to the place they were staying for the wedding and join them.  I was super excited and super nervous.  The last time I went to something like that with a family  other than my own was years and years ago in grade school.  Excitement was too much to hold in as I accepted and it was a serendipity dream come true once again as I remembered back to when me and Megels were in my room back home talking about the future and saying how cool Harry Potter world was and we should plan to go there some day.  And there we were.  The upcoming week was going to be very fun indeed.

The story continues in part 11............................

My heart goes out to the one I love on this rainy night.  I miss you with everything inside me and so much more.  The fun future of two nerds is wide open and I know it can all be achieved with you.  I want you to be a part of the Etsy business and be by my side as my animated movie is made and put out into the world.  I want your hand in mine as we take on the world and travel and play and grow.  You are the one that was created for me, while I may stumble upon the road, I never once lost the sight of my love.  I miss you darlin, you are so beautiful and fun and smart and not a day goes by where I'm not thinking about you.  I love you with all of my heart and hope that one day I am lucky enough to have the chance to take your hand and tell you that I'm yours now and forever.  Always.

Love, Your Edward

xoxoxoxooxoxoxxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

New Jobs brings Halloween Love xoxo

That time of year crept in again that brought with it dark horrors and scary movies.  The month where at the end of it, kids and adults dressed up like their favorite characters and went out through the neighborhood collecting candy.  In the past when I was younger I had dressed up as a power ranger, Nightcrawler from the X-Men, a victim of a chestburster alien from the Alien movie, and of course Spider-Man.  I would go out with my sisters and father to  all the houses in the area, each of us equipped with a pillow case to fill up with tons of treats for the evening.  When the night was done, we would spill it all out onto the kitchen table and sort it putting like candies with their same brethren while my parents put on a horror movie in the background.  This would be the first year I would be celebrating the holiday away from home and on my own with my beautiful lady.  Unfortunately I was at my new job and had to work on the holiday.  The job wasn't anything fancy and your typical retail job.  I would straighten paint tubes, put out stock, and help rearrange and fix displays all day.  It wasn't long before I began to get bored and had more fun on my lunch break going next door to Toys R Us.  But, I wasn't going to complain as at least I had a job now.  The greatest part of the holiday was coming home one day after work to find that Megels had decorated the apartment as a little Halloween celebration complete with a scary silhouette of a person on the balcony doors.

We had purchased a bit of candy and she put it in a bowl and dressed up as a witch complete with an adorable witch hat.  She was the cutest thing I had ever seen and the picture I have of her in that outfit to this day is one of my favorites that adorned the screen of my phone for a very long time.  After a long work day ending in feet hurting tiredness, I got home to find her on the couch with the bowl next to her, she got up and said 'nobody caaaaaame'.  It was cute and sad as one of the things I liked most about the holiday was seeing what the little kids dressed up as and hearing their little voices saying trick or treat.  All was not lost though as we started a tradition for ourselves by trying to watch one horror movie a day and then posting about it online.  We managed it pretty well and if we missed a day, we made up for it the next by watching two.  The 31 days of Halloween movies was very fun and offered us both a chance to see movies we had never seen and share with each other ones one of us had seen but not the other.  From classics like Nightmare on Elm Street and Friday the 13th to the beginnings with Frankenstein, Dracula, and Night of the Living Dead to new movies like The Ring, The Woman in Black, and Evil Dead.  It was fun finding out her reactions and thoughts to each one we watched and what she would post about it online.  We even took a trip to the movie theater to watch Deliver Us from Evil which wasn't super great and Insidious 3 which has an ending that freaks me the heck out.
As I was working at the hobby store, I was still applying to places and art jobs to hopefully find a job that could be my career and be in the field that I was so talented at.  Megels was my biggest supporter and was behind me one hundred percent for any career path I wanted to choose.  She even began to test out voice acting for the movie I want to make so that she would do a good job.  Before I let things bother me too much I had gotten a response back from one of the places I applied to.  It was at a dermatology office close to the apartment and paid more than Hobby Lobby and offered much better benefits.  I went on the interview and that afternoon when Megels got home from work I showed her the good news and we had a lovely night together.  On her end, she had acquired a new job as well where she worked for a home care office scheduling people to help and run shifts as well as many other things.  The job was demanding and there was a period of time where she was on call a lot.  The on call days were brutal and I felt so bad for my darling because some of these people would call her in the middle of the night or awful hours and Megels would have to get up and schedule to cover these shifts and couldn't go back to sleep until she covered it.  She worked from home for a period of time too but she isn't someone who wants to be home all day.  She had said to me once that if she had all the money in the world she would still do some sort of job because she couldn't just sit at home for the rest of her life, she had to do something.  But this was too much and it was really wearing her down.  Her birthday was that month too and try as I might to get all of her friends together for a surprise party, nobody cooperated with me on it and it fell through much to my dismay.  I made sure I got her something to at least make the day special though.  There was a big Supernatural book that I got her and she had said that someone she worked with had shown it to her once in the past and she was so jealous because she didn't have it.  In lui of cake I had also gotten her her favorite Ben & Jerry's ice cream cup and put a candle in it.  I wanted to give her a really good birthday regardless because if anyone deserved it, it was her.  She had around this time started getting into one of my games, Lego Harry Potter and started to develop a relationship with that game that was deep.  I would wake up in the morning to roll over and hold her only to not find her there and hear in the living room the familiar sound of Hogwarts going on.  I enjoyed waking up to her every morning, seeing her next to me with her hair falling in front of her face in the most perfect way.  The feel of her legs over mine under the covers and hearing her breath through her deep sleep, her chest moving up and down.  The most comfortable place in the world was under those sheets holding her body against mine.  On the weekends we would clean the apartment and she would play her music to fill the place and we would jam to Journey, Cher, and Bruno Mars as we dusted, vacuumed, and cleaned our place.  I would take every chance I could to slap her butt and make her laugh.  Things were going absolutely perfect and I was gearing myself up to take my soul mate out on Black Friday for the first time together.  November was approaching quickly and I was more excited than ever now that we had settled in and were having so much fun together.  Nights we would curl up together and she would either watch me play a game and be my wingman of help or we would watch many tv shows such as Supernatural, Vampire Diaries, Pretty Little Liars, Big Bang Theory, How I Met Your Mother, Friends, American Horror Story, or the many 50 amazing facts that will blow your mind videos by Matthew Santoro.  The month of October was a success and I was happier than before and so in love I wanted to shout it from the rooftops.  With November now in full swing, I was about to be surprised in so many ways that would take my happiness and love to whole new levels.  November would bring new experiences and more fun than we had ever had.  I was head over heels for this girl.  She was beautiful beyond compare and the funnest perfect match for me that I could ever find.  November was going to be beyond amazing.

The story continues in part 10..............................

Missing you with all of my heart dew drop.   Reliving our adventure is causing all of my butterflies to jump back into the air again.  I would give anything for us to do it again.  To see your face in the morning and jam in the afternoon.  You make me the happiest man to ever walk the Earth.  I miss hearing you play lego potter or trying to get that trophy for bouncing all the way across the underground tunnel in ducktales and being your guide in Kingdom Hearts.  I miss the way you'd push up your glasses and how you'd fall asleep while I massaged you at night.  Most of all I miss you.  You are worth more than all the riches in the world and the one thing that's constantly on my mind.  I love you darlin dew drop, my heart is yours.  Always.

Love, Your Edward
xooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxox

Doggert doing what he does best:

A Couple in Love Arrives at a New Chapter

Life throws many curve balls at you during the course of your time on this planet.  How you handle these bumps and curves are what makes you who you are.  What's most amazing is that your body and heart are able to tell you things through feelings that can guide you in the best direction.  Your mind may be smart and the thinker of the body but your heart is the captain of that vessel, knowing exactly where the ship is needed to steer to avoid sharp rocks and angry waves.  The best sea captain is one that follows the feeling and motion of the waters and what the sea is telling him.  Not what a compass or map have prelaid out.  Sometimes the best courses of action for ourselves is when we close our eyes, walk towards the edge of that cliff, and jump.
With our friend driving the moving truck and Megels and I in our own separate cars following, I said goodbye to the place where I had grown up and spent over 25 years of my life.  Having never traveled like that before or seeing my family so upset, it was a little shock to my system and I had a hard time composing myself and not crying for a good portion of the trip.  To her credit and how big her heart was, Megels would call back to my car and see if I was alright.  She would stay on the phone and talk to me and do whatever she could to help me feel better.  The miles ticked on, inside the car I did everything I could to be able to calm my nerves and get through the monotonous time that slowly ticked by.  My go to was to watch tried and true shows on my phone that I always enjoyed to keep me at a place that I was familiar with.  Between the mix of Mystery Science Theater 3000, Whose Line is it Anyways, and various internet shows, I was able to keep myself calm in a place that felt like home.  The calls from the pretty girl ahead of me with her soothing voice kept me grounded and a constant reminder of why I was doing this.  Each state went by and it was neat how now I was going to be able to say that I had visited more states and traveled.  The night wavered on until we were all feeling the exhaustion of tiredness.  Pulling into a rest stop much like she did when she traveled down before, we each picked a parking spot and nestled into our seats for the night of rest.  Taking a moment to spend with the love of my life calmed me down and it was more refreshing than I could have imagined knowing that she was right there with me.  I wasn't doing this alone.  It was then that I realized that she had so much courage and drive and confidence because she had done this trip alone.  Only she had done it with nothing.  She wasn't going to an apartment that was hers or even having a job, she went to the edge of that cliff and she jumped.  Taking a huge risk, she jumped, and when she opened her eyes she was flying.
When the morning came we were back on our way and I was feeling a bit better after having some rest and everything settling in.  I spoke a bit better while on the phone with Megels and upon another rest stop I even called my mom to perk us both up, knowing that no matter what, we were going to be okay.  The closer we got to the destination the more I was excited for a new chapter of my life that I could call my own.  A huge step and accomplishment for me.  Finally entering the state of Florida I could see just what she did when she got there and was also in awe of the palm trees and how beautiful everything was.  I wasn't looking forward to moving everything in but at least I knew that the driving was done and I could focus on something productive now.  Upon parking the cars, we took our first steps into our new place and took a look inside.  It was perfect.  The way the apartment was set up and the room and colors and space, it was exactly what we needed and it really made me feel a lot better.  The sun was beating down on us and with some help from some very nice neighbors, we got all of our boxes, furniture, and all else into our apartment and shut the door.  We were in.  The dog seemed uninterested either way and huffed a little before laying down.

Seeing this pictures brings about the happiest feelings I have ever felt.  It's been so long since I've felt actually happy and being there with Megels was without a doubt the one time in my life where I was truly completely happy and felt like it was where I belonged.  Looking around at all of the boxes it was a little overwhelming thinking about just how we were going to get it all out and fit in that place.  First thing was first, Megels suggested that the first thing we should do was set up our bed and then get the main essential things taken care of and then eat.  Energy was low and exhaustion was setting in with both parties starting to get a little cranky but once the main things were set up, I hooked up my tv and set it on top of some boxes and we set out to find some food.  She was more familiar with the layout of the area and directed us down the road and to the right, past Walmart and a movie theater to our chosen meal of the night.  Boston Market.  It was a restaurant she was more experienced with and showed me the best thing to order and once we had our food and were feeling high off of cornbread smells, we went back to our place and sat on the floor with our food and the tv on boxes watching a dvd of Supernatural.  It looked like we were being evicted and were poor but it was the best night.  Mentally and physically destroyed, we got into bed and she rolled on to me holding me like she always did and for the first time I let out a good lungs filled breath of air and felt calm.  There I was in our own place with the girl of my dreams ready to start our chapter.  It was unfortunate that she had work the next morning so she could rest in with me but I was just happy to be able to hold her at night.  The sound of the fountain outside in the small pond was exactly what I needed to lull me to sleep.  The next morning she left for work and there I was in a new apartment full of boxes and a dog who acted like I was invading his space in his apartment.  It was a nice little time to myself to acclimate as best I could in my new surroundings and unpack what I could so she would have less to do later.  The game plan for me was to adjust for a day or two and then set up a bank account down there so that I wouldn't have to worry about money issues and then hop on the job hunt.  First I had to set up the electricity and internet of course.  I set up what I could and couldn't wait for my Megels to come home and I always knew when she did because the beep of her car locking was known to her dog like second nature.  The second he heard that noise he went over to the door ready and whining hoping to be let out to see his mommy.  We both would run out and meet her and while he licked her all over, I waited my turn to do the same.  It wasn't very long before we had the place set up and with the help of friends and some generous trash throwing outers, we had some decent furniture to put things on so we weren't on the floor anymore.  There were some neat things I found out while being at home and checking out what my new environment had to offer.  The fact that it rained for about fifteen minutes every afternoon and little lizards would crawl around everywhere outside were things to my liking.  Also to my liking were new relationship advantages that I could partake in that were only available to us now that we lived alone in our new place.  Showering with Megels was one of my favorites as was being able to make love wherever we pleased in the place.  I would massage her back at night for her when she asked, making sure to use lotion as well.  When we didn't have a healthy stock of food we would become master chefs of what we could make with ramen noodles.  In the day she would work at Love foods and I would tirelessly search for job opportunities all day with my manager watching over me at my feet.

The days were going by and I wasn't having any luck and the fear of not being able to handle things was creeping in.  There she was working her butt off for us to be able to stay there and I wasn't able to hold my end up.  It began to bother her and before things could get bad, i took an entire day to go around to every single place in the area and put an application in.  To my luck and our luck, I had gotten a call back for a little place called Hobby Lobby.  It was an art-like store so at least I would have some idea of what I was doing there.  They paid decent and we celebrated me getting a job with a pizza covered in fritos because why eat healthy?!?

With the big woes out of the way we were finally able to truly live in our Florida experience.  New adventures and fun times would begin along with some of the best I've ever had.  Would I enjoy Hobby Lobby?  Would Megels stay at Love Foods?  The month of October was setting in and she was about to show me just how well she decorated a house and we were both in for a job change.  The end of the year was about to change everything for the better.  I even managed to get us to the movies for a late anniversary date to see the new Ninja Turtles movie.  I was in love in a beautiful place and my heart had never felt so good.

The story continues in part 9...........................

Missing you dew drop, every day my heart sends sweet nothings through the air to reach you.  The story of our love makes me smile every day and gets me through.  My nightly wish is to hold you again, wrapped around me like a spider monkey.  I love you turkey leg.  I miss my Ramona Flowers to beat my butt in Mario Kart and to give music quizes to.  Love is the best feeling in the world, especially when it involves you.

Love, Your Edward

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Love Travels to a New Location

Love is an amazing one of a kind feeling.  It's the only emotion that can give off feelings that you are invincible and could take over the world.  The most amazing part of that is that it comes from one person, one other person can make your body have feelings that nothing else in the world can.  From the butterflies in your tummy to the stars in your eyes.  It takes a very special and unique person to make you feel your best and want to become a much better person on top of that.  The time period where she wasn't around seemed like being aboard a ship with no rudder.  Nothing to take control of where the waves were taking you and the ocean was battling for its life in a thunderstorm.   The north star was not around to provide the direction needed to sail to the happiest of lands.  But like the saying says, if you let something go and it comes back then you should love it forever.  Once I got that text, nothing else mattered around me and suddenly the skies cleared around my ship and the oceans calmed themselves.  The path ahead was no longer dark and filled with treacherous curves.  Just like I had done in the beginning, a zoo date was set up to bring everything back full circle to where we began to fall in love in the first place.  The summer was in full swing and making every day beautiful.  A day was set and I made sure once again that I not only looked my best that day but smelled good too.  Picking her up at her home was like pulling up to Cinderella's house with my carriage and horses ready to pick up the princess.  When she stepped out and into my car, I was breathless.  It wasn't that I had never seen her before, she just looked more beautiful than I ever remembered her being.   I always thought she was the most beautiful woman I had ever met but now she had risen above that level.  She was wearing a black strapless top that came up just above her breasts, her shoulders and arms exposed.  The butterflies in my stomach went into overdrive and sent messages to every part of my body to give me a tingly turned on feeling that I had missed so much.  Her familiar phrase struck my ears and if I hadn't been strapped in by my seatbelt I would have floated off into the sky. 
Hey there darlin.
Just writing it now gives me feelings of getting up and dancing.  We drove to the zoo and had another wonderful amazing day where I don't recall looking at any animal or exhibit the whole time.  Just her.  Afterwards stopping to fill up our energy at the nearby TGIFridays where we sat next to each other and spoke about all sorts of things regarding one another.  Her plan wasn't really to get back together but even if you didn't know us at all and saw us from afar you could tell it was two people who were bursting to be near the other.  It was one of the best days we had ever had together and with smiles on our faces we repeated what happened when we first started seeing each other.  Planned to hang out again soon and it wasn't but one day when she texted again and we set up to meet.  This time I showed off the new house and my new room where due to it being on the third floor, it was very warm up there and had to have a few fans going on.  She came over and our bodies did the brushing against one another thing that energized us in ways we had missed for so long.  I offered to show her the Lego movie as I had loved it and thought it was really funny and wanted to show it to her.  Before the movie started she wanted us to get comfortable to watch it and tried to sit with me on my chair but there wasn't room for two people so we opted to sit on the floor in front of the television right up against each other.  The movie was great and love filled the room, once again the movie disappeared from our view and all that we could see was the other one looking at us every few seconds.  Our love for one another was just too hard to deny, just being next to her I felt a happiness that I just never felt with anything else.  Our lips finally met and fireworks shot out of every part of my body, my heart doing a dance in my chest surrounded by all the butterflies.  We made love right afterwards and cuddled in my bed until it was time for her to go home.  The love of my life had come back.  My soul mate was right there again and I had reached complete happiness.
Megels is the perfect girl.  She has all the same interests as me and we are able to be our true selves with one another.  I never have to put on an act or be someone else or change who I am.  I never have to hide things I like or give up on anything because she likes all the same things.  There is a care and respect and genuine partnership there.  That's the one key word I would use to describe her.
Genuine.
The next month or so was filled with catch ups and hang outs that had me skating on cloud 9 and actually trying to make something of myself for her.  We played mario kart, which has her addicted to kicking my butt in it.  We watched more movies and walked her dog around the area as well.  She explained to me what happened with the bridal store and how she wasn't having any luck in the job search here and she had a really big idea.  She was thinking of moving down to Florida.  A pretty big decision and one afternoon on the floor of my room we looked through all of the different places there were down there and what they looked like and she put a proposal my way.  She offered for me to go with her.  She wasn't saying we were back together or that this would be us together but if she was going to do this she wouldn't have anyone there with her and couldn't think of anyone else she would rather have there with her.  I was flattered and excited and full of fear, i had never done anything like that before.  But there was a chance we could be together again.  No matter how slim or impossible seeming that chance was, I was taking it.  With half excitement and half scared out of my mind, I accepted on a walk home with her one day.  I still remember the street and exactly where it was discussed.  First thing was first, she had to go down and scout around for a job and place for us first.  Which meant I would be away from her again but this time by about a thousand miles.
The day she left is burned into my memory like a branding on a cow.  I spent the day with her and napped by her side in her bed while watching Clerks on her netflix so that she could get some rest before the long long drive ahead of her.  She didn't get much and try as I might, all I could do was keep looking at the clock telling it to go slower, please stop, give me more time with her before she goes.  Before I knew it, it was time for her to go.  I helped her get what she needed into her car and she dropped me off in front of my parent's house.  It was a cloudy day and had started to drizzle and I leaned into the window to say goodbye to her and promised I would be with her any way possible the whole way down any second she needed me. 
And then she drove off.
And there I stood in the rain, watching my dew drop drive away to an unknown future.
I was nervous for her drive and didn't want anything to happen to her along the way.  I went inside and set up my surroundings for the night ahead of me so that I was ready for her any moment she may call.  I made sure my phone was always charging and I started one of the longest games of Lego Star Wars I had ever started.  My goal was to finish as much of the game as possible so that I had something to focus on and take up time while she drove and I could be awake for her.  She checked in at every rest stop and before the night got too late, she pulled into a lot to sleep a few hours.  Before she did so, she called and hearing her voice on the phone was like medicine after a terrible flu.  Her voice was soft and beautiful and my heart yearned for her as she was miles and miles away alone in a car in an empty lot.  I wanted so badly to have her back here with me to hold her so that she wouldn't be alone.  I stayed on the phone as long as I could before she closed up the night to go to sleep.  I told her to call me when she woke up and any chance she got.  Then we slept.
The next day was adorable as the closer she got the more energy she got and I kept in check the whole way.  The best was when she tried to facetime when she was close exclaiming at how beautiful the place looked and all of the palm trees!  It was great and I was glad she made it.  She was going to stay with a friend while there looking for a job and a place to stay.  It only took a month before everything was said and done.  While she was there we would facetime and talk and at night be as dirty as we could without her being noticed by the other housemates.  She would send me pictures from the beach and updates on where she was looking.  At one point almost giving up as nothing was coming up and she asked me if I thought it was stupid what she was doing and if she should just come home and forget about it.  It took everything in me not to say to do that because I wanted her here with me but I knew this was important to her and her happiness so I encouraged her as best I could.  Everything did end up lining up pretty well and she found a place that was absolutely perfect.  Next up was to come home to gather me and all of her things before she went back down with me in tow.  Her drive back was just as fun and when she returned I raced over there to see her and hold her the tightest I could.  Breaking the news to my family that I actually was going down was like telling them I was dieing.  They didn't take it well and fell apart every chance they had.  It was upsetting to see them like that and also because they didn't seem supportive of what I wanted to do.  I let my job know that I would be leaving soon and I began to gather and pack up everything that I wanted to take with me.  A new chapter of my life was about to start and the best news in the world was given to me by the beautiful Megels.  She said that being down there was what she needed and felt so much better there.  So much so that she wanted to reconsider us being together and if I was still interested, once we were all settled, we could pick up being together again.  My heart could barely take much more happiness and you could probably see my eyes turn into hearts of their own.  Packing up wasn't too hard but saying goodbye to my family was.  I kept wondering if I would be okay being so far from them, I wouldn't be able to see them whenever I wanted anymore.  I had never seen my parents cry like they did the night I left.  My car was packed and we packed up a moving van with all of our stuff as well.

It was so surreal to me that this was actually happening.  But I didn't feel completely lost as I had someone there that I knew would be there.  Megels was the best reassurance anyone could ask for.  With tears in my eyes and a future unknown to me, I stepped on the gas and followed the truck towards my new life.  Would it be okay?  Would I find a job?  Would my parents be okay?  So many thoughts were going through my head.  The path before me was frightening but I had my guiding north star ahead of me so I knew I would never get lost.

The story continues in part 8.............

Missing you so much darlin dew drop.  Miss our walks and talks and holding you in my arms.  Life isn't complete without you.  With my heart reaching out into the stars of the night, I hope my love reaches you in your dreams.  Wishing you the sweetest of dreams sweetness.  The brightest star in my sky.  Always.

Love, Your Edward

xoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxooxoxooxoxoxoxoxo

This portion of the story didn't have many visual aids so here are some paintings I did for the Etsy store:

Spring of Coming and Goings

The new year started off with two people in love.  A new world full of new experiences and wonder had just opened itself up to be explored.  The cold temperatures of the winter season blew on with bitter cold breezes that annoyed all of those inside of it.  When the sky wasn't dropping snowflakes to cover the ground in white powder, the freezing temperatures were attacking noses and numbing fingers.  The best part of the winter season had passed and now it was the long trek towards the warmer season of spring.  While the times spent with the most beautiful girl in the world seemed to be going well for Edward, there were things not going so well inside of Megels.  Issues of career and contentment with her life were starting to take a little toll on her and the cracks in her own self happiness were starting to grow.  She was unable to enjoy her life when it wasn't where she wanted it to be happy with herself and one night she made the decision to depart the relationship that was bringing her smiles every day.  The night still draws pain when thought about and the memory while pushed down still is remembered.  There was something there that she didn't want to let go and try as she might to put on the face of how things should be, she couldn't deny that it wasn't the relationship that was making her unhappy.  The walk to her car that night still is fresh in the mind as I opened the door to her car so that she could get in for what I thought was the last time I would do it.  Turning on the engine, she sat in the seat while her radio played on behind her.  The lyrics permanently etched into my memory.
Say something I'm giving up on you.
As heartbroken as I was feeling, I still couldn't believe that that was what was playing around us as we said goodbye.  She shut the door, drove off, and I stood on that sidewalk corner for what seemed like years.  The cold biting around me all I could do was think that time stopped and wouldn't move again.  She didn't seem upset that much which seemed to me to be a little bit odd.  That turned out to be true as the next couple of days we would continue to talk and start to hang out more until it appeared like nothing had happened at all.  Our hearts had left such imprints on one another that there was a permanent link between us that formed a chain of love that held us together.  As we started to have more good times I can remember walking to her car again one night and her explaining what we were going to do the upcoming days and saying 'oh and we're back together if it wasn't obvious.'
Just those simple words almost had me sprout wings and float on up into the atmosphere.  It didn't matter that it was cold anymore, I didn't feel it, I was warm from the inside out.  With the winter season starting to slow down, we began our adventure together anew with more memories and fun together with things neither of us had done before.  As an artist, she loved what I could create and because of that I loved making things to see her smile and be in awe at.  An Art All Night event was attended together, a first for the both of us, and I thought what perfect piece to place in an exhibit for all to see would be the picture that I drew for her all those months ago while she was at work in Ohio and I wanted to send her something all day to keep her company.  The drawing I did of Angelina Jolie.  The night of the event we went and walked around looking at all of the pieces, searching out for mine and taking pictures of all the other pieces we thought were interesting including a framework structure that all could write or draw something on as they went through.

It was the first time since high school that I had had something be hung up for people to view.  It was exciting and gave me the bug for more things like it in the future.  The feeling of something I made being good enough to be shown at an event and something that meant something to me and held meaning as well.  The piece I drew for someone I loved and bringing that person with me to view the showing was a night I will never forget and the kind of night I want to take her to more of.  The winter weather was finally starting to calm itself down and with intense glee, we awaited any warmer weather we could get our hands on.  The holidays continued and Easter arrived with her introducing me to a tradition that her family did with egg hiding at her house with her sister.  It was really adorable to see how her family celebrated the holiday apart from how mine did with just coloring eggs and me drawing weird things on them.

With what life the cold weather had left in it, Megels made me laugh the best when one night she busted out a one piece feety pajamas that she wore to bed.  The way she jumped around in those covered feet and zipped up her body in that soft suit had me feeling like a kid again.  I couldn't stop laughing and was a little jealous I didn't have my own pair.  She lamented the fact that it was a little difficult to zip up the front over her breasts but it was beyond sexy to me to unzip her naked body underneath.  The nights continued while she worked on her homework on her online college classes and I toiled away at the grocery store  job while my parents decided that due to finances and bills that they were looking to move and would be moving to a new house that upcoming summer.  It wasn't a big deal as they were still moving in the area but I had felt powerless as I was unable to do much to help them out.  I didn't have enough money to do anything for them and it was sad knowing that soon I would have to say goodbye to a home I had known for around 20 years of my life.  Sporadic memories float around my brain, fragmented by emotions around me during that time.  There was a small parting of ourselves again due to her being upset by where her life was going and that time I took it a lot harder.  I opted to sleep on the floor next to my bed vowing that it wasn't right to sleep in the bed we shared without her.  We tried to make a deal of how to part and when to talk for a break but it was still obvious that neither of us were going to hold one another to it.  The days that went on without her were painful and empty like a piece of me had been taken from me.  I remember I looked at a picture of the wedding ring she wanted and would tear up.  There were some parting pains and she had taken to her friend and alcohol for some coping mechanism which resulted in a few of our shared inside jokes with one another.  My favorite being when she called me saying she was walking to my house and was halfway there, so I left my house running to find her and to find her walking down the street finding a white dandelion and going 'and and and and phooooo' and blowing the white petals all of the flower.  She would come to me and make broccoli soup which I always hated the smell but knew she liked eating.  I'll always remember one night as I curled up under a blanket to have a warm quiet night alone, I started watching Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back and ate cheez-its in my room when we started texting.  She missed it and said what I was doing sounded like a really nice night.  Credit to her friend that not too long after she called me to come down to a bar because Megels was there and she wanted us to talk.  I went down and the seeds of our love were obviously tried and true and our hands linked back up again.  To say I was happy would be the understatement of the year.  When I'm with her everything seems right in the world.  Food tastes better, colors are brighter, and I have an overwhelming sense of being where I'm supposed to be.  She gives me energy, passion, and a drive to achieve anything and everything I set my mind to.  When I look at her I feel like the person I'm supposed to be.  I missed her.  I missed her like nothing I would ever miss in my life.  The amount of memories just from the beginning of that year have the best place in my mind that I can pull from to give me a smile anytime I need it.  Megels wore a sexy outfit under her coat and came over my house to surprise me one night under the glow of my Christmas lights.  Took me to Kohls to get a few pairs of shoes that I adored and wore for the next almost 5 years.  We got lost driving behind businesses just to find Ikea and with every corner we turned, the back alley just kept going on and on.  The backyard fire pit at her friends house where we would sit to try and keep warm while stories were told.  Bringing her lunch and visiting her at the bridal shop where she worked, one time wearing my contacts to look even more attractive for when I visited.  Any and every second spent with her was like an all access tour of heaven and I was the guy with the golden ticket.  I was head over heels in love with her.  With summer approaching, everything suddenly came to a screeching halt.
The combination of her own unhappiness, life path, job feelings, and home life became too much for her to bare.  She needed to take a big break for herself to figure things out and get her own life on track before she was too unhappy to go on with anything else.  Which meant that I had to unfortunately see her go once more.  This time the pain was excruciating.  This time I didn't know if I would see her again.  The world seemed to go quiet.  Then my family found a new place and we had to start packing for the move to the new place.  The feeling of emptiness and loneliness without my loving Megels was taking on an actual physical form.  The days leading up to the move were empty.  Looking out around my room with everything taken out of it seemed like the manifestation of what my heart was feeling.  Every memory that had occurred in that room was about to be left there, just like she had left my life.

All I could do before I left was take a moment to walk around, touching the walls and crying over the memories that were etched into that room.  The place where she washed her face in the morning, the place where we watched the scary movies, sat on the floor and I fed her gummy bears, where I showed her my art, where we carved pumpkins, set up our tree, the places where we made love, the place where we exchanged gifts and gamed and held each other.  I had to say goodbye to it all.  It wasn't easy and when we left that house there was still a feeling in my heart that my love was still meant to be with the girl of my dreams.  The move to the new house wasn't super bad, taking a couple of days and full of sweat from moving boxes upon boxes and heavy furniture as well.  By the end of it, I was back to a new room in quiet, looking out the window at night wondering what she was doing and praying I would get to see her again.

If you had asked me before if I believed in God I don't think I would have an answer.  In my young naive mind I would probably need some sort of proof or scientific reason why I should.  But when you meet someone so perfect from your dreams that you had asked the night sky for every night of your life....your mindset changes.  I believed.  I believed because I started to run through my mind just how amazing the number of things that had to line up for us to meet and the sheer number of experiences, fun, and memories we had created in just that time we shared together.  Plus there was a feeling in my heart that I couldn't ignore.  Love isn't something someone can describe or put into words, it's a feeling that you get where you just know it.  It's a crazy feeling of being so sure of something without even needing to think.  It just happens and your body just knows it.  It sends signals to your brain and nervous system that you never feel with anything or anyone else.  Our hearts reached out to one another for a bit while I settled in to the new home but my heart received the worst stab of all when she sent me a message saying that she couldn't do this anymore and radio silence would be the best for us.  Which is what happened after that.  The time apart and not speaking anymore had me just trying to get by day to day.  I rode my bike twice a week for miles, bought some games to try and feel better, and tried to catch up on many movies that had piled up.  But it just wasn't the same.  I wanted to share with her, see her again, and show her that my heart was all hers and nobody elses.  I acquired a new job at a call center that I didn't like very much and after work I would play mario kart and ride my bike.  The days just seemed like the same day repeated over and over with no feeling to them.  I missed her.  She was the bright spot on a dark and cloudy day. 
Then something happened that reinforced my belief that there is a God.
Sitting at work one day I get a text from her saying that her friend moved to Florida and she didn't really have anything to do anymore and had quit her bridal store job and was a bit bored.  She wanted to hang out and I couldn't have said yes any faster.  This was my sign.
I had decided on the best way to see her again.  A zoo date.  Just like the beginning.

The story continues in part 7................

Missing you like crazy darlin.  Not a second of the day goes by where you aren't on my mind.  My heart is forever yours and the funnest adventure of life I know is in your hand.  I love you so very much and miss you even more.  The stars may be in the sky tonight but none shine as bright than when I am with you.  My heart is yours and will always be waiting dew drop.  Always.

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoooxoxooxoxoxoooxoxoxoxo

The Most Wonderful Time of the Year

Temperatures fell across the city and the clouds rolled in around the skies.  The silence of night fell over every street and breaking through the darkness came a single white flake.  December was the last month of the year but it brought with it the happiest and most joyful of all holidays and most beautiful of all weather conditions.  The stores decorated their windows with colorful lights that splashed over the sidewalks an array of rainbow designs.  Handfuls of Christmas songs filled the air in every building and on every radio station bringing in the season with the happiest of glee.  Tinsel wrapped around lampposts and pictures of Santa Claus in every window.  With the conditions just right, a million unique snowflakes fell from the sky in a dance so beautiful that it looked like it was raining crystals from the sky.  Our first Christmas together had arrived and we made sure it was a most memorable one.  The mall job took a turn to run us ragged and morphed into a job that neither of us were happy with.  From late hours to resets that took up our entire night leaving us time to stop at McDonalds and retreat home to watch Are You Afraid of the Dark all night.  Driving behind you when leaving and talking on the phone to see who would make it home first was always looked forward to.  I began to fashion together a group of presents that I was sure you would like and made a final decision to not work at the mall anymore.  With the time freed up I would leave flowers in your car door handle, visit you for lunch, and meet you afterwards to all the jealous comments of the fellow coworkers.  It was always a joy to see your smiling face walk into the grocery store on your way home after work to see me and spend time with me, leaving me on cloud 9 for the rest of my shift.  Nights spent with you were the best as we expanded our interests and had more fun times and memories created.  There are video game nights in particular that always spring to mind, there I was with a hot gamer girl in my room playing games with a smile on her face.  There was something way beyond attractive to see her painted nails pressing those buttons and her eyes staring through her glasses at a level she was trying to conquer.  Her favorite Nintendo game was Ducktales and they had recently remade the game with new graphics on current consoles and I surprised her one night by getting it for her and having it ready for her to play.  This along with another of her childhood games, Mystical Ninja for N64 of which one night she proceeded to show me how to get through the game like she did when she was younger.  She had reached a particularly tough boss, a giant robot, and was doing her best to try and beat it having never done so before.  Concentration was hard and the suspense was killing me when all of a sudden the villain of her past was defeated and she whipped her head around in such pure joy yelling I did it!
Spending time with her on lunches was one of the best parts of my day, any way I could see her more was worth anything and everything to me.  The mall job continued to treat her badly and she ended up pulling a double shift one day, spending the in between longer lunch with her, we took a small detour to the hardware store to pick out a tree that we would use for our Christmas tree.  It was a shorty but had all the qualities of our first tradition together.  We rested in the car for a small nap before taking her back to work, me and the tree driving back home to be set up for later. 
The holiday season holds some of the most special memories for me with the love of my life.  For the first time in my life I could honestly say that I was happier than I thought I would ever be.  Christmas lights were hung along the ceiling of the room to give the room a colorful glow that was calming and festive at the same time.  The tree was set up on the counter that we used to carve pumpkins and a night was chosen to decorate it together.  She had provided an abundance of ornaments and I chose one that would be ours for our first holiday together.  We spent the night decorating while listening to Christmas music, the feeling of sharing in something so special and making it ours made my heart shoot off fireworks.  Words have trouble describing just how perfect the night was.  I had fallen for her with every inch of my soul, just watching her put the ornaments in the perfect places and taking in the fact that I was involved in the start of something we were going to share together.  The snowflakes falling outside, songs playing over the air, lights glowing around us, Christmas truly was the season of love and happiness.

The little things always happen to leave the biggest impressions on the mind no matter how much time passes since they happen or what else occurs around them.   Sticking out most in my head was the white winter hat that she would wear during the winter, her hair would fall out of the side covering half of her face in the most perfect way.  The way you would roll your sleeves up halfway up your forearm revealing your skin and that attracting the butterflies inside me like a field of flowers.  The crinkle of your nose when you would smile at me that spoke words to me without you even opening your mouth.  That crinkle was something we shared between us as a silent I love you.  If I ever am having a bad day I think of that crinkle and my insides feel all funny, giving me a smile for that day.  These days that crinkle is needed more than ever.
Like the snowflakes that fell from the winter sky, there were many little moments and idiosyncrasies that you did that were the world to me.  The way you plugged your phone into your car to charge it while the Bluetooth connected to your car so you could play your music.  The way you would let me sit with you in the morning at the vanity while you did your makeup and I would watch you in the mirror.  You have such natural beauty that you never need makeup.  The way you called your dog Bugaboo and kept your laptop under your bed.  The way we would sit on the couch in your living room and watch TV with your mom before going up to your room for the night.  The way you said my name.  The way you didn't like public affection but always loved it when I held you from behind.  The way you watched me draw in both awe and honest interest.  The way you would smoke and tell me stories.  The way you loved me.
Christmas came with joy abound and we traded our gifts to one another.  I had tracked down a signed Supernatural picture with the signatures of Sam and Dean on it to which you couldn't believe your eyes and then were surprised once more when Luigi's Mansion  was finally in your possession.  We continued our festivities by getting the new super mario game for wii u and having a week of love before the new year where we had wine and Chinese food.  Your favorite being Reisling with the barefoot on it.  Christmas cookies were made at your house with your sister and her friend and while gingerbread houses were attempted, none could stand up to provide proper living for the candy people.  You showed me the ways of the smear, sprinkle, done technique and I took my time to carefully create two cookies of characters from pop culture.

We celebrated New Years with many a kiss at midnight, another holiday of a first being together.  The winter may have brought with it cold temperatures and freezing drives to work but nothing could keep the happiness and love down as long as I was with you.  Every night ending with the phrase 'sweet dreams Megels, nighty night' became the words that escaped my lips before I drifted off to sleep every night.  The rest of the month provided a smattering of small moments from me getting a bad cold and you giving me Nyquil that knocked me out faster and more deeply than a prized boxing fighter TKO'ing me in one punch.  You having issues with the mixing of medicine and alcohol providing a Christmas night at the casino that you always threaten to kill me if I talk about.  Seeing the movie Frozen before anyone and already knowing it was going to be a hit, I'll never forget how much it made you laugh when the snowman's head shot off when he tried to stifle a sneeze.  Cleaning the snow off of your car before you left for work.  Coming home one morning after a morning shift to find you sitting up in my bed playing Banjo-Kazooie.  Going to our first comic con together and feeling like we were actually somewhere where we belonged.  It's an amazing experience going somewhere like that with someone you love and being able to share it the same exact way liking the same things.  The love of my life who I want to take to every comic con instead of concerts.  How proud we were to meet the black ranger.

The year ended with two nerdy gamers who fell in love in the best way possible, brought together by a once in a lifetime series of events that would never have played out the same had one thing been different.  All it would have taken was one decision, one change of mind, one lunch break and the series of events leading to love would never have taken place.  The young boy who would sit at his window after watching a romantic movie that looked to the stars wondering if his one was out there would never have thought that it would actually come true.  And with someone so beautiful.  It brought hope, happiness, and faith by delivering a wish that was called out nightly for years.  Megels was the angel that heard the call and was sent down to touch the heart of this Edward.  No Christmas was ever Christmas unless she was a part of it and it felt like the next chapter of life being with someone and sharing in holidays that started traditions of their own.  When you're young you see your parents doing things and having their own traditions they do every year and you sit and watch wondering if one day you'll be doing the same.  There is a sense of accomplishment once it happens, a feeling like you are on the right path and doing something right.  All it took was one cute girl with a crinkly nosed smile to hold my hand and tell my heart that it found its way and that now it could travel on the path of love to even more memories and traditions and holidays.  The New Year was celebrated with fireworks, kisses, love making, wine tasting, and true love.  She held on to me that night and fell asleep on my chest, clutching on to me like a spider monkey.  Trying harder than ever to not jump out of bed giggling in happiness, I looked out of my window up at the stars and silently whispered "Thank you."
The New Year's resolution forming in my head, to be the best I could to her and have the happiest funnest future. 

The story continues in part 6............

I miss you like crazy dew drop.  Your letter keeps me going through each day.  My heart will always be yours and standing in that door.  I miss our fun times and know there is so much more to be had.  I miss you beautiful and love you with all of my heart.  A future with you is worth anything and any wait.  I am yours always and forever.

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

The Season Brings Golden Colors of Love

They say that true love rises above distance and time.  The bond between two people who are made for one another forms a chain that becomes stronger as time goes on and with how it is tested along the way.  The first test of time apart came that summer when Megels was called upon to be a part of her friends wedding down in Mexico.  Truth be told that because of past instances with previous girls, I was a little nervous and worried about what may happen while she was away.  Having had issues with trust, cheating, and drinking in the past, it wasn't crazy to be a little worried about it happening again.  But, it is wise never to punish the current for the missteps of the past.  She made an agreement with me to write me every day on what happened and make sure to let me know how things were during the week to alleviate my anxiety.  She was already proving to be the best girl I had ever met.  When she was able to and the connection was fine, she would message me how things were and that she missed me and I spent my time working at the mall store and grocery store to pass the days.  In the middle of the week she surprised me with a few seconds long snapchat photo of her with nothing on and my head exploded.  It was the hottest most attractive photo I had ever seen.  I couldn't keep my mouth shut at the mall job to the other workers on how much I missed her and liked her and couldn't wait for her to come home.  While she was gone I wrote her a poem and had it placed on top of a picture we took together.  I sent it her way and her response was more than I could have hoped for.  I was truly for the first time in my life in the truest of love.  Every word of that poem rings true today, meaning just the same and more as it did then.

The week went by quicker than I thought it would and before I knew it, her adorable face was home.  The first thing she did was see me and she went through her laptop notepad to read to me what she did every day and the events that took place, including a hospital scare.  Everything went fine and now it was my lucky turn to spend the days with her.  The summer season was winding down, the colors of the leaves were changing on the trees.  Luscious greens were fading to lustrous golden yellows and oranges.  The temperatures began to cool down with breezes blowing around the fallen leaves all over the streets.  Halloween was approaching and the two of us chose to watch some scary movies to celebrate the season.  The tradition of the season was to carve pumpkins and having never really done so myself, it was time to start a wonderful new tradition with the one I loved.  Each getting a small pumpkin we began our carving duties while my laptop played episodes of Big Bang Theory for us to laugh at as we carved.  Designs from Mario adorned our pumpkins as we carved around all the lines having tons of fun, taking breaks here and there to cuddle and reunite our lips.

Wanting to stay in the Halloween spirit, a trek to the nearest redbox yielded two movies that were sure to test our spirits.  The first being one called Mama and the other being Sinister.  The beautiful girl sat close, her arm around mine during suspense and being creeped out a bit by the weird looking woman in the first movie.  The ending ruined it for her and she was feeling fine after that one.  Then we put on Sinister and a new level of fear of which neither of us were prepared for.  I had never seen someone be as frightened as she was and there was a particular fright that had her jump ten feet in the air and punch her arm out wildly in front of her.  She was shaking a little and even though I offered to turn it off, we finished it and put something very very cute, young, and funny on afterwards to come down off of our fear trip.  There is something magical and connecting about sharing in an experience that involves fear and scares.  The feeling of not going through it alone and knowing that someone else is there with you experiencing it too.  Being with a girl you love adds another layer of protection making you want to look tough and unphased by the movie but difficulty doing so because, well let's face it, some of that stuff is scary!  The light was left on that night in case any of the monsters felt it necessary to leap from the television and eat us alive in the middle of the night.  We snuggled up very closely that night and she held on to me in a spider monkey-like grip that made me smile all night.  My heart was falling more and more with her and I knew I had made the best decision of my life to want to be with this girl for the rest of my life.
November brings with is the most golden time of the year but also the beginnings of colder temperatures.  The prettiest girl in the world only got more beautiful as her fashion took on a new wardrobe for colder weather.  She wore a winter hat that I fell in love with and anytime I saw her in it was so cute I wanted to always take a picture of it.  A new adventure awaited us in the form of two wonderful dates to places neither of us had ever been to.  The first being the Aviary with every manner of bird inside especially her favorite.  The penguins.  We were able to watch them be fed and had a lot of fun in a room where the birds ran free.  Phipps astounded us with all manner of flowers and plant life and a room where she said would be beautiful to have a wedding in.  When she wasn't photobombing the pictures I was trying to take.

I could watch her all day, just looking at every single inch of her from her beautiful hair to her cute little toes.  Every outfit she wore looked amazing on her, every accessory perfect.  Looking at her was like looking at every perfect painting in an art gallery with each one more and more wonderful than the last.  They say that nobody is perfect but to me she was every single bit of perfect.  Because of that she made me feel perfect.  The fun tradition of sharing and looking at the pictures we each took during the day was something i looked forward to after a day out on a date with her.  My laptop is full of pictures that I look at all the time from these dates.  I finally felt like I belonged somewhere, like I had a purpose.  Like I mattered.  Someone truly special was right by my side and I couldn't think of anything else that could have made me happier.   The next season was the most wonderful time of the year and I was going into it with my soul mate.  Christmas in love was about to become the happiest time I had ever had.

The story continues in part 5..............

xoxoxo I miss you darlin, my heart aches for you.  I miss our nights together and our days intertwined in arms.  Under the moonlight I sit and wait in that doorway, praying for that moment when I can see you again.  There's so much more fun to be had with us and I couldn't think of a more perfect life than one with your hand in mine.  I love you dew drop. xoxooxxo

Love, Your Edward