I Miss You So So Much

I miss you so much, Megels.  Every day just seems to feel worse than the last.
I'm so sad and depressed and I try everything I can but nothing seems to work.  This position in life that I've gotten myself into has just torn me down so far that I have trouble even seeing the future.  Making the mistakes I made have haunted me to the point of sleepless nights anymore.  They are so difficult to live with.  I know it's probably crazy to think that late at night when you are awake by yourself, you may check in on this to see if I've written anything.
But I always hope so.
The thoughts of you and how our life was down there are a double edged sword.  They are without a doubt the happiest times of my life.  I was truly happy.  The happy that I always dreamed about and wished for growing up.  I was utterly convinced that a soul mate was a real thing.  My chest hurts when I think that I let homesickness and weakness ruin it all.
I should have been stronger for you, took more charge and expanded myself for you.  Let me tell you, being with someone who isn't your soul mate and doesn't share anything in common with you.....it's a nightmare.  Toss in verbal abuses and confidence destroying things....I feel like just a shell of who I once was.
With you I felt like I was the luckiest person in the world and could succeed at anything I put my mind to.  My movies, my etsy store, just life in general.  It's all because of you.
I'm tired of crying myself to sleep or having anxiety attacks every day.  It's like a broken record of the same week over and over.
I found that I have a PTSD-like reaction to everything that I miss and have lost with us.  I can't think about Universal, the things we'd say in line, the walk back to the car afterwards, our apartment and the music filled cleaning days, holding hands on the beach, watching our favorite shows, helping each other play video games and your lego potter addiction.  I can't think about or hear the music from Harry Potter without wanting to cry.
There's so much I want to share with you, so much I want to do with you.  I messed it up so badly and dealing with it here.....it's just getting darker.
You are the one person I would do anything for.  The one person I would wait this lifetime and the next just for one more chance with.
You said you could be your real self with me, the singing in the car at the top of her lungs, mario kart beating, supernatural loving, star wars quoting, nerdy tshirt wearing, video game sharing, funny, beautiful self.
I still read that hand written letter you sent me.  The words are my lifeline to keep me getting through every day. Our blue box still sitting with me holding a treasure trove of memories accentuating the definition of happiness.
I'm not happy at all and I think of you every single day.  Whatever meaning the word has left.....I'm sorry.  I'm so so sorry.  That day I packed up the uhaul....I should've unpacked it all while you were at work.  That was the biggest mistake I've ever made.  I want to be down there with you, living our cute little life that we had.  I want to make you my wife and have beautiful children.  I don't want to drag my feet or settle. 
We share so much in common and always got along.  We appreciated each other and knew the other inside and out.  I don't believe that what you are doing now or living now is the real you.  The beautiful soul who didn't let money change them or forget about who they were.  You're the girl who sings sisters and spice girls while wearing a chewbacca shirt and a darth vader ringtone. 
I miss you
I miss us
If these words manage to reach you or something in the middle of the night reminds you of us.....I hope they reach your heart.  I don't belong here.
I miss home
I miss you.
Whatever this crazy disease filled world is turning into....I know the one person I want by my side through every second of it.  And that's you, Megels.

Always

Love, Your Edward
no matter when or how long
You are who I want to grow old with

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Be Safe My Beautiful Soul Mate xoxox

I don't think you will
Ever fully understand
How you've touched my life, Megels
And made me who I am

I don't think you could ever know
Just how truly special you are
That even on the darkest nights
You are my brightest star

I don't think you will ever fully comprehend
How you've made my dreams come true
Or how you've opened my heart
To love and the wonders it can do

You've allowed me to experience
Something very hard to find
Unconditional love that exists
In my body, soul, and mind

I don't think you could ever feel
All the love I have to give
And I'm sure you'll never realize
You've been my will to live

You are an amazing person, Megels
And without you I don't know where I would've been
Having you in my live
Completed and fulfilled every part of me

All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart
And for us to be together, never to be apart
No one else in the world can even compare
You're perfect and so is this love that we shared

We had so much more than I ever thought we would
I love you more than I ever thought I could
I promise to give you all I have to give
I'll do anything for you as long as I live

In your eyes I see our present, our future and past
By the way you look at me I know we will last
I hope that one day you'll come to realize
How perfect you are when seen through my eyes

Be very safe darlin dew
This is a scary time with the end in mystery
I wish I was stuck in with you
Just being near you is the best adventure

Missing you so very much
Loving you every single day more
Be safe while the world around us becomes poisoned
Know that you are on my mind
Every second that I am awake

Always

Love, Your Edward
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In That One Special Place

These are such crazy and unknown times
I'm scared and don't know what to expect
The one constant I have is writing to you, Megels
I know you probably haven't read these in months
Months and months
But I can't stop
Something in my heart keeps pushing me
Even if the hope of one day  with you
Is just a flicker in the dark

I lie on the ground
And stare into space
The stars start to move
Into the shape of your face

I see you there now
Looking down at me
With that cute little smile
That I like to see

You say close your eyes
Tell me what you see
I see only two people
Just you and me

We're walking the shoreline
With our feet getting wet
The horizon turns pink
As the sun starts to set

We make love through the night
On that white sandy shore
Then I hold you while thinking
I could want nothing more

Oh I wish I could be
In that one special place
As I lie on the ground
And I stare into space

I pray you are safe and not affected by the virus
You never deserve to feel sickness
Only love and sweetness
I miss you darlin dew
Every day I replay our days together in my head
No matter how depressed I get over them
I hope one day we can make more

Always

Love, Your Edward
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You Are The Most Important Part

Sometimes at night
When I look to the sky
I start thinking of you, Megels
And then I ask myself, why?

Why do I love you
I think and smile
Because I know the list could run on
On and on for miles

The whisper of your voice
The warmth of your touch
So many little things
That make me love you so much

The way you supported me
Helped with my emotions
The way that you cared
And showed such devotion

The way that you kissed
It filled me with desire
How you held me with warmth
Like that of a blazing fire

The way your eyes shined
When you looked at me
Lost with you forever
Is where I want to be

The way that I feel
When you're by my side
A sense of completion
And overflowing pride

The dreams that I dream
That all involve you
The possibilities I see
And the things we can do

How you finish the puzzle
That lies inside my heart
How that deep in my soul
You are the most important part darlin

I could go on for days
Telling of what I feel
But all you really must know
Is my love for you is real, Megels

Always

Love, Your Edward
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In Your Soul I Found My Home

The sparkle in your eye
The warmth of your skin
Your breath on my neck
That quivers within

The touch of your hand
The smell of your hair
The kindness in your smile
That strength in your stare

Your kiss on my lips
Your body near mine
The stroke of your touch
That feeling inside

The sound of your voice
Compassion in your embrace
The serenity in your stride
The power in your face

The calming of your presence
The beating of your heart
The promise of tomorrow
That we may never part

The beauty of your kiss
And that magic in your touch
It is for all these reasons and more
Why I love you so much, Megels

So as the candles flicker softly
On the table set for two
There's no one on the Earth tonight
Except for me and you

A nice romantic dinner
A bottle of chilled wine
We would be there together
In a moment stopped in time

A love so few have ever known
This is its birth night
Alone within our little world
You and I and candle light

So soon we will set free the feelings
That we want to share
And I am held here spellbound
By your laughter in the air

Thoughts of love like falling leaves
Swirling in the autumn breeze
Flow in our minds and in our eyes
A tender look and longing sighs

We touch and as the fire starts
That we have kindled in our hearts
We kiss and hear the angels sing
As heavens gift to me you bring

No more to live my life alone
And in your soul I found my home
At peace within your loving arms
Captivated by your charms

And happily I'd die for you
Here at this table set for two

Always

Love, Your Edward
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Forever Is What I Want With You

When you are not here to share my days and nights
My life is so incomplete
For you, Megels, are my heart and soul
The oneness I had known to seek

Without you I merely exist from day to day
With you I know that I will find
All that I have been searching for
My completeness, my eternal peace of mind

You are the keeper of my dreams
The woman who holds my heart in her hands
The one I want to spend my life with
The one with whom I will always stand

Stand beside through thick and thin
Through all that life will throw our way
Knowing that this special love we share
Will guide us, each and every day

This journey was started long ago
Before this time and place
The journey of completeness
As two hearts and souls embrace

Forever is what I want with you
For the search is at an end
Our hearts have found each other
As lovers, as soul mates

Remember those mornings we would eat breakfast
After spending the night under your sheets
Your laptop under your bed
We made a bed fort to play luigi's mansion

I miss you so much
All the fun and adventures we had
You never judged me
You were just like me

There's nobody I'd rather spend every day with
Whether it was phone or video or in person
I felt alive with you
A feeling my heart can never recreate

You are the best thing to ever happen
The best all of it
My constant memory running through my head
The letter you wrote always by my eyes

Always

Love, Your Edward
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When You First Held My Hand

If time could stand still
I'd freeze it here
So you'd always hold me, close and near
In your arms, where I'm meant to be

Filled with the perfect love you gave me, Megels

A bond so strong
A hold so tight
To know you're the one, my darlin dew
A blessing sent from up above

In you I had found my one true love

Our lives entwined to be as one
Upon this journey we just began
Where you and I will find no less
Than eternal love and happiness

The first time we met, I could see
That you and I, were meant to be
Your eyes were so gently
Your smile so true

When you first held my hand, I just knew

With time going by, through laughter and tears
Those days I shall cherish for years upon years
Those memories we have, shall never fade
For those are the steps, that we have made

That was the past, the future is near
I anxiously wait, for what will appear
New homes, more laughter, more memories
Everything could be wonderful

If only you were near, Megels

If only I could be yours once more
Missing you so much darlin

Always

Love, Your Edward
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You Are Proof There Are Angels

It is said there are angels

In heaven above

And they shine with the light

Of an inner love

Of these things

I had not a clue

But that was

Before I found you, Megels

For in you I found

A love that is so right

It shines all around

With the brightest of light

It comes from somewhere

So deep within

That it has no beginning

And knows no end

Your love is a light

That brightens each day

Of all of the people

You see on your way

Where ever you go

Or whatever you do

All see the love

That you have inside you

That God sent you here

To a place where you'd be

Sharing such love

With someone like me

Is proof for me

That angels exist

And are filled with a love

That no man could resist

I thank God each day

For finding the time

For looking down on me

And making you mine

So yes there are angels

In heaven above

I know because God

Sent me one to love

That one was you darlin

Not a second goes by

Where I don't think of your face

The sound of your voice

My arms miss you body

Lips miss your touch

Every single memory of us

Running through my head ever so much

Always

Love, Your Edward

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I Day Dream of You

I was sort of hoping
That you would come along darlin
Like the answer to a prayer
And the music to a song

Like the kind of thing that happens
At a special place and time
That will change our lives forever
Like a fantasy of mine

The fantasy was there before
I ever knew your name
And now that I have found you
We will never be the same

So pardon, if I look at you
Forgive me if I stare
At the fantasy I knew before
I saw you standing there

For I was always hoping
That you would come along, Megels
Like the answer to a prayer
And the music to a song

Whenever I day dream
And day dream I do
In my secret garden
I day dream of you darlin

I day dream of you
In a faraway land
Embracing me tight
And holding my hand

Holding my hand
Touching my face
Just you and me
In this peaceful place

In this peaceful place
A pristine river flows
Where the unicorns run
A breeze always blows

A breeze always blows
And sings of a song
Our love in a place
Where you've never gone

Where you've never gone
Is as it would seem
From dusk until dawn
Whenever I day dream

And whenever I day dream
And day dream I do
In my secret garden
I day dream of you, Megels

Always

Love, Your Edward
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Love That Awaits

I'd give anything to see the sun set on the horizon
I'd do anything to gaze at a full moon in the night sky
Even a rainbow would make me smile
And I'd love to swim in crystal clear waters
Of an untouched sea

Sometimes I'll see a shooting star
And try to gaze from afar
All the diamonds in the night sky
The mist on the mountains is breathtaking
As is walking in the rainforest
To see cascading waterfalls I'd do anything for

As to stand on the highest peak in the world
And look at the sights below
I'd love to soar on wings above the clouds
Across the bluest skies
I'd do anything to see
All the beautiful things in the world

Like a red rose blooming in the Sahara
Like a river twisting through a dusty land
All the beautiful things in the world
But I also know I am looking at
The world's most beautiful creation
Every time you smile, Megels
And every time I look into your eyes

A thousand fair suitors all stab at your heart
Those poets of movement and jockeys of art
The high volume vendors who hustle romance
Splashing their canvas with color and dance
The blasters of trumpets, gold banners unfurled
They offer lush gardens in glistening worlds
Bearers of torches and carvers of stone

Who whisper their sonnets and surrender their thrones
And there in your doorway, no shadow is cast
No lingering voices, no ghosts from the past
Just a cluster of walls, and a window of pain
Collecting the heartache like droplets of rain
Still I stand before you, with palms to the sky
No gold in my pocket, no thorn in my side

And all I can offer, where words have no place
Is a body that trembles, and this love that awaits

Always

Love, Your Edward
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Until My Last Breath

Feelings that were once hidden
Are now expressed to you
Days that once were stormy
Are now the brightest blue

Times that once were lonely
Are now filled with pleasure
All that once was mine alone
Are now things we both treasure

Nights that once were cold
Are now comforting and warm
Fears that once were very real
Are now gone with the storm

A heart that once was broken
Can now finally mend
A person once alone in life
Can now call you a friend

Dreams that once were longed for
Are now all coming true
The love I once thought was gone
I had then and forever in you, Megels

The sun rises above the hillcrest
As does the joy of my heart
Rays of warmth and love
From her I will never depart

Fresh dew upon the grass
Young birds chirp in their nests
I watch her gently sleep
My love to her I silently profess

I enjoy the stillness and calm
Watching as she smiles and dreams
She brings me to stillness and peace
Like that of a slow flowing stream

My heart and soul flow with love
And I smile as I quietly reflect
I've been handed a sweet princess
A sweet princess to love and to protect

A vow to myself I make
As she quietly sleeps away
To love and always cherish her
Until my last breath
Until my last day
To you darlin dew

Always

Love, Your Edward
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You Walked Into My Life Darlin

You walked lightly into my life, Megels

Captivating and lovely to my mind

At first, I only told you stories every day

Now I don't know who I am without you

You kissed me

I felt my world change

You held me

I heard my heart awaken

You loved me

And my soul was born anew

You walked lightly into my life

Now my heart knows who you are

And with every breath

And every step

I take down lonely roads

Your hand is my staff

Your voice is my guide

Your strength is my shelter

Your passion my awakening

You walked lightly into my life

And all my pain

You took as your own

And all my fears

You cast into the sea

All my doubt

Lost in your eyes

You walked lightly into my life

And no matter how long I must wait

My life is forever changed

Just because you loved me

For a moment in time

And because I choose

To love you, Megels

For the rest of mine

If I knew how to write a song

I'd write one everyday

It would say that I'm in love with you

And why I feel this way

It would have to say you're pretty

And as rare as a desert rose

It would say you're a looker

From your head down to your toes

You are funny, dainty, fragile

And as feminine as can be

You're smart, charming, lovely

And everything to me

You're my comfort when I'm lonely

You're my peace when I need rest

Of all the women I've known

I must rate you the best

You're the orchard in the jungle

You're the better half of me

You're all of this and so much more

You mean the world to me

Still so much is left unsaid

It would take me far too long

I know how much I love you

If only I could write a song

I would tell you every single day

How much I miss you

Always

Love, Your Edward

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My Heart Beats Because of You

I was once lost in darkness
A wandering nomadic fool
Teetering on the edge of reason
About to plunge into the abyss
Then a light shone down
Lifted me out of darkness
Touched my soul with grace
And beat love into my heart
That was when I met you, Megels
My darlin dew

For so long
You had continued to save me
Day after day
You gave me the reason to be
To live and to feel love
To go on and find my dreams
As long as you were there
I just wanted to let you know
That I could never fully express
How much I feel for you
When I love you
Seems so simple
How can you put into words
The power of desire I have for you
Pray to God
Channel the muse
And let my fingers type the words

My heart beats because of you
My soul is bright and alive
Because of you
And even when the trails of today
Seem to distract me
My love is always devoted to you darlin
It is eternal within my heart
Like a constant thunder in my soul
Your soul is like the vastest sea
And mine a darting fish
I lose myself within your love
I live within your heart
I breathe your love, it is my air
My element, my world

I know no other ambiance
I have no other dream
I know there is outside your love
A world of rocks and sand
And I could live there, too
How poor and thin each breath
How rich my world, how beautiful
Alive within your love, Megels
Each moment filled with dancing light
Refracted through your eyes

Always

Love, Your Edward
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My World, My Heart, You Darlin

Just three little words
Don't seem like enough
For someone whose smile
Still brightens my day

Whose touch could make me forget
The rest of the world

They don't seem like enough
For someone who's always been there
To celebrate with me
When everything would go my way

To hold my hand
When my whole world
Seemed to fall apart

But even though I love you
Can't express the depth
Of my feelings for you, Megels
I know you know what's in my heart

Because loving you
Means more to me
Than anything in the world
And it always will

If there is one face I want to see
So beautiful, so true
One  smile that makes a difference
To everything I do

If there's one touch I long to feel
One voice I long to hear
Whenever I am happy
Or just needing someone near

If there's one joy, one love
From which I never want to part
It is you, Megels, my special love
My world
My life
My heart

I miss you so much Megels
I wish so badly to be near you again
Hear you
Feel you
Make you laugh

Always

Love, Your Edward
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Gaze Upon With An Open Heart

Regret flows from the depths of my soul
With the strength of a flood
I have held these gates shut for too long
And though tormenting, they should not be stopped

The thought of you far away, Megels
Even as I write to you now
Stops my heart cold
As well it should

What I see in front of me
Is a painting of our love
Its most thoughtful brushstrokes
Mottled by hurried abstraction and inattention

A person who had not seen this masterpiece created
Might think it to be refuse and pass it by unknowingly
Letting be obscured the deep beauty of its many scenes
By layers of the tarnish of mistreatment

But as the painter
I see beyond the dark smears
To recall the hours that I attended to the details
And wonder how I could let it become so discolored

The painting that took me my life to create
Has lost its divinity in my careless treatment
And even if I were to refine it
I fear you would always see it as it is today

So today I paint a new masterpiece
One inspired by the muse of respect
A work that you can love through our old age
One that you will look to each day for inspiration

This one will take some time
As I want my brushstrokes to be carefully placed
I need to move steadily to ensure that this time
My art represents my dream

This is my opus
Don't judge me on my past works
As I have never before had so much skill and inspiration
And never before have I wanted to please you as I do today

With you and my children as my muse
I will paint for you a lifetime, Megels
A portrait of devotion and friendship
A panorama of passion and admiration

All I ask is that you gaze upon it with an open heart
And you shall unquestionably love me again darlin

Always

Love, Your Edward
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I Want You As My Sky Companion

I think that I might fly away
In my hot air balloon
And hide from worldly worries
On the dark side of the moon

There's but one thing I need
Before I float into the blue
I need a sky companion
And I want it to be you, Megels

We'll fly beyond the storm clouds
We'll watch from up above
I'll cover you in rainbows
As we feel each other's love

You'll shower in the stars at midnight
In our special place
I'll dry you with a comet's tail
Kiss your beaming face

Dreamy drifting panorama
Changing every day
Every night your loving smile
Will be my milky way

The moon will wane before us
Sailing there in heaven's height
For nothing else can challenge
Our love's everlasting light

Venus shining on us
Glowing soft at our devotion
Our daily drifting dalliance
In love's celestial ocean

I'll write you lover's poetry
And you will be my muse
Orion and Andromeda
Will oversee our cruise

We'll sleep with clouds as pillows
Maybe steal an angel's wings
Then fly as magic lovebirds
Or slide around Saturn's rings

And should we tire of drifting
And the stars all floating by
We'll hook onto a meteor
And soar across the sky

Will you consent to be my mate
On our celestial ship
I'm ready, heart all packed with love
To last us for the trip

Take my hand and step aboard darlin
We're heading for the sun
We're flying until we find the place
Where our two souls are one

That's the place I want to be
Right next to you
Because with you at my side
I'll always be home

Always

Love, Your Edward
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You Are My Sunshine, My Life

A solitary rose grew in the darkest corner of the garden
Surrounded by many others
Yet remained alone

Time passed and trials came and went
One dealt a severe blow
And the rose began to wilt and wither

Forgotten

Then as if by a miracle

There came a soft and gentle breeze
Followed by a ray of light
As all the other roses fell into darkness
The solitary rose began to shine

Shining with a special light
And watered by a gentle cascade
A cascade of love
A cascade of selfless affection

I do no now but forever
Said the rose to the sunlight
And there they remain
A rose in full bloom
With her sunshine smiling down on her

You are my sunshine, my life, Megels
My very soul
And I your rose blooming
Blooming in the light of your love

Missing you
Loving you
The memories of ours always in my heart
Beating day after day

Always

Love, Your Edward
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With You, I Was Home

How simple my life was when you were there, Megels
How I cherished each breath
How I craved the light
Craved the laughter you brought me

I had fallen in love without taking a step
Fallen into the sweetest of dreams
How I hoped no one would wake me
The simplest gesture wrapped itself around my heart

Where I would hold it forever

Each time we said goodbye, a part of me wept
Though I knew it was not forever
To my aching soul it was an eternity
I saw my happiness shine in your eyes

Every time you held my hand my heart skipped a beat
How sweet life was to be yours
How meaningless life was without you
They know nothing of the loneliness before you

Nothing of the empty tears I cried day after day
How did you do it, I asked myself
How did you banish fear and the darkness
You had made me see that nothing was that bad

That I was strong and worthy of happiness
You had saved me from myself
Everyday I woke up and smiled to myself
Knowing you were waiting for me

Knowing you couldn't wait to see me
How would I go on if you were not there to hold me up
To bless me with your love and light
How I was glad you had found me darlin dew

My life was complete
I was home
I cannot go a day without thinking about you
The life I would die to share with you again

Those weekends at Universal
Nights snuggled watching shows
Holding hands on the beach
Planning our future

I struggle so badly with the depression
The pain that I left that day
The mistakes I've made
All I can think about is your smile

And what I would do to have that again
I love and miss you so much

Always

Love, Your Edward
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The Most Intimate Place In My Heart

It is raining outside once again
Which is where I find myself looking out at the drops
Thinking of you, Megels
These are the times I find my mind wandering

Wandering to how I would love to spend my days
Every morning would start beautifully
With the sound of your sweet voice from a phone call
It's second best to actually embracing you in my arms

Under the covers that protect us from the chill that lies outside
Your melodic wake up laughter over the phone is second best
To the overwhelming smile I see in the morning
When I would hold you in my arms

After having spent another wonderful night with you
Your I love yous over the phone
Always made me smile and hold the phone tighter
Second best to looking into your eyes with those words

And being able to deeply kiss you afterwards
Sending a chilling warmth throughout our bodies
But with you
You were and still are my number one

The closest person in the world to me
With you, there is no second best
There is no one close to even being second or best
I hold you, alone, in the most intimate place in my heart

It's a place where I can feel you, still close
When you're far away
Where I can close my eyes, and hear your voice
Listen to your laugh, feel your I love yous

I miss hearing your voice over the phone
Because second to your kisses
There was no better way to end the day than your voice
No better way to begin the day than with you

How I miss our daily video chats and how we would laugh
The movies we would watch
The plans we would try and make
You even made sure to talk before spending the weekend at parents

I miss so much of you
My heart feels like it only beats half the time
Missing you harder and harder

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxooxoxoxooxxoxoxoxoxoxooxxoxooxoxooxoxxoxo

Heaven Is Missing An Angel

My sweet beautiful Megels
Sent to me from above
I am so grateful to have found you
And I give you all of my love

You must have come from heaven
Because you have pretty little angel eyes
When you gaze at me with me
My heart would begin to fly

Your sweet angelic voice
Continuously rings in my ears
With you by my side
There was nothing I feared

Whenever we were together
You shined with a heavenly glow
Your beautiful angel face
Raised me up from feeling low

Yes, Heaven is missing an angel
Because you are here with me
You were my sweet, beautiful angel
And I will love you for eternity darlin

To lay a kiss on your lips
So gentle and delicate
Was like picking the drops of dew
Off the petals of a rose

I held you close and felt safe
Sheltered in from the rain
From the storms that grew and surrounded me
I take your hand and look into your eyes
And see a heart made of gold and soul so pure

You see you are an angel, an angel to me
I could not help but fall madly in love with you
The one who stole my heart

I'm glad you did
Because I could never find one such as you
Some one who made each day the best
Each laugh the longest
Each tear the saddest
And a life
My life
Worthwhile

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxxoxoxoxoxxoxoxo

You Made A Place For Yourself In My Heart

I never felt a love
Like ours before
It was a love like no other
Something I had always hoped for

A love with friendship
Humor and heart
A bond so strong
It would never part

A love that made me smile
From ear to ear
A love that was joyful
Without any fear

A love that was beautiful
From the inside out
A love with no tears
Pain or doubt

A love with soul
So tender and true
A love that I had found
Only in you, Megels

You came into my life unexpectedly
And everything took a turn for the better
Your warm eyes, your laugh
The sincere way you spoke

The kindness you showed me
All became a part of my life
As you unfolded yourself to me
I discovered more and more beauty

I had never seen so much
Gentleness in one person
Without even knowing it
You were slowly making a place
For yourself in my heart

It used to seem so hard at times
To feel so close in a relationship
But it was so easy to feel close to you
I couldn't tell you how nice that felt
I realize now that I had never known
What it meant to be loved
Until I was loved by you, Megels

Missing you with my entire soul

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Your Beautiful Heart, Darlin Dew

Your lips
Your eyes
Your soul
Are like a work of art
The most creative thing of all
Is your beautiful heart, Megels

If you were a painting
No colors could express
The beauty deep inside you
A rainbow, nothing less

If you were a sculpture
The clay could hardly make
Your figure of an angel
Without one mistake

If you were a euphony
No choir could really sing
All the beautiful music
Your eyes could possibly bring

So here I am
An artist
With inspiration beyond belief
But to capture such rare beauty
I'd have to be a thief

As I look outside I see the breeze
Caress the leaves from the trees
And carry them to all around
Gently laid upon the ground

I see the birds so high above
Their songs sing of our special love
And laid upon their soft sweet wing
Your love to me they gently bring

And as they start their graceful descent
Delivering a message that's heaven sent
One thing I know and will hold so dear
When I see them fly I will feel you near darlin

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxxxooxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxxxoxoxoxoxoxo

I Give Myself With All Of My Heart

Where are you tonight my darlin
What is it that you do
It's true my heart is torn apart
When I'm not with you
What enchanted thoughts swim through your head
Are any of them of me
When, Megels, you go to bed
Is it my face you see

Who is honored with your presence now
And do they even care
The thought of you not being admired
Fills me with despair
Do they appreciate your loveliness
Do they marvel at your splendor
Do they love to hear your velvet voice
Do they adore your smile so tender

If they do not
Then they are all fools
And had you been with me
Every day, darlin
You'd be a queen
Because that's what you are to me

I'm at your feet
And I come with gifts
My body
My heart
My soul
They're yours to do with as you please
To command and to control

I give myself with all of my heart
I'm yours for all of time
Your slave
Your king
Your anything
Only say that you are mine

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

The Colors All Speak Of You

My adorable princess in the night
I searched the book of the cosmos for you
And there you were, Megels
My brightest star
A detailed flame of purest joy
That coalesced the heavens in extreme awe
The world, you have at your fingertips
And all the worlds and stars beyond
Tell me what you know of them
Do they shine from your essence
Or glow from the sight of your dramatic beauty
Do they travel the universe to be in unity with you
Do they wait for their cataclysmic fateful end
So that the shattering pieces that remain of them
May somehow find their way to the cradle of you
How I wonder what miraculous wonders you be store
How you make me weak in the knees to gaze at you
Hanging high up there in the blissful night sky
How do you think the stars befell enviously
They all want to radiate the systems of galaxies
But you will follow in your lead to perfection
It's when I come out late at night
And I feel all alone
I know you are there
Weightless over me
I know because my shortness of breath tells me
As my heart pounds rapid in my chest
And once again
You seduce me into a supernova
Stellar blaze of glory
Astral, luminescent sphere of light
From there to here is where you take me
As you have brightened all my ways of life

Made up of memories of you
Bound together with love
Sewn with your selfless giving
Threads made of grace
Lined with thoughts of you, Megels
Squares made of days gone by
Days we spent together
Each with a new design
Of the things that we shared
Blanket stitches of our hearts
Mingle the squares in rows
Nothing can tear it apart
Not fire or flood or anything close
It's kept in a place of my keeping
The treasure chest of my heart
Wrapped in tissue of forgiveness
And tied with ribbons of love
The colors all speak of you
Pinks and blues and other hues
Sewn tight and fastened together
With hope and faith and truth
That one day I will be yours
All yours once again

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

My Love Could Never Hide

You're the thought that starts each morning, Megels
The conclusion to each day
You are in all that I do
And everything I say

You're the smile on my face
The twinkle in my eye
The warmth inside my heart
The fullness in my life

You're the hand that's laced in mine
And the coat upon my back
My friend, my love
My shoulder to lean on

You're my silly, mature, caring
Thoughtful, bright, honest girl
The one I hold oh so tightly
When I needed to cry

You're the dimple on my cheek
The ever-constant tingle in my soul
The voice that makes me weak
The happiness in my life

You are all I've ever wanted
You are all I need
You are all I've dreamed of
You are all of this to me

I'd never known a love like yours
Nor thought it could be true
But every time I kissed your lips
I felt what love could do

With hair like silk
Lips so tender
Each moment spent with you
Made my heart surrender

I couldn't live, I couldn't breathe
Without you by my side
Never could I let you go
My love could never hide

In my heart is where you'll always be
From now until forever
No matter what, no matter where
I will wish we were together, Megels

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxooxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Changed It All For The Better

I feel so lost
So stagnant
So sad
Like I'm circling the drain

Time, loss, and loneliness
They eat away at me every day
It has been getting so much worse
I wake up and immediately cry

I don't want to go to sleep at night
I don't want the next day to come
Getting through work is a struggle
What I would give to feel your hug, Megels

You are I were connected
In a way that went far beyond romance
Beyond friendship
Beyond what we'd ever had before

It had defied time and distance
All the changes in our lives
It defied every explanation
Except one

We were soul mates

I can't explain it, I just feel it
It's there in ways to lift my spirits
Any time we talked I felt it
The sound of your voice brought me home

So many ways I can't explain
It's the delight we felt, when we laughed
At all the exact same things
When I was with you it was heaven

When I was with you
It's like a tiny piece of the universe
Shifted into place
A place it was supposed to be

Everything was right in the world

These things and so many more
Made me understand
That there is a one in a lifetime
Forever connection

A connection that could only exist
Between you and me, Megels
Deep in my soul
I know that being with you was a rare gift

One that brought us
Extraordinary happiness all through our lives
One that I miss so so much
I miss that feeling
I've screwed up so much
Caused so much pain

But with you
With you I was a better man
Every day I wish I never left that day
Changed it all for the better
For us

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

I Still Want To Be With You

You always made me feel special, Megels
You made me feel new
You made me feel loved
With everything we did

You held me close when I was sad
You wiped away the tears from my face
Every time we were together
It seemed like the perfect place

My eyes lit up when you entered a room
I smiled when we were together
No matter how bad things were
You always made them better

I loved the way you kissed me
The way I could hold you tightly
The way we touched each other
I could be with you all night

I love the way you could make me laugh
For absolutely no reason at all
I love how no matter what I do
You would be there to catch me when I fell

I just want you to know
That even though I broke your heart
I will always love you
No matter what day or night

We parted on the worst of terms
I broke your heart more than I ever did
You came to me
You begged for us

All I ended up doing was hurting you more
When all I wanted was to spend my life with you
I miss you darlin
I'm in so much pain

I still wonder if you think of me at all
If anything reminds you of us
If anything comes up that makes you miss me
That's all my days are

I will never give up hope
I just can't make it work with anyone else
With you it was perfect
I still read your letter every day

My heart will forever be yours, Megels
All of time could go by
And on the last day of my time here
I would still want to be with you

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxooxoxxooxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Truly Hopeful It Is You

As I sit here gazing out the window
Instead of working, I'm daydreaming of you, Megels
And wondering if while you're in your own world
You're thinking of me too

I reminisce about the day we met
How you made me feel
Looking at the glowing smile on your face
Staring into your dreamy auburn eyes
Your smell, your touch
Your warm embrace

What a special night that was

And now, I'm staring to feel that warmth inside
Like nothing or no one else can make me feel
Butterflies, a constant smile, happy thoughts
Looking forward to the next time we meet

What lies ahead, down the road to love
Can it possibly be what I've been hoping for
All my goals, dreams, passions, hopes
Glaring now before me with great anticipation

No one knows what tomorrow brings
One can only wish and believe
I have abounding faith that God will take care of me
And bring the right person into my life

Could it be you, darlin?
Time will tell
I feel a special bond between us
And so I"m truly hopeful that it is you

Every moment that passes I hope it is you
Every single second I hope it is you
No matter how long it takes

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxooxxoxoxooxoxoxxo

Being What We Were Meant To Be

Sweet lady, song of my heart
Hold my hand, as this journey we start
Lift me up in spirit of joy and gladness
And shield my soul from heartbreak and sadness
Steadfast, honest, and true
I will always be here and forever love you

It is my prayer that I will always be
The one who brings you joy and sets your spirit free
With my love I'll cover you and warm your soul with mine
Give you pleasures, like none you will find
You are sweet darlin, the song of my heart
I will love you forever, together or apart

So hear me sweet Megels, and know in your soul
That there is no better future than with you to grow old
Endless caresses, touches and kisses
Our passion a banner for our love's true existence
My hand I extend and my honor I offer
For being with you there was no greater pleasure

Your hand I would accept and all your love as well
My heart sang so loudly, all could tell
I was loved and in love with the girl made for me
Hold my hand and let us walk through this life
Being what we were meant to be
Together

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxo

When I Looked Into Your Eyes, Darlin

When first I looked into your eyes, Megels
Each breath became a thousand sighs
My heart drummed out a thunder beat
I glowed with joy from head to feet

The hand of love had touched my soul
As the bell of destiny began to toll
The tide of love began to rise
The world was filled with summer skies

My sodden clouds of cold and grey
Glowed with gold, then wisked away
A brilliant rainbow arched across
As the waves of love began to toss

The air was filled with lovebird cries
When first I looked into your eyes

When I first looked into your eyes, Megels
All time and space were paralyzed
And in that instant, I was shown
A universe, I had never known

I dwell there still, in paradise
When I look into your eyes

Every cloud that passes by
Reminds me of a memory
One of the many we have shared
I lay there staring up at them all the time
Hoping and wishing one day I can add to them

Missing you so much

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxooxoxoxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoox

Stopped Dreaming When I Met You

I used to dream of eyes so auburn
And loving arms to hold me
I used to dream of beautiful princesses
And how gracious they would be

I used to dream of how I wouldn't settle
For anything less than best
I used to dream of how she would majestically
Lay all my fears to rest

I used to dream of fairy tales
How wondrous would they be
I used to dream of story books
All patterned after me

I used to dream of a lot of things
But the moment I met you, Megels
I immediately stopped dreaming
Because all of my dreams come true

I gazed into your beautiful brown eyes
My heart whispered to me
And that's right when I knew
The waves had ceased crashing

On the sand at our feet
Time had stopped passing
My search was complete
I finally discovered

What I'd known all along
A mystery uncovered
That just couldn't be wrong
It wasn't our first kiss

Nor the day that we met
But I realized something
I will never forget
With the stars shining brightly

From high up above
If one word could be used to describe it
That word would be love
I knew then these feelings

For my darlin dew were true
The woman of my dreams
And my soulmate is you
I think of it every time

That I look at the stars
This memory is mine
But those moments are
Ours

Always

Love, Your Edward
oxoxoxoxxooxxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I Will Never Find A Love Like You

If you could see inside my soul
See inside my heart
You would know how I long for you, Megels
Whenever we're apart

If you could see inside my head
If thoughts were things to see
You would know how I cherish you
How much you mean to me

In all the ways you'd comfort me
The way you'd hold me near
The way you knew just what to do
To chase away my fears

The sparkle in your beautiful eyes
Your crinkly nose smile, your laugh, your touch
Are just a few of many reason
I love you so much, Megels

Knowing I could talk to you
About any and everything
And knowing together we would get
Through whatever life would bring

I could search the whole world over
And this I know is true
I would never find another love
Like the love I found with you

Though with each new day, each sunrise
We can't know what's in store
There is one thing I know for sure
Each day I love you more

So if you could see inside my head
If thoughts were things to see
You would know how blessed I felt
To have had you there with me

I still stare at the clock like it's going to go back
To the time when I could wake up to your face
The way you'd look at me in the morning
How you held me when you slept

I miss every single cell of how we were
I'm crippled with depression thinking
Of all the memories and adventures we'd have
Hoping every day will be the day
I can hear your voice again
Living through every beat of my heart
Knowing they are all for you darlin

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxo

I Still Think About You Here

Your whispers are gentle echoes, Megels
That sway ardent winds of harmony
And in the symphony of life
Each word is wrapped in rhapsody

We travel separate roads of life
Gather flowers along the way and
Share the music of their fragrance

We exist between two winds
I here under a pale moon
You, the other end of somewhere

Sometimes when wind blows through trees
I pause to listen and in its passing
I hear the tenderness of your voice
That fills the spectrum of my soul

You are the chime of warm rain
The moon that glows through the trees
And within the luster of evening
Your aura fills the scene

I hear the whispers of the wind
See the stars shine in the sky
But I hold the sunrise in my pocket

Dance with me within the wind
Then just let me love you darlin

It's been years since we first met
Since we looked into each other's eyes
Not realizing that we were meant to be together
It's been years since we shared our first laugh

Our first smile
Since we shared our first kiss
I remember how strong your arms embraced me
How soft you held me

How warm and gentle you were
I remember how passionate that first kiss was
Now my heart is dancing
Happy, knowing that it's been years

It's been years since we first met, Megels
And I still think about you here kissing me just the same
Still holding each other just the same
It's been years
And that feeling will never change
Just me missing you so very much

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxxoxoxoxooxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxo

Deep In My Heart Where No One Can See

The sun sets
Upon the golden sand
We sit together
Hand in hand

We gently embrace
And look into each other's eyes
I wonder if you are
An angel in disguise

You hold me
Like there's no tomorrow
I suddenly forget
The past sorrow

I kiss your soft lips
And you kiss mine
I never knew
Loving someone could be this fine

I pick you up
And carry you to our room
Oh how a love can blossom
And a heart can bloom

Your touch is so gentle
And your hands so soft
How could a love like this
Ever go wrong

My heart is beating
200 times a minute
Because my love
You are in it, Megels

The sound of your heartbeat
All through the night
We fall asleep in each other's arms
And wake to the morning light

I look into your eyes
And this is when
I say thank you
For teaching me to love again

It's perfect and touches me deep
First thing in the morning, when I would hear you speak
And last thing at night as we bid sweet dreams
The brush of your lips lets me know what you mean

And all of the hours that pass through the day
Those spent together and when you're away
I think of you always, imagine your touch
Think how to show you, I love you so much

So when we're apart, and I long for you to be near
I try to remember, how it was when you were hear
For deep in my heart, where no one can see
You'll be forever, together we'll be darlin

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxooxxoooxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxox

She Makes Me Strive For More

Autumn eyes stare out at me
Silky locks of burnished brown
Poise, elegance, and aristocracy
Statuesque, splendor, and magnificence
All words pale
All words fail
To bind the beautiful Megels

Beauty be not lonely
Virtue is her friend
Gentle, sweet, with wits abound
Her voice so sweet, has songbird sound
Yet the lexicon pales
The language fails
To bespeak beguiling Megels

I'd cross not mountains for her
I'd move them one by one
I'd walk not burning sands
Instead I'd seed her lands
Her world would fill with statues
And gardens at her feet
These things I say would happen
Each time we came to meet

She makes a man become a man
Makes him strive for more
She makes him wish for worthiness
Remake his very core
Thus I pay my homage
Poetic tribute not mere prose
I give to her this piece of me
And not some dying rose

To you I send my love over the stars
Each time the wind blows may it say your name
The sun transferring my love to your skin
Missing you has become my full time job
It still beats only for you
Yearning and reaching out for that one day
In hopes that I can be yours again

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxooxox

The Rest of My Days Gazing Into Your Eyes

When you came to my door that night, Megels
And your beautiful eyes gazed at me
From the darkness within
The world around me came to a stop
For just a few seconds
As I saw the love from within you

You looked at me with your warm smile
Your brown hair around your face
And whispered softly 'hey darlin'
And once again
I was at your mercy

For when you look into my soul
And I hear the sound of your sweet voice
My heart opens to you my love
With all of my dreams now fulfilled

I never knew that a love like this
Could ever exist
A love that consumes me
A love so powerful
And so overwhelming
That I fear if I were without it
My heart would no longer have a meaning
To its existence
For the love that flows through it now
Is what keeps me alive
Keeps me whole

As I gazed into your eyes my darlin dew
Down into the depths of your very being
I can see the love you felt for me
A love as strong as my own
A love that fills me so full of emotion
So full of hope for the future
That I pray I will spend the rest of my days
Gazing into your eyes

Whether it be soon or later
No matter how long I have to wait
It will always be worth it
Just to experience a future with you

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxxoxoxoxoxooxoxxooxoxoox

Love That Will Last For All Time

When memories cry
When memories fade and die

I'm going to grow old
My passion
My fiery passion
My flaming lust is going to grow cold

But my heart will always flow with a molten, love lava
In your name, Megels, this lava flows through my veins
My heart beats for you
My heart will never cease to beat your name

When I lose my charm and my glamour
When I lose my physique and my game
When I'm old and wrinkly
When I cannot look myself in the mirror
I'll still stare at you

When memories fade
When I forget the days of the week
And the months of the year
When I mix names and faces
The memory of you
Will always shine bright and clear
Your image
Has been burnt to my memory
I will never forget your radiance and beauty

I will die happy, darlin
With the image of your sweet smile
On my mind
And love
On my lips and in my heart

My love for you is like a red, red rose
It started as  a seed but it has grown and grown
Its roots reach deep down inside my chest
And it grows even more with each passing breath

The delicate petals lay beautiful and pure
All the doubt that I've had, you have since cured
For all the thorns that this proud rose bears
They are softened by the thought of your care

Soon the rose grows old and withers and dies
But the love that helped grow it will last for all time

I had a dream last night
I was in your home trying to talk to you
Everything was red
From the furniture to the cars

Tears in my eyes I explained how I felt about you
You looked at me, tears in your eyes
How sorry I was
How badly I wanted to be yours

Waking up without the resolution hurt
The darkness and quiet around me
You are still in my dreams and I am still hoping
I'm glad you are still in there
You are the best dreams I've ever had
Missing you so very much

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

My Heart Calls To You Every Night

I remember that day when all with the world was right
Everything seemed so very , very bright
As we traveled for hours along that winding road
Stopping here and there for photos to upload

The autumn colors as beautiful as a sunset
It was that very day our spirits finally met
In a place finally free from dark subdued light
Suddenly, we were finally shining so bright

A little overwhelming, I had said it could be
You needed to breath, take a break from me
And now you understand those dizzy thoughts
The ones you created with the love you brought

The love I hold finally to be shared
With my darlin for whom my love has been bared
This love not to be hidden, but now open for all to see
My heart freely given, please take all of me

Your heart too my love you gave for me to hold, Megels
And it's safe, deep within my hearts stronghold
Forever to be cherished and nourished
For what a day it will be to see that heart flourish

Keep that smile upon your face my love
And those sparkling eyes keep them looking above
For those shooting stars that I'll send tonight
Will keep our love pure and shining throughout the dark night

There are so many days when I'm driving home
The music playing and my imagination racing
I think of you every single time
My eyes filling up with tears

I know that I'm going home and you won't be there
You'll be somewhere else, Megels
The tears wonder if he sings with you, shares your interests
Or if you settled because of my mistakes

My heart begins to hurt knowing I could never financially beat them
He can offer you the easy life with anything you want
You're his trophy, it's hard not to be destroyed
But I sit every single night and continue to hope

One day I may run out of tears to shed
But it doesn't seem like anytime soon
No matter how many nights go by
My heart calls to you on every star in the night sky

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxooxxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

A Fantasy Waiting For Its Happy Ending

You were a dream
A dream that filled my thoughts
And my loneliest nights

You were the dream I held on to, Megels
The dream my heart longed to one day have

You were the dream that made me smile
An escape from my reality
A fantasy I longed to one day come true

Once only my dream, my escape, my fantasy
Came true the day when I first saw you darlin

My dream that used to be
Became a reality embodied in you

A fantasy waiting for its happy ending
Was a fairytale come true

Once my only escape
Was then the comfort that I lived for

Together we had been through the heartaches
The pain of walking away or being left behind

Every new road we had to take
Because of the choices we had to make
Only paved the road
That brought us closer to one another

Life may not have been easy
With all the burdens and drama
That life hands to us
But when you find someone
To share your life with
No drama is hard to handle
No burden is hard to bare

When you have someone
The one you've dreamed of
Then your life becomes the escape you both take
To get away from the reality that surrounds

I know because
I found that love
My lifetime partner
My soul mate
In you, Megels

You're the reason for the butterflies
The ones fluttering uncontrollably inside of me
Those butterflies will never calm
They've taken over my whole body

You're  the reason
The reason I believe in love
The reason I'll always save my heart for you

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxooxoxoxxooxxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxox

I Would Do Anything For You Darlin Dew

As I sit, staring out the window at the grey skies
My mind drifts back to this time with you, Megels
The crowd fell away and I saw only you
No more than a glance but my heart somehow knew

Before I met you, I'd had my share of sorrow
So I was instantly guarded and full of bravado
You were never fooled and you saw the real me
And I realized I can only be the best I can be

We shared our first laugh, our first kiss, our first smile
And I tried to not love you, at least for a while
We became friends and lovers, I bared my soul
It was only with you that I began to feel whole

When you declared your love you broke down my defenses
Happiness and hope overwhelmed my senses
Ever since then our love had continued to grow
And with you by my side I would always know

That you would laugh at my tantrums, you would kiss my tears
You would hold my hand to allay any fears
Each night we would lie in bed entwined
Our dreams, our hopes, our souls are aligned

And as we sat in the light of the sun above
I need to convey how much you mean to me
Let us freeze those moments and take time to treasure
Years full of laughter, love and pleasure

Thank you for all the love you bestowed
And although the rest of our story's untold
I would trade a lifetime without you for our last year together
You have changed my life, infinitely, for the better

The way I feel when I'm with you darlin
I forget my troubles like there's just us two
You make my heart beat fast and strong
You make me feel like I truly belong

You filled the gaps inside my heart
Like I'd finally found my missing part
I sink in your eyes, warmed by your smile
The world is perfect just for a while

You make life better than it used to be
You are the sugar in my cup of tea
Whenever you need me, I'll always be there
I'll be there to talk to, I'll be there to care

Because for you, Megels
I would do anything

Always

Love, Your Edward
xooxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Yearning For The Day I Can Be Yours Again

I was lonely and somewhat lost
I wanted a companion and friend, nothing more
I took the plunge, I stepped in
Nervous and unsure, I waded in

Unexperienced and quite unsure
Feeling trepidation, I wondered if I did right
Feeling shy but needing a girl's company
I took a chance, to see what would occur

Surprise, shock and so much joy
I found the woman of my dreams, I won first prize
Gentle, caring, trusting and sensuous, along you came
Into my life, you brought happiness, fulfillment
And everything I had secretly yearned for

Not sure how I would cope and react
From that first meeting I was complete
Such emotions flowed through me
That I believed I would never feel

Beauty, tenderness, faith, desire and love came fast
All my hidden dreams were answered
By your marvelous presence

From that first meeting who would believe
Such a strong romance would have started
When we were together all I needed
Was in my arms, in my heart

All I ever needed was you
Every mistake haunts me
Every day I can't be near you pains me
I don't know what keeps my heart beating anymore

No new experience or memory can replace
Not a single one of ours
I miss them so much
Yearning and hoping that one day
One day
I can be yours again, Megels

Always,

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxooxxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxo

A Place Where Our Hearts Are One

Mystery, it clouds your form
Ecstacy, it keeps us warm
The dance has begun, with but us two
I'll take your hand, I'll walk with you
Take me to depths in the sea of love
Go with me further, never enough
I'll breathe in your perfumed scent
You intoxicate, invade my head

Give in to your senses, here we go
Follow me now, let your heart take control
Our time is short, and death is nigh
To mountains and peaks, we must fly
Leave life behind in our own world
Get away from it all, run with me, Megels
Forget all your troubles, walk in the moonlight
Gaze into my eyes, stay with me tonight

We need not fear, we must venture on
Forsake loneliness, drink in our love's song
Pure angel of dawn, you've stolen my heart
You illuminate me, pierce the dark
Your purity, it leaves me numb
Your beauty, where does it come from
I long to touch your smooth, soft skin
To stroke your hair, give you everything

To pull you into my embrace
To hear you breathe, to see your face
To feel your heart beat softly with mine
To hold you tightly, leave reason behind
To draw you in, to taste your kiss
All heartbreak gone, nothing amiss
I'd lose myself inside your eyes
Stay in love forever, mesmerized

Run away with me, barefoot in the sand
Walk by my side, rule all the lands
Hear our hearts beating with love so wild
Our heads spinning with passion
There's untamed joy we can't contain
Hypnotizing ardor we can't explain
I'm romeo, will you be juliet
We can share a bond we'll never forget

We can clasp hands in the twilight
Hold each other, day and night
We can be alone, just me and you
Our souls entwined, you know it's true
We can do anything, if you'll take faith
I'll protect you, I'll keep you safe
We can be together eternally
We can live forever, so come with me darlin
To a place where our hearts are one

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxo

It Is You, Darlin, Who Stole My Heart

We had climbed the tall blue mountain
To touch the eagle's wing
Trekked the valley far below them
To drink from crystal springs

We had walked among the tall grasses
Through wildflowers we were lead
They stood like noble kinds and queens
With crowns upon their heads

The goldfinch and her family
They kiss like you and I
In the morning and come the evening
They sing sweet lullabies

I look back across the seasons
Thankful you were there
To have wrapped my arms around you
Put ribbons in your hair

If tomorrow holds my promise
It will be to forever gaze into your eyes, Megels
And dance with you forever
In a land with no good byes

When I look back
On the dreams I left behind
buried there in all my thoughts

I saw you, Megels, as I saw you then
Through love's impassioned blindness
A heart so fashioned there within
Filled with love and kindness

How often has my heart declared
With anguish, for my words are few
That the wind shall blow a little longer
To keep me here with you

Sweeter still are the pains of love
The bonds of love grow stronger
Even after the moonlight has gone to sleep
I shall always love you longer

No other can stir my heart so deep
Or thrill me through and through
And in my dreams there will never be
No other love but you

When I look back at times gone by
There is one sure thing I know
It is you, darlin, who stole my heart
And it will beat every day hoping to be back with you

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxxooxoxoxoxoxooxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Until I First Laid Eyes On You

I thought that I'd seen beauty
I thought I'd witnessed grace
I thought that I'd known love
Until I gazed upon your face, Megels

I thought I'd felt my heart beat
I thought my knees were weak
I thought I'd heard a songbird
Until I heard you speak

I thought the rose was fragrant
I thought the sky was blue
I thought nature wonderful
Until I first laid eyes on you

I thought the sun was shining
I thought I'd seen it all
I thought that I was standing
Until you made me fall

I thought my eyes were open
Yet now I'm not so sure
I think that I may be in love
Like I've never loved before

I'll hold on to these feelings
And keep them safe within
Until the time they are needed
And true love can begin

A beautiful darlin with eyes on fire
That sparkle and laugh that can smile and cry
I love your eyes so clear and true
Beautiful darlin dew I adore you

A twinkling look that bubbles bright
With a heart to care and a heart to love
With hands to hold and hands to help
Beautiful lady there to give

Beautiful darlin a smile so bright
So warm and gentle, such a delight
A voice so clear
That calms and soothes

Beautiful darlin
I'll give you my thoughts and hopes
I offer you my heart and strength
My love is yours forever

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxooxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxooxxxox

You Graced My Presence Darlin

People speak of fate
And meetings of chance
Finding of soul mates
And love at first glance

Alignment of planets
Shooting stars up above
Fullness of the moon
And pairs of white doves

I've never taken stock
In these symbols and signs
But having met you, Megels
Proved I'd been blind

Poets write of hearts
Eternal devotion
Flames of desire
And new found emotion

Love ever lasting
A lifetime of bliss
Heaven here on Earth
The passion of a kiss

I've never found valid
These words foolishly penned
Then you graced my presence darlin
And proved me wrong again

Singers sing of heartache
And the one that got away
Internal emptiness
Pain that still remains

Missed opportunities
The hollowness of night
Paths that never cross
Timing that wasn't right

I never dreamed those songs
Could ever ring so true
Until I thought of life
Without ever knowing you

Missing you and all that you stand for
Every day a piece of me missing
The most important
Being you

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoox

No Matter The Distance

When times are hard

When news is bad

When life seems a universe from brightness and joy

When this happens, Megels

I need you to know

There is a person close

Who feels every tear

A person close

Who holds you dear

When you cry

He cries too, not always to see

But always with the full depth 

Of his beating heart

When you do not cry

But the pain shows in your eyes

He will know

And share his too

His passion hidden

Under a stoic umbrella

A shield of calm

Prevents emotion displayed

He knows of your journey

Through the turbulence of life

He respects and admires

The tireless fight

He hates a world

That could cause you pain

Such innocence undeserving

He longs for your return to the sun

A summer's mind where fears dissipate

Like seeds in wind

To see what he loves

Your smile to infinity

Your passion for life, Megels

With vigor

With humor

With cheer

So look over your shoulder

And he'll be there

No matter the distance

The time, he'll be there

Watching you in sleep

Aloof in morning haze

As distance grows through day

The care for you remains

He is your soul mate

Your friend

Your protector

Your knight

He is, my darlin dew drop

He is me

Always

Love, Your Edward

xoxoxoxooxoxoooxooxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxox

I Just Want To See Your Face Again

Just wish I could find the words
That would make the meaning clear
About why I just love you so, Megels
And why I want you here

Why I need you here with me
So I can shower you with love
Why it is so clear to see
You are an angel from above

An angel sent from heavens high
To bring the lords own prayer
That you and I on blue skies fly
Share a love that is true and rare

A love that is so truly pure
That it completely fills my heart
A love that will forever endure
And that we shall never part

A love that will last you see
Until the end of time
A love which joined us darlin
And forever our hearts would entwine

It may be raining outside
But not even a flood could sway my memories
Running through the rain with you
When we got stuck in it at Universal

Just a quick thought of any of our Universal trips
Something in my stomach and heart drop
Like a bad PTSD trip
Depression swoops in and I have to hold back tears

I knew true happiness when I was there holding your hand
A smile I never thought I could wipe away
It's so so hard to go on every day missing all those days
Even just the drive there

I miss all of it
I miss you
I would give the entire rest of my life
Just to have those days with you again

I want to hold your hand through the crowd
Make our inside jokes while in line
Walk the lake at the end of the day
I just want to see your face again Megels

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

A Place Where Two Hearts Beat As One

If I could take you to one place, Megels
To one very special place
I would take you to my heart

You would sweep through it, like fresh rain
Swirling across my landscape
Drenching on my soul
Blossoming hope, in my wounded places

And in return, I would fashion a world there, for you
A space where you could sit, quietly
A place where you could laugh, uncontrollably
A moment when you could love, unreservedly

In my heart, you would rest
Wrapped in my spirit
Warmed by my heat
Riding at the very center of me

I have learned much of love
And much that I have learned is hard
But I have not let it harden my heart
There is a place there, for you darlin

There is a place of peace
There is a place of joy
A place away from loneliness
A place away from pain

That place is next to you
A secret garden
Where black and white becomes a colorful place
Of loving, kissing, touching, caressing

There with you and only you
Cares of the world melting away
Anger and fear are not allowed
Prejudice cannot enter

A place where two hearts beat as one
A place where two souls are interwoven
Touching the inner place of one another
A place that I long to come back to again and again

A place of sweet abandon
A place next to you

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxxooxoxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxxoo

Someday Be Together Again

I want to share my feelings
And I don't know how to start
But every single word I say
Is coming from my heart

The first time that I met you
All you said was hey darlin
It was really just a simple phrase
But it took my breath away

You were very fun to talk with
You were extremely sweet and kind
I was in love with every thing you said
You were amazing in my mind

You filled my days with brightness Megels
You lifted me up when I felt blue
You made me feel like I was someone special
So I'd do anything for you

For you, I'd walk across the desert
So hot, without a breeze
For you, I'd dive into the ocean
And be swallowed by the seas

I barely even knew you
So it was a happy surprise
There was nothing that you could do wrong
Because you are flawless in my eyes

I always wonder where you are
And I wish I could be there darlin
You're so far away
But I can feel you everywhere

You're the constant beating in my heart
You're the blood rushing through my veins
You're the light glowing from a moonbeam
You're the crystal droplets in the rain

You're the colors in the sunset
You're the rustling of the leaves
You're the twinkling in the nighttime stars
Your'e the very air I breathe

I care for you each hour
I dream of you all week
You're the last person running through my mind
Before I drift to sleep

I'm so grateful you were in my life
Maybe someday we'll be together again
I love you Megels, and only you
I always will, forever

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

To Burn With Love

In the stillness of a sunrise
The winds of time stood still beneath
Forsaken shades of blue skies
Soft clouds with gliding shadows

I've heard the music of your heart darlin
Through your soft whispers in the wind
And the gentleness of your smile
From all seasons we have both shared
That ignite the power of love

Your passion held me in its warmth
From the melody of your thoughts
And cravings you pen with your words
That touched the core of my desire

Within the depths of my longings
I'll walk with you through the ages of time
And in every moment of life
I will hold you close to my heart Megels

Day descends, night unfolds its cape
And for just one instant in time
I reach, touch the stars, and I feel
My heart beat with the rhythm of yours
And my soul dances to its tempo
You are my world, my heart, my pulse

My heart so cold and hard like stone
Closed and quiet and always alone
Through the days I go with fear
That my heart will disappear

To freeze like ice to no longer burn
To leave my chest and never return

The days did pass to leave me bare
Of love and happiness I did not care
My heart so dark as black as coal
For in my chest there is a hole

A robot I became no heart but steel
For love nor pain I could not feel

But then my heart begun to burn
For love and passion to return
Gone are the darkness and the cold
My heart so open and so bold

To burn so hot, so bright, so true
To burn with love, my love for you Megels

Always

Love, Your Edward
oxoxoxxooxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxo

My Desire For You, Unmistakable

The evening sun shining down upon your face darlin
Your dazzling hair flowing softly in the gentle wind
Your shapely cheeks filled with rosy plumes
Your stunning eyes melting me with but one look

The midnight moon brightly luminescent
My love for you made clear in the night
My passion blazing through the darkness
My desire for you, Megels, unmistakable

The morning dew gleaming radiantly
Your intoxicating smell captivating me
Calling to me drawing me near
Pulling me into you losing myself

The afternoon rain bringing life to all
Standing in showers waiting for your man
To take you away, to a wonderful place
Where all your cares disappear

I caress your face, my hands through your hair
Your tears slowly away, never to return
My arms around your delicate body
Relieving all fears, all worries

Our eyes once met
Never leaving
Our lips once pressed
Never yielding

Our minds once merged
Never apart
Our hearts once one
Together always

Time apart only makes the heart yearn more
Growing and realizing my mistakes and shortcomings
Knowing in my heart that you are the one
Missing you more than words are created

Held in my arms
Our hearts together
I would never let you go
As we watched the sun set together

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxo

You Lie In The Chambers of My Heart

My love
Every moment I inhale
I breathe you
You are like the air
That fills up my lung
With life
And no matter how much
I strive
To build the smallest of walls
Around to resist the urge
To flight this delicious sensation
I feel in your presence
You remain a distraction
A sweet temptation
Magically smoldering
And every minute you stare
I am caught in a snare
Helplessly I sigh
Your eyes are a spark
They light up a fire
Burning red hot in my heart

My love
When it rains, it pours
But you, you quell the storms
You are my Mars
My seventh heaven
When you blurt out words
And I hear your voice
I am disarmed
My limbs get wobbly
I am held spellbound
In the hypnosis of you

I love you, Megels, no doubt
But those words are partial
For they do not in the least
Spell out the very least
Bits nor pieces
Of this whirlpool
This maelstrom
This mount of emotions
The deepest of affections
That I feel for you

My love
In the deepest part
Of the chambers of my heart
There you lie
Dwelling, swirling in pleasure
For there in my heart
You have found your home
And in yours, mine
And when our hands touch
And our fingers entwine
Your face, lips, no further from mine
Chills run all over my spine

Oh my darlin Megels
Give me more and more of you
For I can hardly get enough of you
You are to me
The wings to the birds
The wand to the wizard
The oasis to the desert
The waters to the river
My breath, My world
My heart, My love

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxooxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxooxxoooxoxoxoxoxo

I Give All That I Am To My Soulmate

If I could
I would give you the sky
But all I have is my breath
To bring new heights

If I could
I would give you the ocean
But all I have is my heart
The depths of my love

If I could
I would give you the sun
But all I have is my body
And its warm embrace

If I could
I would give you the moon
But all I have is my soul
To light the dark

If I could
I would give you the stars
But all I have are these dreams
That we'll reach them one day

If I could
I would give you all the beauty found in this world
But all I have are these hands
To paint your picture

If I could
I would give you the heavens
But all I have to give
Is the intent of you

With every breath that I take
Every beat of my heart
Only for your sake
The warmth of my body, your sheltering place

The light of my soul
The darkness will fade
The space in my mind
In dreams and awake

And my hand, reaching out
A future we'll make
So take my hand, Megels
And together our heaven we'll create

I give all that I am
To my one true soulmate
You, Megels darlin

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxo