They Aren't You, None of Them Are, Darlin

I was lonely and somewhat lost
I wanted a companion and friend
I took the plunge, I stepped in
Nervous and unsure, I waded in

Inexperienced and quite unsure
Feeling trepidation, I wondered if I did right
Feeling shy but needing a lady's company
I took a chance, to see what would occur

Surprise, shock and so much joy
I found the woman of my dreams, I won first prize
Gentle, caring, trusting, and sensuous, along you came Megels
Into my life, you brought happiness, fulfillment
And everything I had secretly yearned for

Not sure how to cope and react
From that first meeting I was complete
Such emotions flowed through me
That I believed I would never feel

Beauty, tenderness, faith, desire, and love came fast
All my hidden dreams were answered
By your marvelous presence

From that first meeting, who would believe
Such a strong romance would start
When we are together all I need
Is in my arms, in my heart

You are on my mind every minute of every day
Not one goes by where I don't remember
Where we lived and what it looked like
How we went to bed every night

The way you'd look at me every day
Send me funny pictures and goofy faces
The way you said you loved me so much
How it will be us in the end you always hoped

I can't move on without you
There were words you said to me
I remember where I was and how cold I felt
Your voice on the phone in my ear

You didn't get with someone new
Because they weren't me
Those were your words
My heart practically exploded

The same words I speak to you now Megels
Nobody is you
No matter who or what happens
None of them are you

If it is my destiny to be alone for the rest of my days
Then so be it
Because there is only one space in my heart open
And that spot is for you darlin

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxooxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

I'm Romeo, Will You Be Juliet, Darlin

The dance had begun, with but us two
I'd take your hand and walk with you
Take me to depths in the sea of love
Go with me further
I'll breathe in your perfumed scent
You intoxicate, invade my head, Megels

Give in to your senses
Follow me now, let your heart take control
Our time is short and death is nigh
To mountains and peaks, we must fly
Leave life behind in our own world
Get away from it all, run with me darlin
Forget all your troubles and walk in the moonlight
Gaze into my eyes, stay with me tonight

We need not fear, we must venture on
Pure angel of dawn, you've stolen my heart
You illuminate me, pierce the dark
Your purity, it leaves me numb
Your beauty, I long to touch your soft skin
To stroke your hair, give you everything

To pull you into my embrace
To hear you breathe, to see your face
To feel your heart beat softly with mine
To hold you tightly, leave reason behind
To draw you in, taste your kiss
All heartbreak gone
I'd lose myself inside your eyes
Stay in love forever, mesmerized

Run away with me, barefoot in the sand
Walk by my side, Megels darlin
Hear our hearts beating with love so wild
Our heads spinning with passion
There's untamed joy we can't explain
I'm Romeo, will you be Juliet
We can share a bond we'll never forget

We can clasp hands in the twilight
Hold each other, day and night
We can be alone, just me and you
Our souls entwined, you know it's true
We can do anything, if you'll take faith
I'll protect you, I'll keep you safe
We can be together eternally
We can live forever
So come with me
I will be waiting for you
Life just isn't life without you
My heart pines for you

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoox

I'll Always Be Ready To Be Yours, Darlin

When I look back
On the dreams I left behind
Buried there in all my thoughts
It is you I always find

I saw you then as I see you now
Through love's impassioned blindness
A heart so fashioned there within
Filled with love and kindness

How often has my heart declared
With anguish, for my words are few
That the wind shall blow a little longer
To keep me here with you

Sweeter still are the pains of love
The bonds of love grow stronger
Even after the moonlight has gone to sleep
I shall always love you longer

No other can stir my heart so deep
Or thrill me through and through
And in my dreams there will never be
No other love but you

When I look back to times gone by
There is one thing I know for sure
It is you Megels, who stole my heart
All those years ago

When nights are long and friends are few
I sit by my window and think of you
A silent whisper
A silent tear
I love you with all my heart
I wish you were here

It is getting so difficult to handle the depression
You still inhabit my dreams at night
When I wake up I feel worse than ever
The dark quiet loneliness enveloping me

I miss you so much it's incredibly painful
Why do I think of you so much when you don't
I keep up all our interests when you have forgotten
You always told me you'd always love me no matter what

Always told me that you could be your real self with me
Did he force you to forget that and forget your loves
Hide the real you
The comic con, gamer, movie, star wars, cartoon lover

I miss the real you darlin
I continue to read your letter
Still saving our blue box of memories
Waiting for the real you to come back

I'll always be ready to be yours
Hold your hand at the end of our Universal days
Go to comic cons together
Share in all of our different video games

The real you has my heart Megels

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

I Love the Real You, Megels

I thought that I'd seen beauty
I thought I'd witnessed grace
I thought that I'd known love
Until I gazed upon your face, Megels

I thought I'd felt my heart beat
I thought my knees were weak
I thought I'd heard a songbird
Until I heard you speak, darlin

I thought the rose was fragrant
I thought the sky was blue
I thought nature wonderful
Until I first laid eyes on you, dew drop

I thought my eyes were open
Yet now I'm not so sure
I think that I may be in love
Like I've never loved before

I'll hold on to these feelings
And keep them safe within
Until the time they're needed
And true love can begin

For you are a beautiful lady with eyes on fire
That sparkle and laugh that can smile and cry
I love your eyes so clear and true
Beautiful lady I adore you

A twinkling look that bubbles bright
With a heart to care and a heart to love
With hands to hold and hands to help
Beautiful lady there to give

Beautiful lady, a smile so bright
So warm and gentle, so soft
A voice so clear
That calms and soothes, a voice that wipes all fears

Beautiful lady, Megels
I'll give to you, my thoughts, my hopes
I offer my heart, my strength
My love is yours forever

I love the real you
The nerdy, movie, gamer, crafty girl
Who can make me laugh with a star wars quote
Wearing her chewbacca shirt

I love the real you, Megels
Not the one you hide for a future
With someone who doesn't share your interests
Like I do

I can only wait for you
Whatever it takes

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoooxoxxooxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

I'll Follow You Wherever You Lead, Darlin

Our love was the long lasting kind
We were together quite a while
I loved and continue to love you for so many things
Your voice, your touch
Your kiss, your smile

You accepted me as I am
I could relax and just be me
Even when my quirks came out
You thought they were cute
You let me be me

With you there was nothing to resist
You were irresistable to me
I'm drawn to you in total trust
I gave myself to you willingly

Your sweet devotion never failed
You viewed me with a patient heart
You loved me darlin, no matter what
You've been that way right from the start

Those are just a few reasons why
I'll always love you like I do

You're one in a million
My most special one
Your radiant smile bright as the sun
You're smart and caring

You have so many great charms
My heart really sings when you're wrapped in my arms
I was so happy you chose me from all the rest
Proud because I knew that I got the best

You're so cute and sweet and glow like a pearl
I love you so much, Megels

When you're away from me
I long for you in my thoughts
In the center of my soul
I yearn to see the affection in your eyes

I crave the safe warmth of your arms around me
My cave of comfort, ease and peace
My body aches with hunger for you
The exquisite torture of delayed ecstasy

I long for you, I yearn for you
I ache for you
I miss you more than anything in life
More than the air that I breathe

No one loves me like you do
I've never felt like I did with you
You pleased me in so many ways
With a word, a caress, a kiss

No one understood me like you do
You see me deep inside
You chose to overlook my flaws
The ones I try to hide

No one satisfies me like you do
When our bodies intertwine
You give so much with your tender touch
You're amazing, more than you know

No one loved me like you did
You filled my every need
And that is why, darlin dew
I'll follow you wherever you lead

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxo

I Didn't Know Love Until I Met You, Darlin Dew

I've held others before
But it was never like you
Where my body inhales you
And quivers with bliss

Where my senses are reeling
From the strength of desire
And if I can't have you soon
I'd be consumed by the fire

If not for you I wouldn't know
What true love really meant
I'd never feel this inner peace
I couldn't be content

If not for you, I'd never have
The pleasures of romance
I'd miss the bliss, the craziness
Of love's sweet silly dance

I have to feel your tender touch
I have to hear your voice
No other one could take your place
You're it, I have no choice

If not for you I'd be adrift
I don't know what I'd do
I'd be searching for my other half
Incomplete if not for you

Bonded to you in emotional bliss
United in physical rapture
I realize my dreams and fantasies
Engulfed in contentment

I know heaven in your arms
My intense hunger nourished
Deep yearnings fulfilled
I am open to you in total trust

You are my refuge
My everything
You are my soulmate
The only one I ever have thoughts for

Before I met you, Megels
I thought I was happy
And I was
But I had never known
The rich contentment
And total fulfillment
You brought to me

When you came into my life
Before I met you
I felt a lot of things
Good things
But I had never experienced
The indescribably intense
Feelings I have for you

Before I met you
I thought I knew myself
And I did
But you looked deep inside me
And found fresh new things
For us to share

Before I met you
I thought I knew about love
But I didn't
Until I met you

Missing you and all of our adventures
All of our laughs
All of our shared interests
Everything

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxooxoxoxoxoxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Never Dreamed Of Not Knowing You Darlin

People speak of fate
And meetings of chance
Finding of soul mates
And love at first glance

Alignment of planets
Shooting stars up above
Fullness of the moon
And pairs of white doves

I've never taken stock
In these symbols and signs
But having met you, Megels
Proved I'd been blind

Poets write of hearts
Eternal devotion
Flames of desire
And new found emotion

Love ever lasting
A lifetime of bliss
Heaven here on Earth
The passion of a kiss

I've never found valid
These words foolishly penned
Then you graced my presence darlin
And proved me wrong again

Singers sing of heartache
And the one that got away
Internal emptiness
Pain that still remains

Missed opportunities
The hollowness of night
Paths that never cross
Timing that wasn't right

I never dreamed those songs
Could ever ring so true
Until I thought of life
Without ever knowing you

Days waking up and hearing you gaming
The laughs we could share all through the day
Making each other dinner
Making you artsy things

The way you would smile at me
Crinkling that beautiful nose of yours
There's an endless list of things I miss about you
But, Megels, just you I miss the most

Too much of my heart is yours
Hoping and wishing that one day
I can give the rest to you

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxo

No Matter The Distance, No Matter The Time

When times are hard
When news is bad
When life seems a universe from brightness and joy
When this happens
My darlin Megels
I need you to know
There is a person close who feels every tear
A person close who holds you dear

When you cry
I cry too
Not always to see
But always and with the full depth
Of my beating heart
When you do not cry
But the pain shows in your eyes
I will know and share this too
My passion hidden under a stoic umbrella
A shield of calm prevents emotion displayed

I know of your journey
Through the turbulence of life
I respect and admire the tireless fight
I hate a world that could cause you pain
Such innocence undeserving
I long for your return to the sun
A summer's mind where fears dissipate
Like seeds in wind
To see what I love
Your smile to infinity
Your passion for life
With vigor and humor
With cheer

So look over your shoulder
And I'll be there
No matter the distance, the time
I'll be there
Watching you in sleep
Aloof in morning haze
As distance grows through day
The care for you remains
I am your other, your soulmate
Your protector, your knight
That is me, my darlin dew
That is me

No day goes by without thoughts of you
Missing you so much
Every single thing about you
From your beautiful eyes
To your adorable toes

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

My One True Player Two

Just wish I could find the words
That would make the meaning clear
About why I just love you so, Megels
And why I want you here

Why I need you here with me
So I can shower you with love
Why it is so clear to see
You are an angel from above

An angel sent from the heavens high
To bring the lords own prayer
That you and I on blue skies fly
Share a love that is true and rare

A love that is so truly pure
That it completely fills my heart
A love that will forever endure
And that we shall never part

A love that will last you see
Until the end of time
A love which joins us
You and me
And forever will our hearts entwine

I think about you every day
Wonder what you are doing
If you are thinking of me at all
If anything reminds you of us anymore

I sit and look at all of the things I own
From the movies to the games to our pictures
With no true player two at my side
You are the most perfect fit

I sit and I wonder if he does the same for you
If you are the real you with him anymore
Does he join you in all of the things you enjoy
The girl who knows Banjo Kazooie inside and out

I will continue to sit and wish on the stars
Hoping one day you see that where you are is wrong
You once said to me that with me you could be the real you
The happiest you ever had been

The best love making you've ever had
The hardest you've ever laughed
Do you honestly believe for even one second
He would dress up in Potter robes and wave a wand around

I miss you Megels darlin
Missing my player two

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxooxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxooxoxoxoxox

A Place Next To You, Darlin Dew

If I could take you to one place, Megels
To one very special place
I would take you to my heart

You would sweep through it
Like fresh rain
Swirling across my landscape
Drenching on my soul
Blossoming hope, in my wounded places

And, in return, I would fashion a world there
For you
A space where you could sit, quietly
A place where you could laugh, uncontrollably
A moment when you could love, unreservedly

In my heart, you would rest
Wrapped in my spirit
Warmed by my heat
Riding at the very center of me

I have learned much of love
And much that I have learned is hard
But I have not let it harden my heart
There is a place there
For you, Megels

There is a place of peace
There is a place of joy
A place away from loneliness
A place away from pain

That place is next to you
A secret garden
Where black and white becomes a colorful place
Of loving, kisses, touching, caressing

There with you and only you
Cares of the world melting away
Anger and fear are not allowed
Prejudice cannot enter

A place where two hearts beat as one
A place where two souls are interwoven
Touching the inner place of one another
A place that I long to come back to again and again

A place of sweet abandon
A place next to you
Darlin dew drop
Megels

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoox

I Care For You Each Hour

I want to share my feelings
And I don't know how to start
But every single word I say
Is coming from my heart

The first time that I met you
All you said was "Hey darlin"
It was really just a simple phrase
But it took my breath away

You were very fun to talk with
You were extremely sweet and kind
I was in love with everything you said
You were amazing in my mind

You filled my days with brightness
You lifted me up when I feel blue
You made me feel like I was someone special
So I'd do anything for you, darlin

For you, I'd walk across the desert
So hot, without a breeze
For you, I'd dive into the ocean
And be swallowed by the seas

I barely even knew you then
You walked into my life as such a surprise
There's nothing that you could do wrong
Because you're flawless in my eyes

I always wonder where you are
And I wish I could be there
You're many miles away at the moment
But I can feel you everywhere

You're the constant beating in my heart
You're the blood rushing through my veins
You're the light glowing from a moonbeam
You're the crystal droplets in the rain

You're the colors in the sunset
You're the rustling of the leaves
You're the twinkling in the nighttime stars
You're the very air I breathe

I care for you each hour
I dream of you all week
You're the last person running through my mind
Before I drift to sleep

I'm so grateful that you walked into my life
Someday I wish and hope to hold you again
I love you and only you Megels
I always will forever

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxooxoxoxoxo

My Heart Burns For Your Return Darlin

In the stillness of a sunrise
The winds of time stood still beneath
Forsaken shades of blue skies
Soft clouds with gliding shadows

I've heard the music of your heart
Through your soft whispers in the wind
The gentleness of your smile
From all seasons we have both shared
That ignite the power of love

Your passion held me in its warmth
From the melody of your thoughts
And cravings you pen with your words
That touched the core of my desire

Within the depths of my longings
I'll walk with you through ages of time
And in every moment of life
I will hold you close to my heart

Day descends, night unfolds its cape
And for just one instant in time
I reach, touch the stars, and I feel
My heart beat with the rhythm of yours
And my soul dances to its tempo
You are my world
My heart
My pulse

My heart so cold and hard like stone
Closed and quiet and always alone
Through the days I go with fear
That my heart will disappear
To freeze like ice to no longer burn
To leave my chest and never return

The days did pass to leave me bare
Of love and happiness I did not care
My heart so dark and black as coal
For in my chest there is a hole
A robot I became, no heart but steel
For love nor pain I could not feel

But then my heart begun to burn
For love and passion to return
Gone are the darkness and the cold
My heart so open and so bold
To burn so hot, so bright, so true
To burn with love
My love for you, Megels

Miss you my darlin dew drop
My player Two
Waiting to press start together
To continue our wonderful game

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxo

You Are The Person Who Makes My Heart Flutter

The evening sun shining down upon your face, darlin
Your dazzling brown hair flowing softly in the gentle wind
Your shapely cheeks filled with rosy plumes
Your stunning eyes melting me with but one look

The midnight moon brightly luminescent
My love for you made clear in the night
My passion blazing through the darkness
My desire for you, unmistakable

The morning dew gleaming radiantly
Your intoxicating smell captivating me
Calling to me drawing me near
Pulling me into you losing myself

The afternoon rain bringing life to all
Standing in showers waiting for your man
To take you away, to a wonderful place
Where all your cares disappear

I caress your face, my hands through your hair
Your tears slowly away, never to return
My arms around your delicate body
Relieving all fears, all worries

Our eyes, once met, never leaving
Our lips, once pressed, never yielding
Our minds, once merged, never apart
Our hearts, once one, together always

Missing you tons Megels
There is so much I want to share with you
So much I want to experience and am saving for you
I feel like the world is on hold

I had a dream at night again
Once more I was looking for you
Those are the most reoccurring ones
I'm in a different place but I'm always looking for you

You are the one person to make my heart flutter
The one person I still think about
Missing the way you felt in my arms
Wishing every day to experience that again

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxxooxxooxoxoxxoxoxoxooxxoxooxoxoxoxox

I Can Hardly Get Enough Of You, Darlin

My darling Megels
Every moment I inhale
I breathe you
You are like the air
That fills up my lungs with life
And no matter how much I strive
To build the smallest of walls around
To resist the urge
To fight this delicious sensation
I feel in you presence
You remain a distraction
A sweet temptation
Magically smoldering
And every minute you stare
I am caught in a snare
Helpless
Your eyes are a spark
They light up a fire
Burning red hot in my heart

My love
When it rains, it pours
But you, you quell the storms
You are my Mars
My seventh heaven
When you blurt out words
And I hear your voice
I am disarmed
My limbs get wobbly
I am held spellbound
In the hypnosis of you

I love you darlin
No doubt
But those words are partial
For they do not in the least
Spell out the very least
Of this whirlpool, this maelstrom
This mount of emotions
The deepest of affections
That I feel for you

My darling Megels
In the deepest part
Of the chambers of my heart
There you lie
Dwelling, swirling in pleasure
For there in my heart
You have found your home
And in yours, mine
And when our hands touch
And our fingers entwine
Your face, lips, no further from mine
Chills run all over my spine

Give me more and more of you
For I can hardly get enough of you
You are to me
The wings to the birds
The wand to the wizard
The oasis to the desert
The waters to the river
My breath,my world
My heart, my love

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxooxoxoxoxoxxooxoxoxoooxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Reaching Out To My One True Soulmate

Darlin dew,
If I could
I would give you the sky
Snuggled with every fluffy cloud
But all I have
Is my breath, to bring new heights

If I could
I would give you the ocean
With all the wondrous creatures
But all I have
Is my heart, and the depths of my love

If I could
I would give you the moon
Lasso it down straight to your hands
But all I have
Is my soul, to light the dark

If I could
I would give you the stars
Each one granting you a wish
But all I have
Are these dreams, that we'll reach them one day

If I could
I would give you all the beauty found in this world
Every feeling of peace and happiness
But all I have
Are these hands, to paint your picture

If I could
I would give you the heavens
And all of its complete fulfillment
But all I have to give
Is the intent with you
Every breath that I take

Every beat of my heart
Only for your sake
The warmth of my body
Your sheltering place
The light of my soul
The darkness will fade
The space in my mind
In dreams and awake
And my hand
Reaching out, a future we'll make

So take my hand, Megels
And together
Our heaven we'll create
I give all that I am
To my one true soulmate

You, my darlin dew drop

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoooxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

A Painting of Something Special xoxo

I've been thinking of a painting, Megels
That I've created in my mind
It's a painting of something special
For which colors are hard to find
I've searched all over
Even the rainbow that leads to the gold
In hope of finding those special colors
For my canvas to hold

I know this painting would turn out right
If I had those colors to start
Special colors full of emotions
From which I could paint from my heart
I'm not the best painter
Just a person with an empty palette of dreams
Someone searching for the color of love
And searching forever as it seems

What is the color of love
And why is it so hard to find
I know exactly what it looks like
But I only see it in my mind
Perhaps those colors are already with me
Somewhere deep inside
And can only be released through my emotions
Which I know I just can't hide

There's a masterpiece in my heart
Which my canvas will soon acquire
And with every brush stroke that I'd make
It soon would be ready to admire
Where is that special color
That I need so very much
To add to my palette
And give my painting its one final touch

This vision I have in my mind
Is really a painting of you
There's no need for rainbows
Only feelings that I know are true
I believe with all my heart
That love is any color you want it to be
For a masterpiece painted with love
Can be very special
For you and for me

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Always Be Yours, Megels, Right Here Waiting

To the girl
Who Megels is thy name

Would you catch me on your tongue
When I fall down like rain
Could I evaporate in your kiss
So I could fall down again
Would you comfort me with your heartbeat
As it keeps time with mine
Like a beautiful concerto
Of love so divine

You're like an angel, darlin dew
Made with gossamer wings
In your hair I am tangled
And it's the sweetest of things
You completely complete me
If that's even possible
So save me sweet seraphim
We can be unstoppable

Will you love me unconditionally
Even at my worst
Even though it's a fallacy
That I fell first
I'll lay bare all that I have
On the ground at your feet
As long as you love me
With a burning fire's heat

You're like an angel
Made with gossamer wings
In your hair I am tangled
And it's the sweetest thing
You completely complete me
If that's even possible
So save me sweet seraphim
We can be unstoppable

It's crazy how much I miss you
I still see you in dreams I have at night
Still read your words in your letter you sent
Take long looks at all of our photos
Whatever it would take to be yours again
I will wait

Because I want no other
I want that feeling again
Where you just know you found your soul mate
I've felt that with you
Only you
And I'll always be yours
Right here waiting

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxooxooxoxoxoxoxoxo

The Words In My Heart Still Mean The Same

Every single day I want to say to you the same words
The words that I hold in my heart darlin
That I feel the need to renew
I've thought about these words and what to say
Waiting for when the time was right
To say exactly what's on my mind
While you're sitting wherever you are today

I know I get caught up in my own little world
Sometimes I tend to forget
The true meaning of those special words
Which entered my heart the day we first met
If you'd move just a little bit closer
I'll describe a moment I'd love to share with you
How I know I want you to be my special lady
And I your lucky man

An evening where I would hold you close
We would listen to the falling rain
Sitting in front of a warm flickering fire
Sharing our dreams with a glass of Riesling
Somehow, I could never have imagined
Spending an evening like that with you
Talking between the falling raindrops
Expressing our points of view

With my arms wrapped around you
I thought about how hard it would be to let you go
Then you turned around and kissed me
Only then at that moment would I really know
That we fell in love on that special night
But I couldn't find the words to say
As you were the only one in my life
Who has ever made me feel that way, darlin dew

When I looked deep into your eyes
And then I took your hand
I knew that all I ever needed
Was to love and to hold you all that I can
You became a part of my little word
And knew that I could never let you go
Because your love meant so much to me
More than you could possibly ever know

After all these years
I needed to say how much I still care
And the only thing I ever wished for
Was that you would always be there
You would always be my special lady
I love you so very much, Megels
I'd be lost in my little world without you
To share your love and your touch

With you by my side
A fire to keep us warm
We'll always welcome the falling rain
When we're holding each other and never letting go
As we fall in love all over again
The words in my heart still mean the same
After all these years
The best part of all was knowing
That my very special lady loved me too

Miss you darlin

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxxxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxo

Laying Next To Me Like An Angel

I'd love to give you my whole life, Megels
To make you glow, make you my wife
I'd love to buy you diamond rings
Soft silk and satin, a clock that sings
Necklaces and pearls and walnut curls
A painted sea that ebbs and swirls

I'd love to have just half a chance
To watch you laugh, click heels and dance
If I could take you by the hand
We'd run barefoot on sloping sands
Where once you swam as time began
Stole birthday kisses from this man

I'd love to leap into your arms
To catch your breath, capture your charms
I'd set you free to fly forever
We'd dive and swoop and soar together
We'd own the sky, the heavens high
And every cloud that ever cried

If I could give you yesterday
We'd never find a better way
To live and love and share our dreams
To give so much until it seems
Our hopes and fears, our salty tears
Have flowed as one through all these years

Darlin, I miss you like you wouldn't believe
There are days when I hope to wake up
Open my eyes and still see you there
Laying next to me like an angel

Depression and verbal abuse has broken me down
The way we shared all of our interests
Supported one another and always laughed
I miss you and all of those memories
There's nobody else I have found that connection with

No matter who travels through my life
It'll never be you
For that I will always wait
For you
For us

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxo

You're My Sun, Every Single Day

As I close my eyes on this eve
I can only think of an enduring kiss that I hold
Instead I will go outside and entrust it
To the ancient winds and send it on its way

Guided by the light of a blue moon
Until it reaches your lips
Let it bring with it a whisper of my love darlin
And warm your soul

Touching your heart endlessly my love
With everything
My love for you I hold in my heart
Is an ocean, deep and wide

So far I could never cross
So deep I cannot reach
Its beauty like a rose
Whose bloom is full and never fails

Ever it grows
There is, it seems, magic there
I saw it in your eyes
When we first met

I see it still when you turn your gaze my way
I don't understand it
But I don't care
It is magic, it is beauty, it is wonder

And every day, every gaze
It is like new and quickens my heart
Our love is the fountain of youth welling up
And young will we ever be
Dancing and dancing

The sun's golden light slowly rising over the field
Like your eyes opening with the fading night
As the night retreats from the sun
The field sparkles with the morning dew

The dew moistens the roses
As tears of joy moisten my eyes
With the rise of the sun the roses begin to bloom
Like my heart swells every morning when I look at you
As the field comes alive every morning with the sun

So does my life with the opening of your eyes
You're my sun
My rose
My love
My Megels

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxooxoxxooxxoxooxxooxoxoxox

We Drew A Heart In The Sand

Admiring the beauty of the ocean waves
Drifting towards the land
I wondered about the journey they traveled
To eventually reach the sand
I've always dreamed about taking a journey
To a place along the sea
Where every moment is timeless
In a world of magic and mystery

You and I were hand in hand, Megels
Watching the seabirds in flight
Appearing like a silhouette
Against a backdrop of the moonlight
We found ourselves on a magical journey
To a place we wanted to be
When we ventured into the darkness
Towards the sounds of the romantic sea

We walked along the shoreline
Pausing to write in the sand
As we engaged on this timeless journey
To a special wonderland
Some kind of magic took over my heart
When you looked into my eyes darlin
As we held each other very close
Waiting for the sun to rise

I said how much I loved you
And you said the same to me
As we drew a heart in the sand
And creating another memory
We wrote our initials inside the heart
Megels and Edward
Knowing the tide would soon be in
To carry our love into the sea
And let this romantic journey begin

We will always share a moonlight
With the sounds of the romantic sea
When we hold each other in the darkness
For now and eternity
The wave that carries our special love
Will always drift on forever
As we journey to that magical world
Through the sands of time together

Missing you like crazy darlin dew drop
For the day I can hold you again
You are the piece of my heart
That makes me feel complete

Miss You

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxxxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxooxoxo

Not As Long As My Heart Keeps Beating

In your arms, Megels

A world of grace

I knew that I had found my place

Your wonderful crinkle nose smile

The sound of your voice

It was perfectly clear

I had no choice

Your gentle hand reached out to mine

Something I thought I would never find

When I gazed into your autumn eyes

A heart protected

Lost its disguise

A strange sensation came over me

My step was light

My heart was free

The only thing that can be true

Is that I had fallen in love with you

It was always in the stars

Me becoming one with you

I would wish on them everyday

Hoping one day my wishes would come true

You were more than just my lover

You are my best friend

I know that I would always hold your hand

Until our time on Earth came to an end

Have I told you yet today

Just how much you mean to me darlin

How perfect of a match we were

That I would swim the deepest sea

I would climb the highest mountain

If you were stuck on top

I will never stop wishing

Not as long as my heart continues beating

I still think about that day 

When I spent it outside drawing for you

Sending you pictures as I went

Keeping you company as you worked

You were miles away in Ohio

Yet every weekend I was the luckiest guy in the world

You would come home and  I would see you

I only know happiness when I'm with you

When my heart beats I hear your name

See your face in every star

I miss you so much darlin dew

You have my heart

Always

Love, Your Edward

xoxoxooxxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxox

Wait The Rest of My Life For That Moment With You

I still wish that one day I'll wake up
And it will have all been a dream
I'll wake up and I'll be back in our bed
The sound of the fountain outside
You asleep next to me

That the last few years were just a bad dream
Showing me a life without you
And just how bad and lonely it would be
I would leap up out of bed and dance
Thanking God for bringing me home

I would make you the most delicious breakfast
Eggs just the way you like them
Put the most beautiful bouquet of flowers on your nightstand
Kiss your lips like it was the first time
You'd stir awake and I would never let you go again

I miss you with everything Megels
My heart drops everytime I write here and see no views
While I toil away through life feeling empty
The biggest piece of me missing
You, darlin dew

There are some things in life you just know and believe
A life with you is one of those
The depression is crippling sometimes
Every time a thought of us and a memory passes through
I don't know if I'll have any tears left to cry

I would happily trade the rest of my life
To go back to that moment, that day
Unpack all of my things while you were at work
Take the truck back
Come to your job with flowers

I can't go
I can't leave, not without you
My life is nothing without you
You are my meaning
I love you Megels

Whatever it takes, I want it to be us
I know I've been tough and difficult
But nothing compares to how much I love you
How much I want to spend my life with you
The happiness you've brought me

I don't know if you'll ever read this
Or if you'll ever realize he isn't the perfect other half for you
When you look in the mirror do you see the real you
The funny, cute, nerd who enjoys pop culture and video games
Who can quote movies and loves star wars

I am proclaiming today and every single day
I want you
I need you
It's your hand I want for marriage
It's your love that I want for my kids

It doesn't have to be him
I will never stop wanting to give you flowers
To make you laugh before bed
Never stop being the person you always hoped to end up with

The one who will sing at the top of his lungs in the car with you
The one who will go to comic cons instead of concerts
The one who will kick butt with you in mario kart
Make fun of little mouth in line at universal
Fall asleep on the couch with you watching friends
Watch the new star wars trailer eight times in a row with you
Hold your pinky while we lay in the sand

I will do anything to be your one
I still have your letter
Still have our blue box of memories
All our pictures
All our mementos
Every single last piece of it all

I miss you Megels
You are my lobster
And I will wait the rest of my life
For that moment with you again

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxooxxooxoxoxooxoxoxoxooxoxoxoox

Nothing I Wish More Than To Be With You, Megels

Missing you a lot Megels
The weather is starting to get colder
With it brings memories of the past with you
How cute you looked in your peacoat
You had that white winter hat that made you look so adorable

Working together at Limited
That one day you worked a double shift
We went and got a little tree at Home Depot
Then took a nap in the parking lot together
You hated the cold
But I loved snuggling with you for warmth
Having our heaters on in each of our rooms
We made that fort to play Luigi's Mansion under

I miss you so much Megels
I think about you more than any other thought
I would gladly drive hours and hours to see you
I am not handling not being with you down there well
I miss our apartment and how we lived
You've become my fantasy
The princess of my fairy tales

I dream of you always
You're with me without fail
In my dreams you kiss me
I hold on to you so tightly
My heart is soaring on wings of love
Reaching boundless heights
You come to me so gently
Taking my hand in yours
You lead me to a new life
Taking me through love's doors

Thoughts of you have filled my mind
My heart filled with love for you
I want my dreams to become reality
All of my dreams to become true
Megels, my darlin dew drop
I dream of the day we can sing in the car at the top of our lungs
Slow headbanging to Lionel Ritchie
I dream of the day we can Mario Kart all night
Waking to hear you playing Lego Harry Potter
I dream of the day we can go to comic cons
Instead of concerts

I miss how you fell how you sound
I miss spending my days with you
There's nothing I will continuously wish for
Nothing, other than you
You are my heart Megels
I'm right here
Waiting for you
For us

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxo

I'm Too Alone Without You Darlin

To the Megels of my dreams

If I was a stream
Searching for the ocean
You would be my current
Keeping me in motion

If I was a seed
Buried in the snow
You would be my sunlight
Helping me to grow

If I was a spark
In the middle of the night
You would be my flame
Keeping me alight

If I were a ship
On a stormy morning
You would be my lighthouse
Flashing me warning

But I'm not a stream
Spark, ship or seed
I am a person
And it's you that I need, Megels

I do not need a current
Lighthouse, flame, or the sun
All I need is love
And for me, you are the one darlin

The sweetness of life
Expressed in many ways
As the passion of love
Always with you stays

The closeness of your heart
As I feel your body near
The sincerity of your smile
Every time you appear

The gentleness of your kisses
As they are laced across my lips
The taste of your love
As my heart slowly sips

Each and every moment
Is an endless paradise
Like drifting into a dream
You are the dream that fills my eyes

Another day gone and you were not in it
It rained all day yesterday and I listened
Listened all day as each drop hit the windows
Remembering the warmth of holding you

I miss you so much Megels
I want to lay with you and tell you everything
Share all my interests and get ready for new ones
I'm too alone without you

I can't share anything
Partake in books, movies, songs, games
All by myself
Every time I look over, you aren't there

I don't want to spend any more days without you
Whatever and however long it takes
You are the one I want to spend the rest of my days with
You and only you darlin

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxxooxxooxoxoxoxooxoxoxooxooxoxoxoxo

Birthday To Megels Who Holds My Heart In Her Hands

On this day the most beautiful girl was born
A girl who has my heart in every way possible
Someone I would give anything to be with
To share my entire life with forever

This is the most special day
Of the most special person
Megels
You are why I still wish

In my dreams as a boy
I saw glimpses of your face, shrouded in mist
I yearned to lift the veil and behold my future love
But you'd always linger just beyond my senses
I could almost reach out and touch you
But my fingers seemed to vanish into nothingness
As the mirage of you slipped back into the realm of my mind

Born a child of the heart, my love was destined to be true
And were it in my power, I should have waited not so long
The hourglass kept me company during my vigil
As my imagination ventured where I could not
To strange lands and faraway places, always with you by my side

How thirsty was I to drink from the font that was to nourish my soul
To have chanced upon you
While the youth still flowed through my veins
So many fantasies, so many visions, so close but so far
Always a prayer on my lips for deliverance
From this sentence of torment
To know that you are but to be in darkness
While your light shone from afar
How cruel, how sad, how my heart ached to beat with your own

And when I had all but forsaken the hope of this romance
You walked into my eyes, and my world stopped in your wake
Every desire of yore seemed to spring to life in you
And every secret dream unfolded before me, like a rose in bloom
The waiting had ended and the face that never was
I now beheld in rapture

Brown eyes that burned the very core of my being
Mesmerized I was with every word
That leapt forth from that delicate mouth
Music in my ears as we conversed, discovering our past and present
Unwilling to believe that I was finally home, but how could I not

To be crowned with your queen on the day you were born
Is a joy very rare
And as we danced into the night
Time all along the master, was now my prize
While it had played out many times in my mind
Our first kiss shook the very foundations of my being
I was awash in a magical glow and lightning pulsated through me
I wanted to cry out in exhilaration
But I was numbed by the happiness that enveloped me

You understand me as I know myself
And I am complete in your love
Our thoughts intertwined, fused together in silent comprehension
The storms cross my path and I do not fear
For my heart beats steadily with your own
You are my beginning, you are my journey
You bear witness to my life's purpose
I am one with the universe and you are one with me
And the fulfillment of a divine will

I am forging ahead through this wonder and I know not our future
But I am at peace and happiness fills my wellspring
For in the time that you have loved me, I have known a true miracle
And it has changed me, I am reborn never to be the same again
I love you as I live each day and your dreams are mine to soar
May the mystery that is this life, unravel as we walk the path
A dream that you wish, will come true

I miss you darlin
With everything inside of me and so much more
The pains of missing your special day are immense
Not being able to share it with you
Knowing he won't share in all of your interests
Uses spoils to keep you instead of that lightning in a bottle connection

You are the best thing to ever happen to me
The happiest time of my life
Every day making it known I would do anything to be yours again
To hold your hand

I am beyond depressed without you
On your birthday you deserve to go to Galaxy's Edge
Dressed beautifully
Taken out to eat or taken on a trip to a new place
Where you can blow your candles out with a perfect view

I miss you Megels
Happy Birthday to the best most beautiful girl
Who holds my heart in her perfect hands
Hoping one day you see my words
And I can say my birthday wishes to you in person
Until the end of time

Love and miss you darlin dew
My heart awaits you

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxo

I Miss You So Much Megels

In any hour, place, and all circumstance
Only thoughts of one do occupy my mind
They are thoughts of you, Megels
And forever to you do I myself consign

In your times of absence, I yearn for your presence
In your times of presence, I yearn for your stay
You seem to me as vital to existence
As the rising and setting of the sun each day

Although we will face a great many obstacles
I also know if our devotion is true
That these will prove to be of little consequence
And our love may be perpetually new

Time goes by, my love endures
I love you more with each breath
Each beat of my heart

Night goes by, my love is eternal
Every sunset and sunrise
Strengthens my love for you, darlin

Daylight fades, my love is everlasting
I awake and you're sleeping beside me
My heart swells

Weeks pass by, my love is timeless
I hold your hand
Love shines in your eyes, a mirror of passion

Months disappear, our love is unchanging
We become one and share our hopes and dreams
And future

Years fade, our love is evermore
We vow to love and cherish each other
Till the end of time

Decades vanish, our love is ageless
We ripen and wrinkle like autumn leaves
Our love matures while our life light fades

My heart, Megels
I will love you until death parts us
We will shine beyond the earth as infinity of stars
Souls entwined, heavenly sparks of love

Missing you so much

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

My Fortress In The Sky For Me and You

I have this thing
Way up in the sky
It is my fortress
So very high

It is made up of my love
It is as real as can be
For you are my dove, Megels
The reason my fortress came to be

With each passing day
It grows more and more
Steadily rising
We begin to soar

My love are you ready
For this is where it all begins
Are you ready to fly with me
To my fortress in the heavens

I will guide you there safely
With my undying love
Come and soar with me
My beautiful dove

My light in the shadows
My shelter from the storm
The air when it's hard to breathe
That keeps me going on

The stitches when I'm hurt
The way home when I'm lost
The clear blue of the river
The bridge so I can cross

The moments that become memories
The sound so I can laugh
My protector when I'm threatened
You are my other half, darlin

I miss you so very much
All of my words everyday are for you
Whether you hear them in the wind
Or see them in your dreams

They are all for you
Just like I am all for you
No matter what
There's nothing I would ever want more
Than to be yours again

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxooxxoxoxooxxoxoxxxxooxoxoxoxoxoox

My One True Love's Heart

Megels darlin
My love in a billion
Can't be here this day
Alone here this lonely day
But knowing one day

Our love so precious
No words can describe
How so much I want to
Be there by your side

When all is so quiet
I lie here alone
And remember the things
That remind me of home

Your beautiful smile
So honest and true
Not one thing but thousands
Remind me of you

My darling my sweet
My one true love's heart
Has been mine for the keeping
Right there from the start

Your voice pure and loving
A thought I hold dear
I long for the comfort
When you hold me near

Things change in an instant
Some people may say
But our love is forever
Right here to stay

It may be crazy to think about you every day
If that's the case
Then throw away the key
Because I couldn't think of anything I'd rather do

I feel so very tired
So very depressed without you
I miss being happy and making you smile
The way your nose would crinkle

When I look out the window
Feel the wind on my face
I whisper words to reach your ears
I love you
Miss you
Want to be yours again

My darlin dew drop

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoox

My Heart Still Wants Us and You

Megels the beautiful snow queen
Of all of my dreams
You are like the snowflakes
That fall upon my face
All through the winter months

Bringing refreshing newness
To a soul once arid and dry
You are like the song
That seeps from the heavens
Bringing melodious grace
To a soul once quiet and noteless

You are like the sweet smell of Earth
That softens my step
Bringing assurance and blessing to a soul
Once faltering and alone
You are like the moon
That brightens the night sky
Bringing hope for a future
And a longing for the morrow

You are like a breath
A whisper
A laugh
A tear
You are my life, darlin
My love

To find a rose as fair as you, Megels
As bright as your rosy cheeks
One can never image
Your beauty is the bright sun
Laughter blossoming petals of rose
To find a love as fair as you
Is a quest that no man knows

Find a rose as fair as you
And I shall be defeated sound
There exists no rose
For that rose has been found
Your love is like summer's grace

Always passionate and heated
The warmth of your embrace
Leaves mine breath depleted
So fair you are
Only you, the fairest rose to ever blossom

How I miss you Megels
I hope so badly you still think of me
That a part of your heart still wants us
Whether a dream at night or a thought in the day
A reminder somewhere
Of us

I love and want us and you darlin

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxox

It's Always Been You, Megels Darlin Dew Drop

Megels
The angel of all my best memories
The one who took my heart
The one who will always have my heart

Time whirls a season with a burst of wind
That bellows through trees and dry autumn leaves
To fade in the twilight of your tears

Merging with the horizons of your soul
In alliance with all your dreams yet to come

I have heard your voice reflected in shadows
With words that flow like colors on canvas
Echo in my ears like soft violins

Of care, need, compassion, and desire
That ride on the sea of your longings

Your love breaks the silence of distance
And I feel the warm wind wrap me in velvet
With the harmony of heaven and earth

Joy is not the road taken in the past
But the love that we pave for the future

As day bows to a heavenly night sky
I feel your thoughts from a soft gentle smile
As I listen to your dreams penned with sound

From your voice that emanates striking waves
And lightning flashes that kindle a fire

It is then you hold me in the palm of your hand
My devotion to you everything
Love flowing through me in ways never felt

I miss everything that is you
Whatever it takes, however long it takes
It is you that I want to be with

You are the one I want to spend the rest of my days with
The rest of my breaths with
You, Megels, my beautiful darlin dew drop

It's always been you

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxooxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxo