Boxes boxes progress progress woooooo :D
ahem, I mean.....
Snow fell from the sky like angels wings that had wrestled themselves free and coasted on the breeze down to the fluff covered mounds on the ground. The silence of the outdoors due to the cold flakes created an outer atmosphere that transported you to another world while the glittering of the light glistened off the powdered inches that covered the streets. Cold bit the nose and caused shivers up and down but tonight was a very special night, one that he would have stood outside waiting for weeks to experience. The roads weren't treacherous yet as the snowfall had only just begun and the night sky had just begun its nightly stay in a star filled sky. He considered himself luckier than anyone on the planet and actively had to pinch himself a few times just to make sure he was indeed not dreaming. The beautiful girl had taken his heart and spent a handful of nights with him which they enjoyed some gaming as well as chatting while their bodies gave off waves towards one another that sent lightning up his spine. Tonight was a special night that could only have been better if it had been raining candy from the sky. She had stayed in the area longer to spend more time with him and was on her way over for the night. As the snow fell around him, he couldn't help but notice the symbolism of how each snowflake was different and filled the skies around him. Like her, there were so many different snowflakes around him in life but the one that landed on his nose made him feel the best he ever had. He checked the time and tried to calm the butterflies in his stomach but they knew that she would be arriving any second now. Almost as if he willed it to happen, her car slowly pulled around the corner and parked and then he saw her. She got up out of the car and a smile spread across her face. The notion that if he died right then and there he would die a happy man swam its way through his thoughts. She made her way over to him and he couldn't help but stare at her noticing how cute she was due to her shorter stature and the way she had a sort of suttle bounce in her step that gave her an extra added attractive quality. They greeted and hugged, her body close to his just about made him speechless as he grasped around for the words of response for her. She giggled at his stumbling and wanted to get inside as she had something special for him. His room wasn't anything special but it gained new meaning to him now that she had inhabited it a few times already. Suitably he had strung lines of Christmas lights around the ceiling of his room to give it a colorful glow that calmed and provided festive decoration at the same time. His adrenaline began to rise the closer she got to him and it took everything in his power not to pull her close and kiss her until the sun came up. Maybe tonight would be the night he would have the courage to make the jump and take the chance. They enjoyed some snacks while they tried out new games and talked about past Christmas experiences and he did his best to make her laugh and smile. It couldn't have gone any better. She was beautiful, smart, and continued to discover more shared interests between one another that made their hearts beat so loud it was amazing they could even hear one another speak. She moved herself closer to him to be nearer and their arms caressed together as they continued to game. He was nervous but he wanted to ask her so badly and he felt the moment coming, the game almost disappeared he was so preoccupied by her. Finally he could take it no longer and put an arm around her. She leaned her head over onto his shoulder and he knew, this was it. He started his sentence nervously but picked up some confidence before the end.
I was wondering if you would like to be my girlfriend.
Not his best attempt at a coherent sentence but the point was made.
She smiled bigger than he ever saw and she looked down almost embarrassed.
Well, she said, that was actually part of the surprise I brought you tonight.
Oh?
She reached into her pocket and took out a bow and tied it around herself and leaned in to plant a kiss on his lips.
My present was me.
Their hands interlocked and his heart practically exploded he was so happy.
I wouldn't like anything more dew drop.
Christmas that year brought him what he wanted most and made him happier than he had ever felt.
The best gift he could've ever wished for.
The girl wrapped up with a bow.
Tuesday, January 30, 2018
Monday, January 29, 2018
The girl from across the room
He wasn't one for large parties, if there were ever a better example of a wallflower planted in the farthest corner of a room, today it would be him. The music blared as various people milled around the house chatting up hilarious stories and embarrassing events or how their mother walked in on them. His stories always seemed to end up involving Spider-Man or that one time he tripped and fell scraping his knee trying to kick a can and spectacularly failing at it. Out of his element he resorted to stirring around his drink, a disguised cup of cold water, and scanning the room to watch others make fools of themselves or just listen in on stories to catch maybe a smile or small inclusion. How he ended up here was a mystery but he held his hopes high that tonight with all the people around maybe he would get lucky and meet someone, hey a guy could dream. The night wore on and he began pondering which video game he would boot up once he got home and how many episodes of Seinfeld he had left to watch in his sets. That's when a small group of tittering girls parted ways and a clear view to the other end of the room opened up.
And there she was.
She stood close to the kitchen doorway, a little shorter than the rest and wearing a smile that immediately made him feel very warm and excited inside. Who was she? He heard her laugh and immidately had a small fleet of butterflies take off in his insides and begin a very active game of quidditch all over his organs. She was so beautiful. Could he talk to her? Suddenly as if she heard his thoughts, her eyes whisked over in his direction and made contact. Her smile infectiously grew and he found himself smiling back and sharing the same reddish color that seemed to burn in her cheeks. His heart took on a momentary feeling that could only be described as a magic carpet ride around the world. Just that look sent his mind reeling and fantasizing about any and every future moment with her. Her voice soothing his ears every morning and regailing him with the events of her day. The way she would hold on to him in bed in the morning to keep him there for even just a minute longer. Their hands would hold tightly with their thumbs sliding up and down one another to silently message to one another the deepest of love. The way her eyes would look at him from the passenger seat while they drove to their many adventures through amusement parks and trips around the world. His smile grew to no end while she danced her sexy body to music, singing along to every lyric not caring who heard. They would eat meals created from scratch or ordered in on their favorite created 'fat days'. The nights would be filled with laughter and fun as they shared video games trying to beat scores and earn trophies to defeat the toughest of bosses. She stunned him looking cuter than every when she would wear his clothes making them look way way better on her. They snuggled close in the dark movie theater as the light from the projector lit up their forms while they pretended to be the only ones in there. Throughout the day they would send messages to one another so they weren't apart too long and could infuse a smile or giggle into the others work day. Warm water would envelope their naked bodies as they shared the shower, exploring each other's bodies with the bubbly goodness of soaps. They would be there for one another through heartbreaking life events and cheerleader one another as they pursued their career goals and dreams. Their accomplishments alone would be fulfilling but together by each other's side was like a new level of heaven to share a proud moment and lift each other to new heights. This one beautiful girl would always be a loving reminder that there truly was one person for everyone out there, crafted in the best ways to complete you and make you feel whole, the feeling that jump started your heart every morning and excited all the inner butterflies at night. She would tear up with joy as flowers surprised her at work and yell out in ecstacy as they made love long into the night. The one person he knew without any doubt that when he slipped the ring on her finger was the best decision he would ever make in his life. Every time their eyes met he could see into the windows of her beauty and experience all that she felt and all that she wanted. Not a day would go by where he didn't feel like the luckiest man alive, wanting to share his life with someone more special than he could ever hope to even explain to her in a lifetime. He made sure she knew it.
She turned back to her friends and continued talking. He found his feet had already began walking towards her on their own volition and his nose began to examine the air to pick up on the sweet smell of her perfume. She was closer now and something inside her picked up his presence and her heart heard the beating of his. She couldn't focus and every glance over at him stole her concentration and made her more and more eager to be closer to him. He walked by her and ensured that his arm bumped into hers every so gently that you could see lightning if you really watched. She could feel it through her entire body, goosebumps appearing on her skin and her eyes fluttered in a small moment of pleasure. He passed and went towards the window to a small balcony, he stepped out and watched the evening clouds swirl around trying to create messages for him to read. That's when he felt his heart skip a beat and the air around him turned into a feeling he could only describe as love. The door clicked shut and she slinked her way over to his side. Her voice was more beautiful than he thought it would be. He was almost dizzy with the feeling of her so close to him. Her hair, her body, her scent, the way he wanted to hold her and make love to her at the same time. The melody out of her mouth was all he needed and he was head over heels.
Hello darlin.
A sentence that would forever give his heart reason to beat.
The moment almost froze in time as everything around him disappeared but her.
The one he knew was the most special in the world.
The girl from across the room.
And there she was.
She stood close to the kitchen doorway, a little shorter than the rest and wearing a smile that immediately made him feel very warm and excited inside. Who was she? He heard her laugh and immidately had a small fleet of butterflies take off in his insides and begin a very active game of quidditch all over his organs. She was so beautiful. Could he talk to her? Suddenly as if she heard his thoughts, her eyes whisked over in his direction and made contact. Her smile infectiously grew and he found himself smiling back and sharing the same reddish color that seemed to burn in her cheeks. His heart took on a momentary feeling that could only be described as a magic carpet ride around the world. Just that look sent his mind reeling and fantasizing about any and every future moment with her. Her voice soothing his ears every morning and regailing him with the events of her day. The way she would hold on to him in bed in the morning to keep him there for even just a minute longer. Their hands would hold tightly with their thumbs sliding up and down one another to silently message to one another the deepest of love. The way her eyes would look at him from the passenger seat while they drove to their many adventures through amusement parks and trips around the world. His smile grew to no end while she danced her sexy body to music, singing along to every lyric not caring who heard. They would eat meals created from scratch or ordered in on their favorite created 'fat days'. The nights would be filled with laughter and fun as they shared video games trying to beat scores and earn trophies to defeat the toughest of bosses. She stunned him looking cuter than every when she would wear his clothes making them look way way better on her. They snuggled close in the dark movie theater as the light from the projector lit up their forms while they pretended to be the only ones in there. Throughout the day they would send messages to one another so they weren't apart too long and could infuse a smile or giggle into the others work day. Warm water would envelope their naked bodies as they shared the shower, exploring each other's bodies with the bubbly goodness of soaps. They would be there for one another through heartbreaking life events and cheerleader one another as they pursued their career goals and dreams. Their accomplishments alone would be fulfilling but together by each other's side was like a new level of heaven to share a proud moment and lift each other to new heights. This one beautiful girl would always be a loving reminder that there truly was one person for everyone out there, crafted in the best ways to complete you and make you feel whole, the feeling that jump started your heart every morning and excited all the inner butterflies at night. She would tear up with joy as flowers surprised her at work and yell out in ecstacy as they made love long into the night. The one person he knew without any doubt that when he slipped the ring on her finger was the best decision he would ever make in his life. Every time their eyes met he could see into the windows of her beauty and experience all that she felt and all that she wanted. Not a day would go by where he didn't feel like the luckiest man alive, wanting to share his life with someone more special than he could ever hope to even explain to her in a lifetime. He made sure she knew it.
She turned back to her friends and continued talking. He found his feet had already began walking towards her on their own volition and his nose began to examine the air to pick up on the sweet smell of her perfume. She was closer now and something inside her picked up his presence and her heart heard the beating of his. She couldn't focus and every glance over at him stole her concentration and made her more and more eager to be closer to him. He walked by her and ensured that his arm bumped into hers every so gently that you could see lightning if you really watched. She could feel it through her entire body, goosebumps appearing on her skin and her eyes fluttered in a small moment of pleasure. He passed and went towards the window to a small balcony, he stepped out and watched the evening clouds swirl around trying to create messages for him to read. That's when he felt his heart skip a beat and the air around him turned into a feeling he could only describe as love. The door clicked shut and she slinked her way over to his side. Her voice was more beautiful than he thought it would be. He was almost dizzy with the feeling of her so close to him. Her hair, her body, her scent, the way he wanted to hold her and make love to her at the same time. The melody out of her mouth was all he needed and he was head over heels.
Hello darlin.
A sentence that would forever give his heart reason to beat.
The moment almost froze in time as everything around him disappeared but her.
The one he knew was the most special in the world.
The girl from across the room.
Thursday, January 25, 2018
The way your eyes shape the world
I love the way you know just how to make me laugh or smile. One of the best feelings I have is when I am able to make you laugh the same way you do for me. Like recently when I talked about the Ephasis restaurant or pronounced how was I going to play my Resident Evil games to you in a super Italian accent. You have a smile that calms nerves and entises a feeling to provide more laughs. I miss making that cute little face of yours laugh. The inner high of seeing your beautiful face and sharing the day's stories with you is a growing fire that has been feeding more and more. To ride the clouds is a feeling that has been too long. I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel and an actual timeframe and date have been discovered on the walls right at the tunnel end. For there is a gamer girl laying on her comfy bed, her soft shorts adorning her wonderful body and her pretty brown eyes scanning Pinterest and watching her new favorite television shows. For her I leave a gift, a small special heartfelt gift that I know will leave a smile on her face into the night. Something we used to share that means something special to me. I bought it for her and that feeling of love in making her laugh and smile is a treasure I will swim to the deepest depths to retrieve.
<3 p="" you="">
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Tuesday, January 23, 2018
Did you find anything down there officer? No...nothing (supernatural reference)
Rain once again fills the night sky and drenches the windows with its enveloping noise and waterfall-like slide down the glass. The temperature takes a hit and begins to fall as the Earth cools itself down to reach its normal temperature for this time of year. It is amazing how close to the end it is for the chapter that has been such a crazy part of this adventure called life. Shouldn't be much longer and the night thoughts drift over to thoughts of you, same as every night under the moonlight. I think of you snuggled up in your blanket, eyes closing and dreams beginning. A few notable nerdy things to share out of the way at the moment first.
There is a new animated Spider-Man movie coming out end of this year. Seems to be starting with the new spidey named Miles Morales and may cover all kinds of Spider-Men.
https://youtu.be/ii3n7hYQOl4
There is also an offshoot X-Men movie coming out called New Mutants. It is about the second team that Professor Xavier tried to start after the inital X-Men all grew up and went off on their own. This looks to be a much different genre than X-men and superhero movies usually take.
https://youtu.be/bu9e410C__I
That's an X-Men universe movie!
I did a small quick drawing in this little sketchbook I have just to see if I still got it and I do ;)
I'm going to try and get a nice little pic of the gift I got you and put it up on here so you have a nice little smile and giggle that only me and you will know why.
I was thinking of one of my favorite memories of us today. That day where we got up and went to that restaurant down the coast and sat down in there and you could see the ocean out of the windows. We had a nice meal in a little restaurant and you somehow ripped your pants. Which we then had to stop at a little store so you could buy new ones to change into. Then we went off like our favorite story retold goes and we went towards the hotel that was reserved for the weekend. Reserved is a fun word, seems as it doesn't mean the same thing to everyone apparently. Getting there finding out that they overbooked and couldn't give a room so they gave me cookies and a better room at a different hotel. We drove on over there and found that there was a comic convention going on in that hotel. I distinctly remember seeing a Five Nights at Freddy's costume come out of someone's room and scaring us and walking into a little rave party at the end of the day and watching cosplayers dance away in the darkness. I always wanted to cosplay with you but never can think of what best to dress as or even how to make the outfits but oh man would it be fun. At one point you had shown interest in being X23....
Funny how that character ended up being in the Logan movie albeit a lot younger.
The sound of the rain makes me reminisce about the painting I made you of the couple walking down the pathway in the rain and all the reflections off of everything in their path.
The most beautiful, calming, and loving feeling comes from the visual in my head of us under a blanket sitting outside watching the rain with heads on each other in total bliss.
I remember painting that for you. I was down in my parents basement on the floor painting and hoping it came out so well.
Let the rain fall and create the most beautiful harmony to make its way to your ears tonight. May you be whisked away on the most wonderful of dreams carried on by the rhythm of the rains near me. My heart acting as the pied piper to march the raindrops through the clouds and into your dreams in the form of wonderful thoughts.
Sleep well dew drop and have a very peaceful night.
Love, me
xoxo
There is a new animated Spider-Man movie coming out end of this year. Seems to be starting with the new spidey named Miles Morales and may cover all kinds of Spider-Men.
https://youtu.be/ii3n7hYQOl4
There is also an offshoot X-Men movie coming out called New Mutants. It is about the second team that Professor Xavier tried to start after the inital X-Men all grew up and went off on their own. This looks to be a much different genre than X-men and superhero movies usually take.
https://youtu.be/bu9e410C__I
That's an X-Men universe movie!
I did a small quick drawing in this little sketchbook I have just to see if I still got it and I do ;)
I'm going to try and get a nice little pic of the gift I got you and put it up on here so you have a nice little smile and giggle that only me and you will know why.
I was thinking of one of my favorite memories of us today. That day where we got up and went to that restaurant down the coast and sat down in there and you could see the ocean out of the windows. We had a nice meal in a little restaurant and you somehow ripped your pants. Which we then had to stop at a little store so you could buy new ones to change into. Then we went off like our favorite story retold goes and we went towards the hotel that was reserved for the weekend. Reserved is a fun word, seems as it doesn't mean the same thing to everyone apparently. Getting there finding out that they overbooked and couldn't give a room so they gave me cookies and a better room at a different hotel. We drove on over there and found that there was a comic convention going on in that hotel. I distinctly remember seeing a Five Nights at Freddy's costume come out of someone's room and scaring us and walking into a little rave party at the end of the day and watching cosplayers dance away in the darkness. I always wanted to cosplay with you but never can think of what best to dress as or even how to make the outfits but oh man would it be fun. At one point you had shown interest in being X23....
The sound of the rain makes me reminisce about the painting I made you of the couple walking down the pathway in the rain and all the reflections off of everything in their path.
The most beautiful, calming, and loving feeling comes from the visual in my head of us under a blanket sitting outside watching the rain with heads on each other in total bliss.
I remember painting that for you. I was down in my parents basement on the floor painting and hoping it came out so well.
Let the rain fall and create the most beautiful harmony to make its way to your ears tonight. May you be whisked away on the most wonderful of dreams carried on by the rhythm of the rains near me. My heart acting as the pied piper to march the raindrops through the clouds and into your dreams in the form of wonderful thoughts.
Sleep well dew drop and have a very peaceful night.
Love, me
xoxo
Monday, January 22, 2018
Beautiful Gorgeous You
The wind rolled through the air with a crescendo that ended with itself being entwined within her hair. Each brown strand dancing like it was alive and full of energy. She was beautiful. Standing by the ocean's edge she gave off the image of being a painting come to life. The sun's rays fading in and out of existence as various shapes of clouds rolled through masking the bright light.
He adjusted his outfit and felt the weight of his weapon in his hand. It was one he had created and built himself after months of study and moments in the lab. He was happy with the outcome, although, something seemed slightly not right. It was dangerous to be out there, too many of them were looking for him. But without her it just wasn't worth it. The rest of his life could be filled up with his thoughts of her. From her gorgeous face framed with beautiful brown eyes and a smile that could make any hardened warrior weak in the knees. Her height was adorable and the way her nose crinkled when she laughed was just icing on the most amazing cake he had ever seen. Distance put them apart for the moment but he had started his trek with a determination that wouldn't be stopped by the forces that stood guard. Besides, he was itching to test out his new weapon.
She held her hands together and gazed out onto the waters as they crashed within one another. The sun had lowered a little created a vast sea of glittering diamonds across the tame waters. She knew it was too open a space to stand, dangerous almost, but she held onto hope. There had been a great battle and actions were made in haste that resulted in some bad situations. She knew the temptations and dangers of the other side but always stuck it out, this time being the darkest.
Dashing out into the setting sun and through trees that tried their best to push him away, he made his way to the only place he knew he belonged. To her. The way towards serenity lead straight through territories that if caught would result in death, or at least some very uncomfortable and painful situations. He had persued this beauty all throughout the galaxy, there was no way he was letting an angel of this calibur slip out of his hands. Recent events had clouded his mind and darkness had misguided him, there were mistakes and regrets made but this time he knew the battle to be won and pushed on. It was quiet along the path, maybe they expected him and stayed hidden. Maybe they were waiting.
She waited and made many attempts to look over her shoulder. Fear was slipping through. Maybe she should have stayed back a few steps to not be so vulnerable. How long would he take, if he was where she thought he was. She knew the risks and if he was traveling the straight path to her then it would take him into their position. What if they had gotten him already? How would she know? There was too big of a chance to risk just standing around waiting, maybe she could meet him halfway. No, the chances of crossing paths in a space that large may backfire. She glanced down towards the pile of her belongings next to her feet. A silver shaft edging out of the side. If need be, she could defend herself, they wouldn't get her without a fight.
Avoiding detection wasn't too difficult and from what he could see, not many were stationed around. To ensure he didn't walk right into a trap or ambush, he took a longer route through some areas that weren't the safest but got the job done. He knew the path well enough and if his calculations were correct, he wasn't too far away. Visions of her danced through his head putting a smile on his face. His heart beat harder and he found himself just traveling the path in his own thoughts of her and not focusing on what was in front of him. She had a way of holding your hand that told you that she loved you and that your thoughts synced up almost as if you could telepathically speak to one another. She also knew how to make you feel the best and be the best. She was worth what he was about to cross over.
The sun was almost setting beyond the waves and she picked up her belongings, slinging them over her shoulder. She would wait but had to be prepared in case, it usually wasn't long before they detected her on their daily scan of the area. She brushed hair out of her eyes and whispered into the air for him to make haste and arrive safely, her body tingled at the thought of being in his arms again. Her mind transported her to those wonderful times and she found herself smiling, illuminated not just by the sun's reflection off the ocean but her own inner joy.
He was close, just over the next hill. Running over the hill he began to get a good glimpse at a large body of water and a row of wood splashed up from elsewhere. The meeting place. Excitement filled his lungs almost making him forget that he had to be quiet and careful as to not alert the enemy's attention but he just couldn't take one more second without her. Practically sliding down the hillside he ran out towards the ocean's end. He peered around for a moment scanning the area when suddenly he saw her. A vision of beauty standing in the setting sun's light looking like an angel who just stepped out of a painting. Her eyes caught his and she smiled. Worth it. Once they met up their joy was overwhelming and together they embraced, their hearts beating in unison. They share a kiss and tell one another how they can't live without the other. The warmth of the moment interrupted by a group of enemies with their army of backup situated around them. So much for being covert. He reaches down and grabs his weapon simultaneously as she reaches into her backpack grabbing her silver weapon as well. They share a kiss and smile into one another's eyes. They each ignite their lightsabers and look at the army.
"Ready dew drop?"
"Always"
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
sleep well, nighty night darlin <3 nbsp="" p="" xoxox="">
He adjusted his outfit and felt the weight of his weapon in his hand. It was one he had created and built himself after months of study and moments in the lab. He was happy with the outcome, although, something seemed slightly not right. It was dangerous to be out there, too many of them were looking for him. But without her it just wasn't worth it. The rest of his life could be filled up with his thoughts of her. From her gorgeous face framed with beautiful brown eyes and a smile that could make any hardened warrior weak in the knees. Her height was adorable and the way her nose crinkled when she laughed was just icing on the most amazing cake he had ever seen. Distance put them apart for the moment but he had started his trek with a determination that wouldn't be stopped by the forces that stood guard. Besides, he was itching to test out his new weapon.
She held her hands together and gazed out onto the waters as they crashed within one another. The sun had lowered a little created a vast sea of glittering diamonds across the tame waters. She knew it was too open a space to stand, dangerous almost, but she held onto hope. There had been a great battle and actions were made in haste that resulted in some bad situations. She knew the temptations and dangers of the other side but always stuck it out, this time being the darkest.
Dashing out into the setting sun and through trees that tried their best to push him away, he made his way to the only place he knew he belonged. To her. The way towards serenity lead straight through territories that if caught would result in death, or at least some very uncomfortable and painful situations. He had persued this beauty all throughout the galaxy, there was no way he was letting an angel of this calibur slip out of his hands. Recent events had clouded his mind and darkness had misguided him, there were mistakes and regrets made but this time he knew the battle to be won and pushed on. It was quiet along the path, maybe they expected him and stayed hidden. Maybe they were waiting.
She waited and made many attempts to look over her shoulder. Fear was slipping through. Maybe she should have stayed back a few steps to not be so vulnerable. How long would he take, if he was where she thought he was. She knew the risks and if he was traveling the straight path to her then it would take him into their position. What if they had gotten him already? How would she know? There was too big of a chance to risk just standing around waiting, maybe she could meet him halfway. No, the chances of crossing paths in a space that large may backfire. She glanced down towards the pile of her belongings next to her feet. A silver shaft edging out of the side. If need be, she could defend herself, they wouldn't get her without a fight.
Avoiding detection wasn't too difficult and from what he could see, not many were stationed around. To ensure he didn't walk right into a trap or ambush, he took a longer route through some areas that weren't the safest but got the job done. He knew the path well enough and if his calculations were correct, he wasn't too far away. Visions of her danced through his head putting a smile on his face. His heart beat harder and he found himself just traveling the path in his own thoughts of her and not focusing on what was in front of him. She had a way of holding your hand that told you that she loved you and that your thoughts synced up almost as if you could telepathically speak to one another. She also knew how to make you feel the best and be the best. She was worth what he was about to cross over.
The sun was almost setting beyond the waves and she picked up her belongings, slinging them over her shoulder. She would wait but had to be prepared in case, it usually wasn't long before they detected her on their daily scan of the area. She brushed hair out of her eyes and whispered into the air for him to make haste and arrive safely, her body tingled at the thought of being in his arms again. Her mind transported her to those wonderful times and she found herself smiling, illuminated not just by the sun's reflection off the ocean but her own inner joy.
He was close, just over the next hill. Running over the hill he began to get a good glimpse at a large body of water and a row of wood splashed up from elsewhere. The meeting place. Excitement filled his lungs almost making him forget that he had to be quiet and careful as to not alert the enemy's attention but he just couldn't take one more second without her. Practically sliding down the hillside he ran out towards the ocean's end. He peered around for a moment scanning the area when suddenly he saw her. A vision of beauty standing in the setting sun's light looking like an angel who just stepped out of a painting. Her eyes caught his and she smiled. Worth it. Once they met up their joy was overwhelming and together they embraced, their hearts beating in unison. They share a kiss and tell one another how they can't live without the other. The warmth of the moment interrupted by a group of enemies with their army of backup situated around them. So much for being covert. He reaches down and grabs his weapon simultaneously as she reaches into her backpack grabbing her silver weapon as well. They share a kiss and smile into one another's eyes. They each ignite their lightsabers and look at the army.
"Ready dew drop?"
"Always"
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
sleep well, nighty night darlin <3 nbsp="" p="" xoxox="">
Thursday, January 18, 2018
2:45 am
Faster the process goes with what needs to be done nearing the finish line.
The girl of my dreams running through my head on the happiest clouds of mine.
I rewatch my video stirring even more memories that could fill a part two.
While my business goes on creating more ideas to sell with many thanks to you.
I miss her touch and how warm and whole it felt to have her in my arms together.
The cold always feels like it lasts forever but she never had me even noticing how bad the weather.
The amount we have in common is at a length something you don't come across every day.
We made each other proud to be who we were and share in interests, engrossed in all we would say.
She evokes a feeling of wanting to be the best of onesself to match her fulfilling personality.
Just hearing her voice spreads a smile across my face that becomes impossible to remove while my ears listen on passionately.
A gamer girl who rivals my own skills on the gaming front whether new or classics of old.
A movie girl who is the perfect copilot for every adventure seen through beautiful eyes and stories begging to be retold.
She is a beautiful stained glass window intricately designed, full of wonder and one of the most rare.
The most fun and happiness I have ever been lucky enough to have was with this most gorgeous of God's creations, spilling over with the sweetest care.
Bringing rain clouds to her wonderous lands was never an intention and weighs on my back, clad in chains, as a cross that I must bare.
The rest of my life will I lasso any and every star to brighten her smile as to ensure that every last cloud retreats, coming back they wouldn't dare.
Life is to give us one journey of adventure and chapters of a story for a solomn book we begin at birth.
For the one go around the heart cannot fathom a more perfect partner to spend and enjoy those very lucky years we share on this Earth.
Let the sandman come and share the sweetest of dreams, uplifting your rest to heights of euphoric delights of the most peaceful of rests.
Warm sheets invited to envelope your body to keep away bed bugs, the very worst of night time pests.
The most heartfelt of good nights wished upon your beautiful eyes, whispers of sweet nothings passing through your ears.
My love sent to the one heart whose beating I can hear miles away, I miss you sweet darling and sleep away as the clock ticks along its gears.
Smart, beautiful, funny, tough, fragile, always lighting up the next day anew.
Every day made better all because of you.
The girl of my dreams running through my head on the happiest clouds of mine.
I rewatch my video stirring even more memories that could fill a part two.
While my business goes on creating more ideas to sell with many thanks to you.
I miss her touch and how warm and whole it felt to have her in my arms together.
The cold always feels like it lasts forever but she never had me even noticing how bad the weather.
The amount we have in common is at a length something you don't come across every day.
We made each other proud to be who we were and share in interests, engrossed in all we would say.
She evokes a feeling of wanting to be the best of onesself to match her fulfilling personality.
Just hearing her voice spreads a smile across my face that becomes impossible to remove while my ears listen on passionately.
A gamer girl who rivals my own skills on the gaming front whether new or classics of old.
A movie girl who is the perfect copilot for every adventure seen through beautiful eyes and stories begging to be retold.
She is a beautiful stained glass window intricately designed, full of wonder and one of the most rare.
The most fun and happiness I have ever been lucky enough to have was with this most gorgeous of God's creations, spilling over with the sweetest care.
Bringing rain clouds to her wonderous lands was never an intention and weighs on my back, clad in chains, as a cross that I must bare.
The rest of my life will I lasso any and every star to brighten her smile as to ensure that every last cloud retreats, coming back they wouldn't dare.
Life is to give us one journey of adventure and chapters of a story for a solomn book we begin at birth.
For the one go around the heart cannot fathom a more perfect partner to spend and enjoy those very lucky years we share on this Earth.
Let the sandman come and share the sweetest of dreams, uplifting your rest to heights of euphoric delights of the most peaceful of rests.
Warm sheets invited to envelope your body to keep away bed bugs, the very worst of night time pests.
The most heartfelt of good nights wished upon your beautiful eyes, whispers of sweet nothings passing through your ears.
My love sent to the one heart whose beating I can hear miles away, I miss you sweet darling and sleep away as the clock ticks along its gears.
Smart, beautiful, funny, tough, fragile, always lighting up the next day anew.
Every day made better all because of you.
Tuesday, January 16, 2018
The way you make me feel
I made a video for you too dew drop. When I heard you had made one before, it germinated the idea in my head too. I've made awful mistakes and wish there was some way to erase them from time. The one thing that always has been constant in my head is you. I miss you and I miss us. I hope you like what I made, I'm sure I missed a thing or two but there is just so so much we have together. Life isn't life without you in it.
sweet dreams dew drop
xoxoxoxox
Love, your Edward
Saturday, January 13, 2018
Have I Tooooold You Lately....
Good evening! The unthinkable happened with Half Price and I got a text this morning saying that they are delaying opening and to come in at noon! whaaaaa??!
The snow outside doesn't seem that that bad and the roads seem fine from the all night salting but whatevs. Reminds me of watching the news in the morning and looking at all the school closings/delays and hoping to see Northgate lol.
So I signed up for this service on playstation called PS NOW and it's basically like a netflix but with games and you can just stream any of the games to play right off of there. There's over 600 of them and my mind has barely been able to choose which ones I want to try. It's pretty neat.
I hope you don't have a busy or bad day of mail girl duty today. I want to hear more of those stories of people you've encountered, I can't believe the balls on some of them. Did I mention that I like your interior decorating skills? You are good at making a room and place look good and set up in a way that works well. I still think about you lookin around here and taking mental notes on what you would do and that I should move the couch to the other side.
I want to do some more research on this Bob Ross museum that you said is down there.
I want to start to make our little movie list that I want to watch with you. Also a list of movies that I own so I have a handy dandy list.
A little story for you Megels darlin, when there would be snow days in high school I would always be told the night before by Bonnie to my mom so I would stay up late. I remember waking up and playing a game and I was on the third floor of my parents and it was all white and I could see up on the avenue. I had my desk by the window so I would watch outside and write things or draw. The one night around Christmas I had gotten the one batman game, Arkham Asylum and I was so into it that I started hearing birds at night and looked outside and realized it was 5 am lol.
Speaking of games, there is a game out now called Yooka-Laylee and it was made by the team that did Banjo-Kazooie and it is just like it. I wanted to get it for you to play at some point.
I miss sitting with you at night and just being all warm and snuggly and watching the night go on while we watched TV or gamed and you showed me stuff on the ol' Pinterest. It really means a lot to me to see that you still hang up my art in your room. You really are the best dew drop.
Movie list and more talking to your beautiful face super duper soon. <3 p="">
You
are my
shining star
The snow outside doesn't seem that that bad and the roads seem fine from the all night salting but whatevs. Reminds me of watching the news in the morning and looking at all the school closings/delays and hoping to see Northgate lol.
So I signed up for this service on playstation called PS NOW and it's basically like a netflix but with games and you can just stream any of the games to play right off of there. There's over 600 of them and my mind has barely been able to choose which ones I want to try. It's pretty neat.
I hope you don't have a busy or bad day of mail girl duty today. I want to hear more of those stories of people you've encountered, I can't believe the balls on some of them. Did I mention that I like your interior decorating skills? You are good at making a room and place look good and set up in a way that works well. I still think about you lookin around here and taking mental notes on what you would do and that I should move the couch to the other side.
I want to do some more research on this Bob Ross museum that you said is down there.
I want to start to make our little movie list that I want to watch with you. Also a list of movies that I own so I have a handy dandy list.
A little story for you Megels darlin, when there would be snow days in high school I would always be told the night before by Bonnie to my mom so I would stay up late. I remember waking up and playing a game and I was on the third floor of my parents and it was all white and I could see up on the avenue. I had my desk by the window so I would watch outside and write things or draw. The one night around Christmas I had gotten the one batman game, Arkham Asylum and I was so into it that I started hearing birds at night and looked outside and realized it was 5 am lol.
Speaking of games, there is a game out now called Yooka-Laylee and it was made by the team that did Banjo-Kazooie and it is just like it. I wanted to get it for you to play at some point.
I miss sitting with you at night and just being all warm and snuggly and watching the night go on while we watched TV or gamed and you showed me stuff on the ol' Pinterest. It really means a lot to me to see that you still hang up my art in your room. You really are the best dew drop.
Movie list and more talking to your beautiful face super duper soon. <3 p="">
You
are my
shining star
Friday, January 12, 2018
Frank Wizowski here reporting with a turkey leg!
Wheels are moving along and going better than expected here and it was the highlight of my day to have the little middle of nap chat today :D
It is currently raining and my little bloggy wanted to leave you a little message.
Was very humbled and excited to see that you still hang up my art in your room, I really like those ones and seeing them again makes me want to do more. You sounded so comfortable and adorably half asleep today but remembered some great memories. But yes we did go see Avengers 2. Iron Man accidentally created Ultron who became self aware and wanted to take over the world to promote piece and was making a new body that ended up being Vision. It's a bit of a mess of a movie I thought. I remember coming back from seeing it and I just kept saying that it didn't seem good and didn't feel right and you saying that you thought it was good and liked it. I've been trying to get all my Etsy orders done quicker because I'd like to use that end of day time instead to stream games again because I always knew you would watch and I knew I had the best audience of one, even if I wasn't in the chat. I got Back to the Future on PS4 today so I'd like to stream that and a few choice others.
I love laying here and listening to the rain. It always relaxes me and reminds me of you. The calmness and those once a day rains in Florida. Running through the rain at Universal to stop at that one gift shop where the guy kept talking to us about the comic con. Also of that painting I painted you of the couple walking down the path with the lights and leaves all around. I really loved your little day of buying packs of pog-like things and opening them up and putting them in order. It made me smile and feel so good, I used to do that with trading card packs and there was just something fun about wondering what you'd get and trying to get the set.
But yeah things are moving along quite nicely which I"m happy about. I really hope you had a very good little nap on your day off and that your upcoming days of work aren't too bad for you. It always makes me think back to when you were working your ass off going from Loves to Arcadia and trying to handle all the calls and on calls and getting people to cover other people. It really frustrated you and wore you out so I'm glad you have a job where at least you kind of have it a lot more open and easier. I'm sure it's a tough job that isn't the absolute funnest but to me it's nice to know you aren't stressing out over covering shift and being yelled at and such. I'm going to try and go over my parents house tomorrow night, hopefully we can all bury the hatchet and have a nice little night. I've been in a crazy Resident Evil mood lately and not sure why, even as far as to take pics of all the Resident Evil stuff I have. I don't want to be a weirdo!!
Well, it is almost 4 am as I fell asleep for a little waiting for my tables to dry. Hope you have a very wonderful morning and slept well with some very sweet dreams. Talk to you very soon Megels <3 p="">
It is currently raining and my little bloggy wanted to leave you a little message.
Was very humbled and excited to see that you still hang up my art in your room, I really like those ones and seeing them again makes me want to do more. You sounded so comfortable and adorably half asleep today but remembered some great memories. But yes we did go see Avengers 2. Iron Man accidentally created Ultron who became self aware and wanted to take over the world to promote piece and was making a new body that ended up being Vision. It's a bit of a mess of a movie I thought. I remember coming back from seeing it and I just kept saying that it didn't seem good and didn't feel right and you saying that you thought it was good and liked it. I've been trying to get all my Etsy orders done quicker because I'd like to use that end of day time instead to stream games again because I always knew you would watch and I knew I had the best audience of one, even if I wasn't in the chat. I got Back to the Future on PS4 today so I'd like to stream that and a few choice others.
I love laying here and listening to the rain. It always relaxes me and reminds me of you. The calmness and those once a day rains in Florida. Running through the rain at Universal to stop at that one gift shop where the guy kept talking to us about the comic con. Also of that painting I painted you of the couple walking down the path with the lights and leaves all around. I really loved your little day of buying packs of pog-like things and opening them up and putting them in order. It made me smile and feel so good, I used to do that with trading card packs and there was just something fun about wondering what you'd get and trying to get the set.
But yeah things are moving along quite nicely which I"m happy about. I really hope you had a very good little nap on your day off and that your upcoming days of work aren't too bad for you. It always makes me think back to when you were working your ass off going from Loves to Arcadia and trying to handle all the calls and on calls and getting people to cover other people. It really frustrated you and wore you out so I'm glad you have a job where at least you kind of have it a lot more open and easier. I'm sure it's a tough job that isn't the absolute funnest but to me it's nice to know you aren't stressing out over covering shift and being yelled at and such. I'm going to try and go over my parents house tomorrow night, hopefully we can all bury the hatchet and have a nice little night. I've been in a crazy Resident Evil mood lately and not sure why, even as far as to take pics of all the Resident Evil stuff I have. I don't want to be a weirdo!!
Well, it is almost 4 am as I fell asleep for a little waiting for my tables to dry. Hope you have a very wonderful morning and slept well with some very sweet dreams. Talk to you very soon Megels <3 p="">
Tuesday, January 9, 2018
Luxury of Sleep
Screwed up my entire night by passing out asleep and waking up at 3 am. Again. I'm beginning to think I have narcolepsy. Feeling kind of sick due to no sleep and bad eating but I want to write you a little something for your morning.
Megels is a girl who is more beautiful than anyone I've ever known.
She makes me feel like I can reach the highest clouds, higher than any bird has ever flown.
Being able to make me laugh with every little joke she says.
Not judging me and buying me more of my little hobby of collecting Pez.
Her skin is smooth and touchably soft that I could kiss all over.
She's the one person I was and am always proud of calling my lover.
A gamer at heart who has the skills to beat the most toughest boss.
But also kick a game in the face with well placed rage after every loss.
Her little dog Sam has more personality than any human and lazier to boot.
We will do whatever we can to make sure he is the healthiest doggy, kicking his illness with a boot.
I think of her every day and night and fall asleep to dreams of her in my head.
Not a single night goes by where I don't pretend my pillow is her in my bed.
I try and rhyme and make this little poem for her.
Even though it's sort of cheesy and would probably sound cuter if it was just just plainly said sir.
I hope you have very sweet dreams and an easy day at your job.
I will talk to you in the morning while I am so tired I could sob.
Love you and miss you and nighty night to you sweet Megels.
No, I don't have a rhyme for Megels but she is the only girl to make me feel like I can accomplish anything in the world, including something to end on a rhyme....like....sexy Legels?
xoxoxox
Megels is a girl who is more beautiful than anyone I've ever known.
She makes me feel like I can reach the highest clouds, higher than any bird has ever flown.
Being able to make me laugh with every little joke she says.
Not judging me and buying me more of my little hobby of collecting Pez.
Her skin is smooth and touchably soft that I could kiss all over.
She's the one person I was and am always proud of calling my lover.
A gamer at heart who has the skills to beat the most toughest boss.
But also kick a game in the face with well placed rage after every loss.
Her little dog Sam has more personality than any human and lazier to boot.
We will do whatever we can to make sure he is the healthiest doggy, kicking his illness with a boot.
I think of her every day and night and fall asleep to dreams of her in my head.
Not a single night goes by where I don't pretend my pillow is her in my bed.
I try and rhyme and make this little poem for her.
Even though it's sort of cheesy and would probably sound cuter if it was just just plainly said sir.
I hope you have very sweet dreams and an easy day at your job.
I will talk to you in the morning while I am so tired I could sob.
Love you and miss you and nighty night to you sweet Megels.
No, I don't have a rhyme for Megels but she is the only girl to make me feel like I can accomplish anything in the world, including something to end on a rhyme....like....sexy Legels?
xoxoxox
Monday, January 8, 2018
oh oh sheila
The tired work days drag on but I keep rewinding hearing you laughing at the end of the call. The restaurant is called Ephasus and yeah I was picking up food and stuff while continously saying the name and spelling it lol
I'm thirsty and very tired.
But
Tonight I want to say that you are beautiful. You are the adorable girl who stands out in a crowded room whom my eyes gravitate to immediately and through the thick fog of people. I think I loved best, playing a game with you near me helping or watching something on tv with you on my lap and playing with your hair. While writing this the thought of a huge cowgirl porn stash under a bed is making me distracted lol.
I can't remember if you said you were reading Girl on a Train or Gone Girl before but I recommend Girl on a Train. I'm halfway through and it is pretty good and keeps you wanting to continue. Oh oh, here's a story:
So, dvds and blurays are coded to the region they are from such as North America is Region 1 or A and Europe is Region 2 or B etc
Well, they only work in players from those specific regions. So, a region 2 dvd won't play here in NA. Anyways, I was at work and saw a bluray set of Big Bang Theory seasons 1-7 and noticed that it was showing Region a,b,c and had a europe rating on it. So I brought it up to a coworker and manager and they said yeah no that's not our region and to just trash it out of the system and toss it. Well, being Edward I took it home with me and tried it out. Turns out it works in our region. So, due to my small mistake I now have a little bluray set of BBT seasons 1-7. Crazy. Small enough to save space and looks all good on bluray although I haven't watched anything of it because it's kind of our show. I also got Supernatural season 1 on bluray for like 2 bucks.
I remember a cute memory today as well of when we went to the mexican restaurant on McKnight and you told me about your bucket list. I miss looking at it on Pinterest and want to make sure you hit all those buckets.
I loved that laugh you had today and it made my year so far.
I feel so bad for Sammy and really hope there is a way to make him healthier or help him out, that dog is so well behaved and great and doesn't deserve to be ill.
Same with you, I really hope you don't get any more super disease sicknesses and we can get you back to super healthy yay megels.
I so tired so I am gonna turn in. I miss how immaturely excited I was when we tried sleeping naked together that one night down there because it was supposed to be better for us. lol, I always was and still am obsessed with naked megels.
Sleep very well, hope your sudoku went well, maybe i'll look into another phone game we can maybe play together. Have very sweet dreams and I shall write another for you tomorrow.
The moon lights the sky and even though miles seperate them, they are still lit in the darkness, their lives intertwined in ways few people are lucky enough to endure.
Miss you, love you, sleep well and tight and no bed bugs biting.
nighty night megels
I'm thirsty and very tired.
But
Tonight I want to say that you are beautiful. You are the adorable girl who stands out in a crowded room whom my eyes gravitate to immediately and through the thick fog of people. I think I loved best, playing a game with you near me helping or watching something on tv with you on my lap and playing with your hair. While writing this the thought of a huge cowgirl porn stash under a bed is making me distracted lol.
I can't remember if you said you were reading Girl on a Train or Gone Girl before but I recommend Girl on a Train. I'm halfway through and it is pretty good and keeps you wanting to continue. Oh oh, here's a story:
So, dvds and blurays are coded to the region they are from such as North America is Region 1 or A and Europe is Region 2 or B etc
Well, they only work in players from those specific regions. So, a region 2 dvd won't play here in NA. Anyways, I was at work and saw a bluray set of Big Bang Theory seasons 1-7 and noticed that it was showing Region a,b,c and had a europe rating on it. So I brought it up to a coworker and manager and they said yeah no that's not our region and to just trash it out of the system and toss it. Well, being Edward I took it home with me and tried it out. Turns out it works in our region. So, due to my small mistake I now have a little bluray set of BBT seasons 1-7. Crazy. Small enough to save space and looks all good on bluray although I haven't watched anything of it because it's kind of our show. I also got Supernatural season 1 on bluray for like 2 bucks.
I remember a cute memory today as well of when we went to the mexican restaurant on McKnight and you told me about your bucket list. I miss looking at it on Pinterest and want to make sure you hit all those buckets.
I loved that laugh you had today and it made my year so far.
I feel so bad for Sammy and really hope there is a way to make him healthier or help him out, that dog is so well behaved and great and doesn't deserve to be ill.
Same with you, I really hope you don't get any more super disease sicknesses and we can get you back to super healthy yay megels.
I so tired so I am gonna turn in. I miss how immaturely excited I was when we tried sleeping naked together that one night down there because it was supposed to be better for us. lol, I always was and still am obsessed with naked megels.
Sleep very well, hope your sudoku went well, maybe i'll look into another phone game we can maybe play together. Have very sweet dreams and I shall write another for you tomorrow.
The moon lights the sky and even though miles seperate them, they are still lit in the darkness, their lives intertwined in ways few people are lucky enough to endure.
Miss you, love you, sleep well and tight and no bed bugs biting.
nighty night megels
Saturday, January 6, 2018
Way too cold and sleepy
Woke up in middle of the night after falling asleep after coming home because like I said, going to be at 3 all the time is having negative consequences. I couldn't remember what you said about trying to call super late and didn't want to wake you in the middle of the night. You did however say you wanted me to go back to daily bog posts for your cute sexy bum to read. So before I fall back asleep, I wanted to make sure I at least posted something for you.
I loved hearing your voice and I can't stop picturing you in your little mail outfit. And out of it. I don't want to write a little bit because I am dead tired and about to fall back asleep so let me write my little work day and some little thinger thangers to have you read about.
Half Price has gotten boring and am only there at the moment for the extra money for my bills but I do not plan on staying there much longer as I orignally said I wasn't. While I have been there though I have been able to find and buy a lot of stuff I've either been looking for or stumbled upon, such as the following:
Super Nintendo
Banjo-Tooie
Dreamcast
A number of blurays to either replace DVDs or to own like Miss Peregrin's school for peculiar children, the theatrical cuts of the orignal Star Wars trilogy, some old games and this baby--
which is the entire animated ninja turtles series that comes in a little replica of their turtle van.
All the Harry Potter books in hardcover including the newest one The Cursed Child.
The 3 illustrated hardcover harry potter books that have come out so far
and a number of other books.
This past Black Friday I picked up Spiderman Homecoming, Fantastic Beasts and where to find them, lego batman, guardians of the galaxy 2, the santa clause, and kingdom hearts HD collection on ps4.
The etsy store is still going alright with my 200th sale just happening. I have 7 tables to take care of at the moment and even put them up for sale on a site called artfire as well that have sold a few. I really miss your pinterest page because the ideas that you were saving were really getting me excited to expand my store. I would really love for us to really make a real business out of Geek Sense. Maybe even get on those light switch covers ;)
It feels so bad to hear about Sammy and it isn't fair. He is the best dog I've ever been around and is so well behaved and has such a personality. I wish there was something that could be done or bought to help and I can't even imagine the little man being sick.
Sucks that our 2018s are off to poo crappy starts but it will get better, I will make sure of that.
Falling asleep but am glad I was able to write something for you. I will make sure you get your daily love post and WILL NOT let you down. Please please sleep well and have the sweetest of dreams dew drop. Talk to you very very soon.
Love,
Edward
I loved hearing your voice and I can't stop picturing you in your little mail outfit. And out of it. I don't want to write a little bit because I am dead tired and about to fall back asleep so let me write my little work day and some little thinger thangers to have you read about.
Half Price has gotten boring and am only there at the moment for the extra money for my bills but I do not plan on staying there much longer as I orignally said I wasn't. While I have been there though I have been able to find and buy a lot of stuff I've either been looking for or stumbled upon, such as the following:
Super Nintendo
Banjo-Tooie
Dreamcast
A number of blurays to either replace DVDs or to own like Miss Peregrin's school for peculiar children, the theatrical cuts of the orignal Star Wars trilogy, some old games and this baby--
All the Harry Potter books in hardcover including the newest one The Cursed Child.
The 3 illustrated hardcover harry potter books that have come out so far
and a number of other books.
This past Black Friday I picked up Spiderman Homecoming, Fantastic Beasts and where to find them, lego batman, guardians of the galaxy 2, the santa clause, and kingdom hearts HD collection on ps4.
The etsy store is still going alright with my 200th sale just happening. I have 7 tables to take care of at the moment and even put them up for sale on a site called artfire as well that have sold a few. I really miss your pinterest page because the ideas that you were saving were really getting me excited to expand my store. I would really love for us to really make a real business out of Geek Sense. Maybe even get on those light switch covers ;)
It feels so bad to hear about Sammy and it isn't fair. He is the best dog I've ever been around and is so well behaved and has such a personality. I wish there was something that could be done or bought to help and I can't even imagine the little man being sick.
Sucks that our 2018s are off to poo crappy starts but it will get better, I will make sure of that.
Falling asleep but am glad I was able to write something for you. I will make sure you get your daily love post and WILL NOT let you down. Please please sleep well and have the sweetest of dreams dew drop. Talk to you very very soon.
Love,
Edward
Wednesday, January 3, 2018
The time when it all comes to a head
There are a few things I want to apologize for first before I get into the goods.
With it being a new year, a resolution is all nice and good but it doesn't come without acknowledging mistakes and being a better person so as to learn from those mistakes. This is the month I want it all to change and get back to who made me so very happy, make up for a lot of lost time and begin the new chapter entitled Happily Ever After Part 2. But before I am able to regail my favorite turkey leg with all the sweet nothings that I want her to hear daily, I must first detail all of what I know was not good or where I failed to be her other half to my fullest. They range from the insignificant to the quite significant. But all make me want to make up for them because when you are happy and my arms are around your waist and your beautiful eyes are looking up at mine....there is nothing I can think of that would make me feel complete than to return that feeling to you.
I apologize...
For beating New Mario Bros wii once you died so we wouldn't conquer it together.
Making you watch Sinister.
Not being there for your 26th bday, there is never an excuse to miss your special day esp when it wasn't far away. Which then goes to apologizing for missing your 28,29, and 30th. You don't know how badly i wanted to celebrate with you and I promise you I won't let it happen again. I still remember doing gifts over facetime when you opened Funko Potter and Are You Afraid of the Dark and Cinderella, replacing your wii sensor bar :D
I let job/financial anxieties get in the way of truly living and enjoying our time because time with you is priceless and one of a kind. I shouldn't have let you take any of the financial burden and tried even harder to get some sort of income while you worked away to help us stay afloat.
Any time I may have accidentally sounded like I was making fun of your tough time reading, I promise you I was never laughing at you. I love hearing your voice tell a story or take on a character voice when playing a game.
The Christmas that ended at the Casino because I could've joined in and had more fun instead of being a baby and sitting in a chair the whole time or making you feel bad for doing things that I wasn't used to, there was no reason to make you feel bad.
Not helping pay for the U-Haul, we both used it and even had a friend pay for it for us and it wasn't nice or right to not help pay for it as well.
Throwing another baby tantrum when Ellen offered to help redecorate our apartment.
Upsetting you on New Years when all you wanted to hear that I was sorry for any frustration and pain I had put you through and there was nothing I could think of that would make me happier than to continue to wake up every morning next to you.
Letting homesickness ruin your wedding excitement. You have my word of my heart that it's you and always has been you that I want to say I do to.
Letting the finances get to the point where your bills were past due so I could pay mine and figure out the rent when I was running out.
Annoying you with all the butt spanking.
Being difficult instead of helpful and understanding when Ellen had stayed with us.
Also being the same when your dad stayed with us. It was family and you once again were a very accomidating great person who went out of her way to help someone.
Not taking you out on enough dates, I love being at a table with you and looking across at you. Smiling.
Not taking more than one second to know that I wanted to be with you no matter what it took and that you were worth more than anything I've ever known.
Not being a stronger other half for you. You always believed in me and loved me more than life itself and while I felt exactly the same, I should've shown it more and done more for you.
Hurting you like a complete asshole over the summer when it was exactly what I wanted with you. It's shameful and embarrassing and I think of it every day as the stupidest I have ever been. To go through the next couple of months just ended up being worse for me as a sort of karma and I really would give anything to be near you again.
Not staying awake the best when driving on our road trips to and from states.
Any time I was ever upset or angry with you over anything no matter what it was. A life with you is worth way more than a little thing here and there that I may not like or enjoy because a life with you is so special and lucky that any little issue is just a raindrop on a beautiful sunny day.
I always wanted to be someone you were proud to be with and so many instances you showed that you really were in love with me.
Speaking of those times, now for the things that I still think about and want more of every single day. Happily there are a lot more of these than there are of the mistakes and if you could see the smile on my face while I write these. :D
Telling you my stories at Ponderosa and secretly looking forward to them just so I could talk to you for a little.
That magical momentous day that you came into Giant Eagle and smiled and looked back at me before turning the corner to leave the store.
Getting us the Wii U
Feeding you gummy bears while we gamed.
Playing mario bros wii and kissing you for the first time before work.
You getting a ticket on the way back to Ohio and texting me about it.
Giving you crazy directions to my house and showing you all my art while we rubbed arms together quietly falling in love.
You staying home another day just to spend more time with me.
Spending my bday with you at the museum and Hard Rock Cafe and the incline.
Watching all the Star Wars movies with you and having sex during Phantom Menace to make it a better film.
You introducing me to Supernatural.
Our little Christmas tree in my room where we traded gifts like Luigi's Mansion, a Supernatural autograph and when I got you Animal Crossing, Mystical Ninja, Banjo kazooie, Sims, and every year seasons of Supernatural and Vampire Diaries.
Working at the Limited with you and getting you coffee and staying there late to drive home to watch Are you afraid of the dark.
You making your soup that smelled up my kitchen.
Whenever you would put your glasses on after playing a game for a little because it started to hurt your eyes and pushing them up against your face with one finger if they slide down your nose a little.
How adorable you looked in your white winter hat.
Jumping all over the place during Sinister.
Going to comic cons and the pic with the black ranger and stopping at the Monroeville Alfred Angelo so you could see your old work friends.
You singing your little heart out to all the songs that you played off your phone.
Making plans to someday see Harry Potter world.
Your little journal entries that you kept when you went to Mexico for Ellen's wedding. And the naughty snapchat pic you sent me that still excites me ;)
The way you would hold me when you slept and how it felt to have you up against me and the smell of your hair.
When you found out that the quote in Banjo "eekum bokum" meant ouch my balls hurt.
Going to the zoo with you and you had on your little tube top shirt and I could not keep my eyes off of you, even when we went to TGI Fridays afterwards.
Visiting you at work and bringing you lunch or getting you Panera Bread and that wonderful welcome when I would show up "hey darlin"
When you would visit me at Giant Eagle and I couldn't wait to leave work to spend time with you.
Walking Sammy up in Avalon/Bellevue while we chatted away.
You inviting me to come with you to Florida and watching the Lego movie in my bedroom.
Putting together the Mario puzzle on my floor and then having sex near it.
Spending time with you before you left in your bed watching Clerks and then saying goodbye to you in the rain. I played Lego Star Wars all night trying to stay up with you so you weren't alone, even when you made pit stops. So cute.
Facetiming while you were there and masterbating together and getting updates from you while you were there.
Sitting in the middle of our apartment with all of our boxes eating Boston Market on the floor and watching Supernatural, our first night there.
Our shopping trip out to a small store to get the essentials like a trash can.
Showering together in our little shower and hearing your music play.
Getting our Fritos pizza and the chinese food delivered from across the road.
All of the movies we saw from Cinderella, Minions, Avengers 2, Antman, Ninja Turtles, and more.
The trips to Universal and your excitement to ride and quote the Mummy ride, Spiderman, Transformers, and Harry Potter.
The way we would hold hands and walk along the lake when the park was closing and our day was over.
Holding hands on every ride. Kissing while in line. Filling up our refillable cup.
Our cleaning dance party that you would make every so often to tidy up the apartment.
When I lined the hallway wall with all of my art.
Getting the cats and seeing their little selves running around and Harley battling every sickness imaginable for a while.
The big flea market near our apartment.
Walking on the beach with you and watching the sun go down.
Shopping at walmart and getting meat for our tacos and your chili and your tea packets and Faygo and things for our candy and snacks cupboard.
Making you the table that says Love.
You watching me play games at night and looking up walk throughs if I got stuck.
Our month of Halloween movies
Getting you your Dean shirt
When you thought I was going to tickle you in the hallway and you ran down giggling.
The bug on the railing outside
When you came up with Geek Sense
The hotel mix up that actually gave us a better place that had a comic con going on. With the little rave later.
The gaming con we ended up at with the awesome game room with video games.
Going to Ripleys believe it or not
Buying our first big real Christmas tree.
Your little bday ice cream that I got you.
You watching me draw
You doing your homework questions and me helping get pics and stuff for your powerpoint presentations.
Laughing and playing around in bed before going to sleep
Playing cooking mama in bed
Coming home on my lunch breaks and you already making me my tv dinners
Watching Friends and how i met your mother with you laying in my lap until we fell asleep
Sitting in our office chairs outside under blankets while you smoked.
Naked man
Slow head banging and thinking we were going to get pulled over for it.
when you broke the key in the door lock
Going through the wendy's drive through and you pushing your boobs up to try and distract the worker.
Getting you milkshakes at steak and shake while we watched american horror story
Picking you up from work and watching you change in your closet.
Going to Blue Dragon with you and looking at all the games and you being excited and proud to have a retron
Watching the force awakens trailer a ton of times
Getting a mani-pedi with you
Our in jokes from turkey leg to wallet and juice to diet coke.
But most of all, just how you made me feel. Being with other people I can say that there is something truly special about you. Something I have never seen again and always have on my mind. For one, you are beautiful. You are so pretty and your hair feels so silky and your skin so smooth. Your eyes are big and cute and the way you feel when I hold you actually feels like I am connecting pieces together to form a whole person. Your voice can sooth no matter what bad day I may have and you have the best smile I have ever seen. You make me laugh in so many ways whether it be a call back joke or just zooming in on your nose during facetime. I miss laying in bed with you on facetime until you fell asleep and it was great watching Netflix despite the distance. You have the cutest personality and a great great heart. More people need to have the kind of heart and kindness that you do. You instantly brighten every day and I take time almost every day to look at the pics we took together every day. You really mean a lot to me and I truly believe in my heart that you are the one. There is a connection and a realness to us that is more than special. Just like you wrote, which I totally agree, I do want my Ramona and not my Knives, the girl who goes to cons and not concerts, the girl who can kick my ass in mario kart and sing like crazy in the car. The girl who knows that she can actually be her real self with me and not worry and know that we have so so so much in common. I love you, I have you on my mind every day and have for years. I love the girl who has a ninja turtle on her pencil and wears nerdy shirts and shoes and knows all the Harry Potter spells off by heart. The girl who still hopes and checks in to read this and wrote me a letter that I look at still and reread constantly. Even if that door is open just a sliver where only a paper can fit through barely, then that's one door I want to do whatever it takes to get back inside.
You are my fire. My one desire.
Have I told you lately that I love you
Hello, is it me you're looking for
Don't talk to strangers
I miss you dew drop and this month I am going to make it my mission to change it all and do whatever it takes to get your heart right back where it belongs. It's hard to breath without you and I feel like life is flying by me, the important life where I am engaged to a beautiful brunette and am working on an animated movie and am seeing and cosplaying star wars with her. Can't believe I haven't seen Last Jedi yet. Getting late and I need sleep badly so I will continue but I do want to say, I miss you and love you and I can't think of anyone that I would rather have on my mind all day than you.
PS, I'm reading girl on the train right now and one of the main characters is named megan and she is missing and everyone is looking for her. Just like my dreams. You are quite the popular megels.
Have a very wonderful night, stay warm because Florida finally got cold, don't let the bed bugs bite and the sweetest dreams I can possibly send to you. Nighty night dew drop. xoxoxoxox
With it being a new year, a resolution is all nice and good but it doesn't come without acknowledging mistakes and being a better person so as to learn from those mistakes. This is the month I want it all to change and get back to who made me so very happy, make up for a lot of lost time and begin the new chapter entitled Happily Ever After Part 2. But before I am able to regail my favorite turkey leg with all the sweet nothings that I want her to hear daily, I must first detail all of what I know was not good or where I failed to be her other half to my fullest. They range from the insignificant to the quite significant. But all make me want to make up for them because when you are happy and my arms are around your waist and your beautiful eyes are looking up at mine....there is nothing I can think of that would make me feel complete than to return that feeling to you.
I apologize...
For beating New Mario Bros wii once you died so we wouldn't conquer it together.
Making you watch Sinister.
Not being there for your 26th bday, there is never an excuse to miss your special day esp when it wasn't far away. Which then goes to apologizing for missing your 28,29, and 30th. You don't know how badly i wanted to celebrate with you and I promise you I won't let it happen again. I still remember doing gifts over facetime when you opened Funko Potter and Are You Afraid of the Dark and Cinderella, replacing your wii sensor bar :D
I let job/financial anxieties get in the way of truly living and enjoying our time because time with you is priceless and one of a kind. I shouldn't have let you take any of the financial burden and tried even harder to get some sort of income while you worked away to help us stay afloat.
Any time I may have accidentally sounded like I was making fun of your tough time reading, I promise you I was never laughing at you. I love hearing your voice tell a story or take on a character voice when playing a game.
The Christmas that ended at the Casino because I could've joined in and had more fun instead of being a baby and sitting in a chair the whole time or making you feel bad for doing things that I wasn't used to, there was no reason to make you feel bad.
Not helping pay for the U-Haul, we both used it and even had a friend pay for it for us and it wasn't nice or right to not help pay for it as well.
Throwing another baby tantrum when Ellen offered to help redecorate our apartment.
Upsetting you on New Years when all you wanted to hear that I was sorry for any frustration and pain I had put you through and there was nothing I could think of that would make me happier than to continue to wake up every morning next to you.
Letting homesickness ruin your wedding excitement. You have my word of my heart that it's you and always has been you that I want to say I do to.
Letting the finances get to the point where your bills were past due so I could pay mine and figure out the rent when I was running out.
Annoying you with all the butt spanking.
Being difficult instead of helpful and understanding when Ellen had stayed with us.
Also being the same when your dad stayed with us. It was family and you once again were a very accomidating great person who went out of her way to help someone.
Not taking you out on enough dates, I love being at a table with you and looking across at you. Smiling.
Not taking more than one second to know that I wanted to be with you no matter what it took and that you were worth more than anything I've ever known.
Not being a stronger other half for you. You always believed in me and loved me more than life itself and while I felt exactly the same, I should've shown it more and done more for you.
Hurting you like a complete asshole over the summer when it was exactly what I wanted with you. It's shameful and embarrassing and I think of it every day as the stupidest I have ever been. To go through the next couple of months just ended up being worse for me as a sort of karma and I really would give anything to be near you again.
Not staying awake the best when driving on our road trips to and from states.
Any time I was ever upset or angry with you over anything no matter what it was. A life with you is worth way more than a little thing here and there that I may not like or enjoy because a life with you is so special and lucky that any little issue is just a raindrop on a beautiful sunny day.
I always wanted to be someone you were proud to be with and so many instances you showed that you really were in love with me.
Speaking of those times, now for the things that I still think about and want more of every single day. Happily there are a lot more of these than there are of the mistakes and if you could see the smile on my face while I write these. :D
Telling you my stories at Ponderosa and secretly looking forward to them just so I could talk to you for a little.
That magical momentous day that you came into Giant Eagle and smiled and looked back at me before turning the corner to leave the store.
Getting us the Wii U
Feeding you gummy bears while we gamed.
Playing mario bros wii and kissing you for the first time before work.
You getting a ticket on the way back to Ohio and texting me about it.
Giving you crazy directions to my house and showing you all my art while we rubbed arms together quietly falling in love.
You staying home another day just to spend more time with me.
Spending my bday with you at the museum and Hard Rock Cafe and the incline.
Watching all the Star Wars movies with you and having sex during Phantom Menace to make it a better film.
You introducing me to Supernatural.
Our little Christmas tree in my room where we traded gifts like Luigi's Mansion, a Supernatural autograph and when I got you Animal Crossing, Mystical Ninja, Banjo kazooie, Sims, and every year seasons of Supernatural and Vampire Diaries.
Working at the Limited with you and getting you coffee and staying there late to drive home to watch Are you afraid of the dark.
You making your soup that smelled up my kitchen.
Whenever you would put your glasses on after playing a game for a little because it started to hurt your eyes and pushing them up against your face with one finger if they slide down your nose a little.
How adorable you looked in your white winter hat.
Jumping all over the place during Sinister.
Going to comic cons and the pic with the black ranger and stopping at the Monroeville Alfred Angelo so you could see your old work friends.
You singing your little heart out to all the songs that you played off your phone.
Making plans to someday see Harry Potter world.
Your little journal entries that you kept when you went to Mexico for Ellen's wedding. And the naughty snapchat pic you sent me that still excites me ;)
The way you would hold me when you slept and how it felt to have you up against me and the smell of your hair.
When you found out that the quote in Banjo "eekum bokum" meant ouch my balls hurt.
Going to the zoo with you and you had on your little tube top shirt and I could not keep my eyes off of you, even when we went to TGI Fridays afterwards.
Visiting you at work and bringing you lunch or getting you Panera Bread and that wonderful welcome when I would show up "hey darlin"
When you would visit me at Giant Eagle and I couldn't wait to leave work to spend time with you.
Walking Sammy up in Avalon/Bellevue while we chatted away.
You inviting me to come with you to Florida and watching the Lego movie in my bedroom.
Putting together the Mario puzzle on my floor and then having sex near it.
Spending time with you before you left in your bed watching Clerks and then saying goodbye to you in the rain. I played Lego Star Wars all night trying to stay up with you so you weren't alone, even when you made pit stops. So cute.
Facetiming while you were there and masterbating together and getting updates from you while you were there.
Sitting in the middle of our apartment with all of our boxes eating Boston Market on the floor and watching Supernatural, our first night there.
Our shopping trip out to a small store to get the essentials like a trash can.
Showering together in our little shower and hearing your music play.
Getting our Fritos pizza and the chinese food delivered from across the road.
All of the movies we saw from Cinderella, Minions, Avengers 2, Antman, Ninja Turtles, and more.
The trips to Universal and your excitement to ride and quote the Mummy ride, Spiderman, Transformers, and Harry Potter.
The way we would hold hands and walk along the lake when the park was closing and our day was over.
Holding hands on every ride. Kissing while in line. Filling up our refillable cup.
Our cleaning dance party that you would make every so often to tidy up the apartment.
When I lined the hallway wall with all of my art.
Getting the cats and seeing their little selves running around and Harley battling every sickness imaginable for a while.
The big flea market near our apartment.
Walking on the beach with you and watching the sun go down.
Shopping at walmart and getting meat for our tacos and your chili and your tea packets and Faygo and things for our candy and snacks cupboard.
Making you the table that says Love.
You watching me play games at night and looking up walk throughs if I got stuck.
Our month of Halloween movies
Getting you your Dean shirt
When you thought I was going to tickle you in the hallway and you ran down giggling.
The bug on the railing outside
When you came up with Geek Sense
The hotel mix up that actually gave us a better place that had a comic con going on. With the little rave later.
The gaming con we ended up at with the awesome game room with video games.
Going to Ripleys believe it or not
Buying our first big real Christmas tree.
Your little bday ice cream that I got you.
You watching me draw
You doing your homework questions and me helping get pics and stuff for your powerpoint presentations.
Laughing and playing around in bed before going to sleep
Playing cooking mama in bed
Coming home on my lunch breaks and you already making me my tv dinners
Watching Friends and how i met your mother with you laying in my lap until we fell asleep
Sitting in our office chairs outside under blankets while you smoked.
Naked man
Slow head banging and thinking we were going to get pulled over for it.
when you broke the key in the door lock
Going through the wendy's drive through and you pushing your boobs up to try and distract the worker.
Getting you milkshakes at steak and shake while we watched american horror story
Picking you up from work and watching you change in your closet.
Going to Blue Dragon with you and looking at all the games and you being excited and proud to have a retron
Watching the force awakens trailer a ton of times
Getting a mani-pedi with you
Our in jokes from turkey leg to wallet and juice to diet coke.
But most of all, just how you made me feel. Being with other people I can say that there is something truly special about you. Something I have never seen again and always have on my mind. For one, you are beautiful. You are so pretty and your hair feels so silky and your skin so smooth. Your eyes are big and cute and the way you feel when I hold you actually feels like I am connecting pieces together to form a whole person. Your voice can sooth no matter what bad day I may have and you have the best smile I have ever seen. You make me laugh in so many ways whether it be a call back joke or just zooming in on your nose during facetime. I miss laying in bed with you on facetime until you fell asleep and it was great watching Netflix despite the distance. You have the cutest personality and a great great heart. More people need to have the kind of heart and kindness that you do. You instantly brighten every day and I take time almost every day to look at the pics we took together every day. You really mean a lot to me and I truly believe in my heart that you are the one. There is a connection and a realness to us that is more than special. Just like you wrote, which I totally agree, I do want my Ramona and not my Knives, the girl who goes to cons and not concerts, the girl who can kick my ass in mario kart and sing like crazy in the car. The girl who knows that she can actually be her real self with me and not worry and know that we have so so so much in common. I love you, I have you on my mind every day and have for years. I love the girl who has a ninja turtle on her pencil and wears nerdy shirts and shoes and knows all the Harry Potter spells off by heart. The girl who still hopes and checks in to read this and wrote me a letter that I look at still and reread constantly. Even if that door is open just a sliver where only a paper can fit through barely, then that's one door I want to do whatever it takes to get back inside.
You are my fire. My one desire.
Have I told you lately that I love you
Hello, is it me you're looking for
Don't talk to strangers
I miss you dew drop and this month I am going to make it my mission to change it all and do whatever it takes to get your heart right back where it belongs. It's hard to breath without you and I feel like life is flying by me, the important life where I am engaged to a beautiful brunette and am working on an animated movie and am seeing and cosplaying star wars with her. Can't believe I haven't seen Last Jedi yet. Getting late and I need sleep badly so I will continue but I do want to say, I miss you and love you and I can't think of anyone that I would rather have on my mind all day than you.
PS, I'm reading girl on the train right now and one of the main characters is named megan and she is missing and everyone is looking for her. Just like my dreams. You are quite the popular megels.
Have a very wonderful night, stay warm because Florida finally got cold, don't let the bed bugs bite and the sweetest dreams I can possibly send to you. Nighty night dew drop. xoxoxoxox
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