Awaiting To See You, Darlin

I decorate the room awaiting your return

My favorite thing to do while you were at work

I missed you all day darlin

I cannot wait to see you

Candles flicker softly on a table set for two

There's no on one the earth except for me and you

A nice romantic dinner

A bottle of chilled wine, Reisling

And we are here together

In a moment stopped in time

A love so few have ever known and this is its birth night

Alone within our little world

You and I and candlelight

So soon we will set free the feelings

That we want to share

I am held here spellbound

By your laughter in the air

Thoughts of love like falling leaves

Swirling in the autumn breeze

Flow in our minds and in our eyes

A tender look and longing sighs

We touch and as the fire starts

That we have kindled in our hearts

We kiss and hear the angels sing

As heavens gift to me you bring

No more to live my life alone

And in your soul I found my home

At peace within your loving arms

Captivated by your charms

And happily I'd die for you

Here at this table set for two

Me and you Megels

Any time spent with you

Is time that could never be replaced

I miss you darlin dew drop

My heart beats only for you

Always

Love, Your Edward

xoxoxoxoxooxxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxooxxoxoxox

Hoping One Day To Hold You Again

Megels darlin
I miss all of our fun and smiles
Life has hit a dead end
I constantly wish I was near you

You are the best thing to ever walk into my life
The worst mistake was coming back up here
Whatever it takes to be yours again
I reach my hand out to yours

The sparkle in your eye
The warmth of your skin
Your breath on my neck
That quivers within

The touch of your hand
The smell of your hair
The kindness in your smile
That strength in your stare

Your kiss on my lips
Your body near mine
The stroke of your touch
That feeling inside

The sound of your voice
Compassion in your embrace
The serenity in your stride
The power in your face

The calming of your presence
The beating of your heart
The promise of tomorrow
That we may never part

The beauty of your kiss
And that magic in your touch
It is for all these reasons and more
Why I love you so much

I miss you so much Megels
My eyes forever up to the stars
Hoping one day I can hold you again
Hoping and wishing

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxxoxxoxoxooxxooxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxxo

My Love For You, Darlin Dew Drop

To you, beautiful Megels

When you are sad
I will dry each and every tear
When you are scared
I will comfort all of your fears
When you need love
My heart I will share
When you are sick
For you I will always care

You will feel my love when we are apart
Knowing that nothing will change my heart
When you are worried
I will give you hope
When you are confused
I will help you cope

When you are lost
And can't see the light
My love will be a beacon
Shining ever so bright
This is my vow darlin
One that I pledge until the end
For you above all
Are my soul mate and best friend

These words I have written
Speak of my love for you
From my lips these words spoken
Shall always ring true
God has blessed me
With the touch of your hand in mine
Both of our hearts
Will forever intertwine

Into all lives falls pain and sorrows
I promise together
We will meet all tomorrows
Happy together with honor and love
Blessed in unity from above

There is no other girl, no other partner
That I would give anything to be with
For the rest of time, every moment, every day
You, Megels are that girl to me
Every day I think about your pretty face

All of our jokes, memories, and moments
I am right here waiting for you
I know I caused pain, I never meant to
But I will spend the rest of my life
Making it up to you
Making sure that every single day
You are the happiest girl in the world

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxooxxooxoxoxoxooxoxooxoxoxxoxooxoxox

Making A Wish Under Every Star

When you're not here to share my days and nights
My life is so incomplete
For you are my heart, Megels
My soul
The one I had known to seek

Without you I merely exist from day to day
With you I know that I will find
All that I have been searching for
My completeness
My eternal peace of mind

You are the keeper of my dreams
The girl who holds my heart in her hands
The one I want to spend my life with
The one with whom I will always stand

Stand beside through thick and thin
Through all that life will throw our way
Knowing that this special love we share
Will guide us, each and every day

Our journey was started long ago
Before this time and place
The journey of completeness
As two hears and souls embrace

Forever is what I want with you
For the search is at an end
Our hearts found one anothers
As lovers
As soul mates

I shall stand under every star to make a wish
A wish that someday you'll call me yours again
I feel it deep inside that that day will come
No matter how long
I will be right here with open arms
Waiting to call you mine again

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxooxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxxooxoxooxo

There's Nothing I Believe In More, Megels

It saddens me that you probably aren't reading this, Megels
That you go through your day with me erased
Not living how the real you would want
Having someone around who is more attached to his work than you
Who can't take a joke and has a huge ego

Remember how we could make each other smile
How you felt when you came over to see me
You wanted me to come back down to you
There's nothing I want more than that

I hope your heart reconsiders darlin
Think about who he is and what the future would be
A future of more fishing, more phone in ear, more things to not have in common
All of those things you told me, can you say the same with them

Will he join you in comic cons instead of concerts
Will he sing at the top of his lungs with you in the car
Will he race you in Mario Kart
Wave wands and make jokes at Universal
Hold you all night in his arms and make you breakfast

I want to be yours again Megels
I know in all of my bones it'll be better
Just like your letter told me
We share all of the same interests
You can be your real self with me
Achieve all of our dreams together

The first time we met
I could see
That you and I
Were meant to be
Your eyes were so gentle
Your smile so true
When you first held my hand
I just knew

Now the time has gone by
Through laughter and tears
These days I shall cherish
For years upon years
Those memories we have
Shall never fade
For those are the steps
That we have made

That was the past
The future is near
I anxiously wait
For what will appear
New homes, more laughter
Children so dear
Everything will be wonderful
As long as you're near

I miss you so much darlin
I pray every night these words reach your eyes
Your heart feels the pull of true love
How it could be with us
I'll never stop waiting for you
I believe it in my heart through and through

You are my soul mate
There's nothing I believe in more

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

You're The Only One I Want, Darlin

I had another night of dreams with you, Megels
Looking for you in a house
Everyone was there and I would see glimpses of you
I went all through the place looking for you

The more I miss you the more it hurts
I find myself thinking about our memories all the time
Making you laugh and kissing your lips
How you'd always say you hoped it was us

I can't complete this adventure without you
Stuck in a depression that's never ending
Every morning I wish that when I open my eyes
I'm back in our bed, you next to me

If time could stand still, I'd freeze it there
So I'd always hold you, close and near
In my arms, where you're meant to be
Filled with the perfect love you've given me

A bond so strong, a hold so tight
To know you're the one
My Miss Right
A blessing sent from above
In you, Megels, I found my one true love

Our lives entwined to be as one
Upon the journey we began
Where you and I will find no less
Than eternal love and happiness

How badly I want to take our car rides again
Shop for the ingredients for our dinners
Plan out new trips and pop culture venues
You putting on your glasses to continue gaming

I will read you every book
Play every game
Watch every movie
Travel to every continent
Sing you every song
Be yours every second of the way

I miss you darlin dew drop
It's just me, nothing stopping me
I'm all yours completely
I know together we can be truly happy
The real you, not who you're with now

I'm right here waiting darlin
If it takes my whole life
You're the only one I want

Always

Love, Your Edward
oxoxxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

I Hope Your Heart Hears Me, Darlin

A flower grows from beneath a blanket
Of fine and purest white
It reaches toward the sun for warmth
For heat and for the light

My love for you grows stronger still
Despite the surrounding cold
My heart is yours darlin
It always was if I may be so bold

Its petals shine from morning dew
Its stem grows stiff and strong
It stands strong through the freezing cold
It stands the winter long

I long for you, for your soft touch
I miss the way you smile
The longer that we stay apart
The longer every mile

The flower stretches through the snow
It reaches towards the sun
And now without you the color is gone
The flower's petals done

But as we would talked
The flower came back to life
The snow melted and went away
As you took away my strife

It always feels like spring around you
You and I felt like we were one
Together we were so in love
The snow was gone and done

I see the future, in dreams I have
Of our life, long and true
I see the times where all I need
Are comforting words from you

I see the times when winter comes
As winter tends to do
But we still love, and we still live
And I do still love you, Megels

And so we live, with our children
A life of so much to see
With love we live, to live we love
Happily together are we

Even when we get old, years having passed
We are old together
Our love stronger every day
As strong as it can be

There isn't a single day that passes without thinking of you
I know love is true and beautiful because of you
I miss you in ways that haven't been invented yet
I will always be waiting to be yours again darlin

I hope your heart still hears me
Because mine always hears yours

Always

Love, Your Edward
xooxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxox

You Are My Reason, Megels

Missing you Megels
Has he said something beautiful to you today
Made sure you smiled in the morning
Made you the center of his day

Does he sing with you in the car
Everything from Spice Girls to Journey
Hold hands through a comic con
Discussing how you both might want to cosplay

Can he recite lines with you from Harry Potter
Gift you your favorite past items
Does he leave flowers on your car for you to find
Cook you your eggs just the way you like them

Wait to watch the new Star Wars trailer until you can
Game with you and race you in Mario Kart
Give you a back massage before bed
Hold pinkies while you lay in the sand tanning

Will he join you in getting in shape and healthier
Know all of your references and pop culture loves
Hold on to all your memories in a box
Make fun of the line videos at Universal

Let you hold on to him like a spider monkey in bed
Would he move states away from home to be with you
Bring you lunch to work just to see you
Give up everything just to be near you

Or does he always do what he enjoys and brings you
Would rather fish all the time
Appreciate what you buy them whether it's a joke or not
Share in all of your interests

Do you have to change yourself to be with him
Give up things because you believe that's how it has to be
Will he wear pop culture clothes
Remove his earphone for a week if it would make you happy

We share a connection that very few people do
All of our interests are the same
We always ended up back in the other's arms
Knew just how to make the other happy

Whatever I have to do
Whatever it may take
Megels, I will do it for you
You have and will have all of me

I won't be tied to a phone
Won't drag you to go fishing constantly
Not afraid to look silly or do silly things
I will make sure you always have flowers

I will hold you tightly at night
Be your gamer player two
Sing every song in the car with a slow head bang
Go to every con instead of concert with you

You are my soul mate
My one and only
My lobster
My true love

I've made mistakes in the past
Hurt you and made you feel awful
I pray for forgiveness every single night
Losing you is a constantly pain in my heart

I love you Megels
I miss you with all of me
Please please reconsider and think
I am all yours no matter what you ask of me

You are my reason

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxxooxoxxoxooxoxoxoxoxo

An Angel Sent From Above

It is said that there are angels

In heaven above

And they shine with the light

Of an inner love

Of these things

I had not a clue

But that was

Before I found you, Megels

For in you darlin, I found

A love that is so right

It shined all around

With the brightest of light

It came from somewhere

So deep within

That it has no beginning

And knows no end

Your love is a light

That brightens each day

Of all of the people

You see on your way

Wherever you go darlin

Or whatever you do

All see the love

That you have inside of you

That God sent you here

To a place where you'd be

Sharing such love

With someone like me

Is proof for me

That angels exist

And are filled with a love

That no man could resist

I thanked God each day

For finding the time

For looking down on me

And making you mine

So yes, there are angels

In heaven above

I know because God

Sent me one to love

And that one was you, Megels

Every day I continue to pray

That God grants me the opportunity

To share that love with you again

To be yours until the end

Always

Love, Your Edward

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxxooxxoxoxo

Anything To Be Yours Again, Darlin

A love poem to you Megels
The girl I think about every day
It's been too long since I've heard you
Far too long since I've seen you

Whenever I day dream
And day dream I do
In my secret garden
I day dream of you, Megels

I day dream of you
In a faraway land
Embracing me tight
And holding my hand

Holding my hand
And touching my face
Just you and me
In this peaceful place

In this peaceful place
A pristine river flows
Where the unicorns run
A breeze always blows

A breeze always blows
And sings of a song
Our love in a place
Where you're never gone

Where you're never gone
Is as it would seem
From dusk until dawn
Whenever I day dream

And whenever I day dream
And day dream I do
In my secret garden
I day dream of you, Megels

The painful memory of the day I left haunts me
I still haven't gotten over it
How you told me you came home from work
And realized I was really gone

I can't stop crying
Depression has held me tightly
I can't go on without you
I don't want to experience anymore days without you

Please, please hear my words darlin
If there is any love left in your heart
I want to be yours again
Be us like we were before

I miss you so much
So so much
I love you Megels
Please reconsider

I'm yours

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxxooxxooxoxxoxoxooxoxoxoxxoox

I Am Always Hoping It Is You xoxo

I was sort of hoping
That you would come along, Megels
Like the answer to a prayer
And the music to a song
Just the girl I would think of at night
Looking at the stars dreaming of you

Like the kind of thing that happens
At a special place and time
That will change our lives forever
Like a fantasy of mine
Holding your hand
Taking you out on dates
Bringing you flowers

The fantasy was there before
I ever knew your name, darlin
And then when I found you
We would never be the same
Two perfect hearts sharing all the same interests
Nowhere a more perfect couple

So pardon if I look at you, Megels
Forgive me if I stare
At the fantasy I knew before
I saw you standing there
Your crinkle nose smile that makes me weak
The way you call me darlin

For I was always hoping
That you would come along
Like the answer to a prayer
And the music to a song
Even when we were apart
We found our ways back

I miss you like crazy Megels
I continue to think about having our little place
Those nights on the couch snuggled
Day trips with you singing in the car
Picking out the ring knowing you were mine
What I would give to be yours again

My heart only beats for you, Megels

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxxooxoo

Missing Our Days and Nights

The sun rises above the hillcrest
As does the joy of my heart
Rays of warmth and love
From her I will never depart

Fresh dew upon the grass
Young birds chirp in their nests
I watch her gently sleep
My love to her I silently profess

I enjoy the stillness and calm
Watching as she smiles and dreams
She brings me to stillness and peace
Like that of a slow flowing stream

My heart and soul flow with love
And I smile as I quietly reflect
I've been handed a sweet princess
A sweet princess to love and to protect

A vow to myself I make
As she quietly sleeps away
To love and always cherish her
Until my last breath
Until my last day

Those words I profess to you, Megels
I broke again last night
Depression overtook me and continues to bite
I miss those nights when I could turn to hold you

I always felt everything was going to be okay with you
Depression was never a problem
It's been so long since I've felt true happiness
Since I've felt loved

I'm tired of crying
Missing a warm embrace
I can feel the constrictions in my chest
My heart pressured from all around

I miss you darlin
Miss our days and nights
I regret leaving every single day
Each day feels worse and worse since

I miss you so much Megels

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxxoxoxooxoxoxxooxoxxxoxoxoox

The Most Perfect Nights Included You, Darlin

How I miss you darlin, Megels
All the things we've missed to catch up on
All the adventures I cannot wait to share
The way your voice still gives me butterflies

Feelings that once were hidden
Were now expressed to you
Days that once were stormy
Were now the brightest blue

Times that once were lonely
Were filled with pleasure
All that once was mine alone
Were now things we both treasured

Nights that once were cold
Were now comforting and warm
Fears that once were very real
Were now gone with the storm

A heart that once was broken
Could now finally mend
A person once alone in life
Could now call you his love

Dreams that once were longed for
Were now all coming true
The love I once thought was gone
I had now and forever in you

How we cut Mario pumpkins in my room
You staying late and me asking when you had to leave
You'd always respond, when do you want me to
I would think, Never, every time

The most perfect nights I can think of
Are the ones we shared in our own place
You on the couch and me right next to you
Your head falling asleep in my lap

I miss waking up in the middle of the night
Looking over and seeing you there
How you would hold me through the night
I miss all of it so much darlin

I miss our adventures so much
I hope and pray for so many more

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxooxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxo

You Beside Me To The End of Our Days, Darlin

Megels darlin
I love the way you touched me
So soft and sensuously
It made me tingle all over
How soft your skin is

I love the way you kissed me
It started a fire deep down inside of me
And made me yearn for you even more
We locked together in the perfect shape

I love the way you looked at me
It made me feel beautiful and treasured
Most of all I love the way you loved me
Drunkenly punching a guy to prove that love too

When you walked in my whole day got better
And even when you weren't with me
You were in my thoughts always
You were the dream I wished for my entire life

It doesn't matter what we didn't have or what we did have
The most important thing was that we had each other
And no one could take that away
From traveling somewhere new to starting our life together

I was the luckiest man in the world
And I didn't need or want anything
But you beside me loving me to the end of our days
The same feeling I carry with me every single day

My head is filled with a running film of all our memories
Cooking you breakfast and dinner when you were short on time
The hotel mixup that ended up with us at a comic con
Holding your hand as we walked the lake at the end of our Universal day

You smiling driving with one hand singing in the car
Playing Portal and helping you out on the puzzles
You behind me watching me draw and taking photos
Laying with you at night snuggled up and warm

I am head over heels in love with you
My heart continues to point me to you
I  miss you like crazy Megels darlin
I am yours no matter what it takes
No matter how long it takes

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

You Are My Forever Love, Darlin

I'd give anything to see the sun set on the horizon
I'd do anything to gaze at a full moon in the night sky
Even a rainbow would make me smile
And I'd love to swim in crystal clear waters
Of an untouched sea
Sometimes I'll see a shooting star
And try to gaze from afar
All the diamonds in the night sky

The mist on the mountains is breathtaking
As is walking in rain forest
To see cascading waterfalls I'd do anything for
As to stand on the highest peak in the world
And look at the sights below
I'd love to soar on wings above the clouds
Across the bluest skies
I'd do anything to see
All the beautiful things in the world
Like a red rose blooming in the Sahara
Like a river twisting through a dusty land
All the beautiful things in the world

But I also know I am looking at
The world's most beautiful creation
Every time you smile, darlin
And every time I look into your eyes
Your love
And all the wonderful things
That they brought into my life
Are like nothing else
I have ever known

My heart is complete
With the love we share
And our love grew more
Beautiful each day
I love you, Megels
And as long as we were together
I had everything I needed
You are with me always
In a smile, a memory, a feeling
Or a moment we share
You will always be
My forever love, Megels

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxo

You're The Better Half of Me, Dew Drop

Megels
The girl sitting and looking beautiful
Your soft brown hair on your shoulders
The smile that makes my knees weak
If I could write a song just for you
I would write one everyday
It would say that I'm in love with you
And why I feel this way

It would have to say you're pretty
And as rare as a desert rose
It would say you're beautiful beyond time
From your head down to your toes
Brown eyes that I could stare at forever
A body my arms need to hold for hours
Your voice I want to hear all day

You are funny, nerdy, short, caring
And as loving as anyone could be
You're smart, charming, lovely
And everything to me
You can spot the name of a song instantly
Hold on to me in bed to help us both sleep better
Share in all of our interests with the same joy

You're my comfort when I'm lonely
You're my peace when I need rest
Of all the women I've known
I must rate you the best
Your kiss is my favorite thing in the world
I think about you all day every day
Spending my time with you is a gift from above

You're the orchard in the jungle
You're the better half of me
You're all of this and so much more
You mean the world to me
It pains me if you can't be your true self
Bored doing the same week over and over
The girl who wanted it to be me no matter what

Still, so much is left unsaid
If only I could write a song
I would sing it all to you every night
Serenade you with how my heart feels for you
I know how much I love you
How much I miss you so much
I would give anything to be yours again, Megels

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxooxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxxoxo

I Found My True Soul Mate In You, Darlin Dew

I miss you Megels
You probably aren't reading these
But a part of me sits up at night wondering
Are you truly happy
Could you write him the same letter you wrote me
Share all the same interests
Adventure in all sorts of ways
Instead of the same activity that he wants
Over and over and over
I know I made a lot of mistakes
Caused a lot of pain
But I want to be with you, always have
Believe me when I say, you won't be happy
There needs to be a true connection, like us
I know because that's where I became stuck
There's only one person I ever felt a true connection with
Don't you miss how you could be with us
Singing and slow head banging in the car to spice girls, lionel, journey
Playing lego, mortal kombat, mario, portal, ducktales
Making each other dinner
Creating art for you
Not being someone absorbed by work
You'll never catch me with a phone constantly in my ear
All my attention would always be on you
You walked lightly into my life
Captivating and lovely to my mind
At first, I would just tell you stories as a friend
Now I don't know who I am without you
You kissed me
I felt my world change
You held me
I heard my heart awaken
You loved me
And my soul was born anew
You walked lightly into my life
Now my heart knows who you are
And with every breath
And every step
I take down lonely roads
Your hand is my staff
Your voice is my guide
Your strength my shelter
Your passion my awakening
You walked lightly into my life
And all my pain
You took as your own
And all my fears
You cast into the sea
All my doubt
Lost in your eyes
You walked lightly into my life
And no matter where we are in the world
My life is forever changed
Just because you loved me
For a moment in time
And because I choose
To love you
For the rest of mine
I love you so much Megels
I will never ever stop waiting for you
I've felt true love and found my soul mate
And that is and always will be
You

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxooxoxoxoxoxxxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxo

Whatever It Takes To Be Yours Again

I miss following your heart, Megels
All I can think about is how he isn't for you
How many interests we shared
How alike we were and so perfectly matched
I have so much trouble climbing out of the depression
Feeling so badly for hurting you and not hearing your voice
I miss you so damn much every single day
I love you with a permanence
That endures the passing years
I love you with a joyfulness
That subdues all doubts and fears
I love you with an honesty
That was born within my heart
I love you with the calm belief
That we will never part
I love you with a confidence
No earthly force can sever
I love you with the certainty
That I'll cherish you forever
I love you with the humbleness
Of one who has been blessed
I love you with the reverence
Of all that word suggests
I love you with a fervor
That time cannot reverse
I love you with the truest love
That poets put to verse
There is only one person that is constantly on my mind
Who I would do anything for
I have forgotten to laugh like you got me to
The way I could smile just looking at you
Our little apartment life was beyond perfect
It kills me to know that you aren't able to be the real you
Constantly doing the same thing over and over and over again
He has you to show off, not sharing in all you like
Travel the world with me
Go to Star Wars land in Disney
Kiss under the Eiffel tower
Hold hands in every single state
Create a memory every day and a laugh every minute
I am your Edward
No matter what, no matter when
Whatever it takes to be yours again
That's where I'll be darlin

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxooxooxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxooxoxooxoxooxoxo

I Want To Be Your One, Darlin

Megels my true love
I love you like I love a day
When everything goes right
I love you like I love to lay
And watch the stars at night

I want to be the one laying on the beach with you
I want to be your travel companion
I want to be the one you check off all of your bucket list with
I want to be the one you hold at night

I love you like I love the rain
Its lustful calm embrace
I love you like I love to laugh
Until it hurts my face
I love you like I love to drive
With no real destination
I love you like I love the thrill
Of pure infatuation

I want to share all of our interests together
I want to hear you sing Spice Girls in the car
I want to play Mario Kart and more with you
I want to start a life with you
I want to be the family and future you deserve

But most of all I love you like
I love a cherished friend
Who holds me tight
Dries my tears
And loves me to the end
Your soul is like the vastest sea
And mind a darting fish
I lose myself within your love
I live within your heart
I breathe your love, it is my air
My element, my world

I want to read to you the greatest stories
I want to redecorate and paint every room with you
I want to cook you breakfast and dinner
I want to do what it takes to get that crinkly nose smile

I know no other ambiance
I have no other dream
I know there is outside your love
A world of rocks and sand
And I could live there too
How poor and thin each breath
How rich my world, how beautiful
Alive within your love
Each moment filled with dancing light
Refracted through your eyes

I miss you so very much Megels
Life always seems off or not quite right without you
Like a large piece of me is missing
That piece is you, darlin
The only person who hears turkey leg and immediately smiles
You are my other half

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxox

I Want To Wake Up Next To You, Darlin

Darlin dew drop

With brown hair of silk

The most beautiful crinkle nose smiles

I was once lost in darkness

A wandering nomadic fool

Teetering on the edge of reason

About to plunge into the abyss

Then a light shone down

Lifted me out of darkness

Touched my soul with grace

And beat love into my heart

That was when I met you, Megels

The girl of my dreams

For so long you

Continued to save me

Day after day

You gave me the reason to be

To live and to feel love

To go on and find my dreams

As long as you were there

I just wanted to let you know

That I could never fully express

How much I feel for you 

When I love you
Seems so simple

How can you put into words

The power of desire I have for you

Pray to God

Channel the muse

And let my fingers type the words

My heart beats because of you, Megels

My soul is bright and alive

Because of you darlin

And even when the trails of today

Seems to distract me

My love is always devoted to you

It is eternal within my heart

Like a constant thunder in my soul

I want to wake up next to you

Spend our days laughing together

Never feel sad or lonely again

A perfect match with you

Sharing all of our interests

I miss you so much darlin

You're all I think about day after day

Depression may be steering my days

But my dreams are full of holding you

Always

Love, Your Edward

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxx

You, Megels, Are The Beating Of My Heart

I love you
I miss you
Just three little words
Don't seem like enough, darlin
For someone whose smile
Still brightens my day
Whose touch can make me forget
The rest of the world

They don't seem like enough
For someone who's always been there
To celebrate with me
When everything goes my way
And to hold my hand
When my whole world
Seems to fall apart

But even though I love you
Can't express the depth
Of my feelings for you
I  hope you know what's in my heart
Because loving you
Means more to me
Than anything in the world
And it always will

If there's one face I want to see
So beautiful, so true
One smile that makes a difference
To everything I do

If there's one touch I long to feel
One voice I long to hear
Whenever I am happy
Or just needing someone near

If there's one joy, one love
From which I never want to part
It's you, Megels
My very special love
My world, my life
My heart

You,  Megels are the beating of my heart

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxxooxoxoxoxoxo

You Made My Heart No Longer Feel Lonely

Megels,
The day you came into my life will be cherished always
An angel sent from heaven above for my lonely heart to hold
My heart was no longer lonely, but instead
Filled with the wonder of a love like I'd never known

When I first held you, it was magical
A touch no other but my soulmate could provide
The way your body felt in my hands was beyond words
The softness of your hair through my fingers
Truly the passion needed no words

Your kiss on my lips is something I longed for
Every single day
With a single kiss
The intensity of your love was so incredibly clear
I will never forget that day after we played Mario
You leaned back and closed your eyes
My heart leapt out of my chest in that moment

Your eyes melted me with emotion
So intense it was beyond belief
A caring and unconditional love that shined from them
That made me shiver with excitement for our life to come

Each day your smile filled my heart with a joy like no other
My favorite was the way you crinkled your nose
Oh but to have you in my life was truly a blessing
On the day we were to wed
I will promise to you my unconditional love and devotion

For I will cherish each day that God would give me with you
Our own little piece of heaven on earth
I will love you always, Megels
Not a day goes by where I don't miss you like crazy
Wishing, hoping, praying for those times again

Life is lonely without you
Colorless and cold
Just being near you was so bright and warm
I will always hope for those days again
You are my turkey leg

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxooxoxoxxoxoxxooxoxoxoxooxoxoxox

How Strong My Love Is Burning For You

It began as all fires do
A spark soon ignited into a blaze of warmth
Of colorful delight
You held my hand, Megels
Became my friend
Earned my trust
My future once again looked bright

Loneliness turned to hope
Emptiness filled up with dreams
Hunger was satisfied
Darkness lit by love's moonbeams

Tears no longer hit the ground
They fell on your loving shoulder
I felt younger
As our love grew older

When sorrow leaves me wilted as a sun-parched rose
Your comfort is a river that flows
The sun's light, the morning dew
They are all the beauty that is you, darlin

Your strength is as the oak
It is my need you bend like the willow
My heart is filled
Like a lucky sail with wind to billow

Harsh cold winters
Wet springs, blissful summer heart, fall of time
They'll weather my spirit
With grace and peace, your hand in mine

Love's sweet reflection
Laughing, growing, thriving, learning
Words cannot express what my heart feels
How strong my love is burning for you Megels

The lines of age will etch their mark on us
And time will take the strength from our bodies
But love's brush will paint for us a picture of such beauty
That a hundred lifetimes could not remove their glory

Missing you so very much
Sending my love to all of your dreams
Hoping one night it hears them
And your dreams are full of our memories
What we could be

I will be here waiting for that dream
The one dream I never want to wake from
Miss you darlin

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoo

I Know You're Still In There Darlin

Megels, I walked for over two miles yesterday
Through all the streets and memories we did
Past my old house where you came over the first time
The street we decided to actually move to Florida

Our love was that of a red rose
Whose splendor rose as the sun shown its face
Whose petals expand further and richer
Whispering secrets of happiness and affection

I sat where you blew the dandelion creating a new inside joke
Behind your old home hoping to see your light on
Even though I knew you haven't been there for a while
Remembering how it felt to hold your hand in mine

And even though with the fall of dusk
All contentment is swept away
And the rose's petals unite as one
Reflecting any light that may endeavor to shine through
The sun will always rise
And the rose's petals will eternally broaden
Until they fully blossom into a stunning creation

Lightning lit up parts of the sky that night
Small raindrops began to fall, quieting the night
All I could think about was you and being with you
Listening to Glory of Love
If you ever thought of me and missed us

Our love was that of a red rose
Possessing a few imperfections
That may cause evanescent wounds
But the internal radiance
That will everlastingly bestow healing and comfort

I can't stop missing you every single day
It's difficult to contain the pain but it's always there
I would have kept walking for years if it meant I could see you
Feet worn away to nothing just to see your face

Those first two months after we moved
We bonded in new special ways with each other
You always told me how much you loved me
How much you wanted to marry me and be mine

I know that you is still in there Megels
The real you
I know that part still yearns and is settling for convenience
I am yours and will come to you
No matter what

The rest of my life will be waiting to be yours

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxo

With You I Knew I Was Home

Megels,
How simple my life was when you were there
How I cherished each breath
How I craved the light and laughter you brought me
I fell in love without taking a step
Fallen into the sweetest of dreams
How I hoped no one would wake me
The simplest gesture wrapped itself around my heart
Where I would hold it forever

Each time we said goodbye a part of me wept
Though I knew it was not forever
To my aching soul it was an eternity
I saw my happiness shine in your eyes, darlin
Every time you held my hand my heart skipped a beat
How sweet life was to be yours
How meaningless life is without you

They know nothing of the loneliness before you, Megels
Nothing of the empty tears I cried day after day
How did you do it, I asked myself
How did you banish the fear, the darkness
You made me see that nothing is bad
That I am strong and worthy of happiness
You had saved me from myself

Every day I woke up and smiled to myself
Knowing you were waiting for me
Knowing you can't wait to see me
How would I go on if you weren't there to hold me up
To bless me with your love and light
How I am glad you found me
My life was complete with you
I was home
What I would do to feel all of those with you again
To call you Megels into your ear
Smile to those beautiful eyes

I miss you and my heart only knows one love
You

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoox

I Miss Our Days So Much, Megels

To the Megels of my dreams
Sadness washes over me every morning
Just before I open my eyes I hope
I hope that when they are open I'm back there
In our little white apartment
The sound of the fountain in the pond splashing outside
I'm warm under our sheets and I can look over and see you
The love of my life
Every morning would start beautifully
With the sound of your sweet voice
It's second best to actually embracing you in my arms
Under the covers that protect us from the chill that lies outside
Your melodic wake up laughter is second best
To the overwhelming smile I see in the morning
When I hold you in my arms
After having spent another wonderful night with you
Your I Love Yous that you say to me
Always make me smile and hold you tighter
Second best to looking into your eyes with those words
And being able to deeply kiss you afterwards
Sending a chilling warmth throughout our bodies
But with you
You are my number one
The closest person in the world to me
With you, there is no second best
There is no one close to even being second or best
I hold you, alone, in the most intimate place in my heart
It's a place where I can feel you
Still close
When you're far away
Where I can close my eyes and hear your voice
Listen to your laugh
Feel your I Love Yous
I never want those mornings to have ever stopped
Because second to your kisses
There's no better alarm clock than your sweet voice
No better way to begin the day than with you
I miss you and those mornings so much
I took such a huge leap and step moving away with you
All those unknowing and scary days and nights
It was just us alone with each other to lean on
I would do it all again in a heartbeat
There's nothing I want more than to do it all again
With you, Megels
You are the dew drop to my heart

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxooxoxo

I'm So Depressed Without You, Dew Drop

I'm so depressed without you Megels
I try and handle it but I just can't
Your face is always on my mind
Hanging out with you and being near you
Always what I miss most every day

The world seems so scary anymore
The only person I felt right wanting a future with
Was you
It's a dangerous world to start a new family in
But you were the one I wanted to start with
Still are

I tear up thinking how he won't share all your interests
Over time making you more bored and less like yourself
Reminders of people from your past
How you said with me you could be your real self
How we shared all of our interests
I was the one you always hoped it would be

I made a lot of mistakes and am paying for them
But I sit here alone without you and it's hell
I want it to be you I spend my life with
Our life down there in our apartment I miss so much
So much that I break down almost every other day

I miss you so much and how we were
I always stuck by you and would do anything for you
Is he the lightning in a bottle like we were
How we always stuck together, came together
Our hearts don't lie

To lay a kiss on your lips
So gentle and delicate
Is like picking the drops of dew
Off the petals of a rose

I hold you close and feel safe
Sheltered in from the rain
From the storms that grow and surround me
I take your hand and look into your eyes
And see a heart made of gold and soul so pure

You see you are an angel
An angel to me
I could not help but fall madly in love
Madly in love with you, Megels
The one who stole my heart

I'm glad you did
Because I could never find one such as you
Some one who makes each day the best
Each laugh the longest
Each tear the saddest
And a life, my life
Worthwhile

I want to be yours again, Megels
Laying on the beach
Coming home to our apartment singing
Playing Harry Potter trivia at home snuggled
Please please think
I'll be here waiting for you
All my life

Always

Love, Your Edward
xxoxoxooxoxoxoxxooxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxxo

Heaven Is Missing An Angel

My sweet and beautiful Megels
Who was sent to me from above
I was so grateful to have found you
So lucky to have had our paths cross
And I always gave you all my love

You must have come from heaven
Because you have pretty little angel eyes
When you would gaze at me with them
My heart would begin to fly
You knew exactly how to melt my heart
With that nose crinkle smile you would do

Your sweet angelic voice
Continuously ringing in my ears
With you by my side
There was nothing I would fear
The way we shared all of our interests
We could have fun no matter where or what we did

Whenever we were together
You shined with a heavenly glow
Your beautiful angel face
Raised me up from feeling low
Just looking at you I fell in love over again
Feeling you against me was heaven on earth

Heaven is missing an angel
Because you were here with me
You're my sweet, beautiful angel, Megels
And I'll love you for eternity
Hoping and wishing that one special day
I can be lucky enough to be yours again

I miss you darlin

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxox

I Give Myself With All My Heart

Where are you tonight my love
What is it that you do
It's true my heart is torn apart
When I'm not with you
What enchanted thoughts swim through your head
Are any of them of me
When, Megels, you go to bed
Is it my face you see

Who is honored with your presence now
And do they even care
The thought of you not being admired
Fills me with despair
Do they appreciate your loveliness
Do they marvel at your splendor
Do they love to hear your velvet voice
Do they adore your smile so tender
Do they share in all of your interests the same
Let you be the inner kid nerd that you are

If they do not
Then they are all fools
And had you been with me
Every day, my love, you'd be a queen
Because that's what you are to me

I'm at your feet, darlin
And I come with gifts
My body, heart, and soul
They're yours to do with as you please
To command and to control

I give myself with all my heart
I'm yours for all time
Your slave, your king, your anything
I wish one day to be yours again
For no matter how long or where you are
My heart is yours
I will always hope it's us in the end, Megels

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxooxox

Always Missing You So Much, Dew Drop

Beautiful Megels, darlin dew drop
You came into my life unexpectedly
Stemming from the days I would tell you stories
Until that day our paths crossed again
The lining up of events to have our eyes meet
That wonderful day at the store
Everything took a turn for the better
Your warm brown eyes
Your crinkly nose laugh
The sincere way you speak
The kindness you showed me
All became a part of my life

As you unfolded yourself to me
I discovered more and more beauty
I have never seen so much
Gentleness in one person
Without even knowing it
You were slowly making a place
For yourself in my heart
The amount of interests we share
The ways we could make each other laugh
I wanted to be a better person being with you
A day without you was a nightmare
I felt complete when you were by my side

It used to seem so hard at times
To feel so close in a relationship
But it's so easy to feel close to you
I can't tell you how nice that felt
I realize now that I had never known
What it meant to be loved
Until I was loved by you
Nothing in this world means more to me
Love at its purest is looking at you
I would give anything to be yours again
I will write you daily for the rest of my life
One more moment with you
Will always be worth anything and everything
No matter what

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxooxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxo

I Miss Being Yours, Darlin

I never felt a love
Like this before
It's a love like no other
Something I have always hoped for

I miss our place with the balcony we sat on
I miss making you breakfast before work
I miss visiting you at work with lunch
I miss having my player two in every game

A love with friendship
Humor and heart
A bond so strong
It would never part

I miss the faces you'd make on facetime
I miss how you'd call me every day no matter what
I miss the way our hands would hold
I miss your voice as you'd sing in the car

A love that makes you smile
From ear to ear
A love that is joyful
Without any fear

I miss our dancing cleaning days
I miss watching movies cuddled up together
I miss going to comic cons with you
I miss the way I could make you laugh

A love that is beautiful
From the inside out
A love with no tears
Pain or doubt

I miss how you could watch me draw
I miss our jokes in every line at Universal
I miss the feel of your body on mine
I miss how you would flirt with me

A love with soul
So tender and true
A love that I have found
Only in you

I miss you more than anything in the world
I miss calling you Megels and darlin and sweetheart
I miss seeing your face every day I'm awake
I miss being yours so very much

I miss loving you Megels dew drop
I miss every day with you
That feeling is eternal and stronger than life
My heart is yours
And I wish to be yours again

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxooxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxxxooxox