Be Safe My Beautiful Soul Mate xoxox

I don't think you will
Ever fully understand
How you've touched my life, Megels
And made me who I am

I don't think you could ever know
Just how truly special you are
That even on the darkest nights
You are my brightest star

I don't think you will ever fully comprehend
How you've made my dreams come true
Or how you've opened my heart
To love and the wonders it can do

You've allowed me to experience
Something very hard to find
Unconditional love that exists
In my body, soul, and mind

I don't think you could ever feel
All the love I have to give
And I'm sure you'll never realize
You've been my will to live

You are an amazing person, Megels
And without you I don't know where I would've been
Having you in my live
Completed and fulfilled every part of me

All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart
And for us to be together, never to be apart
No one else in the world can even compare
You're perfect and so is this love that we shared

We had so much more than I ever thought we would
I love you more than I ever thought I could
I promise to give you all I have to give
I'll do anything for you as long as I live

In your eyes I see our present, our future and past
By the way you look at me I know we will last
I hope that one day you'll come to realize
How perfect you are when seen through my eyes

Be very safe darlin dew
This is a scary time with the end in mystery
I wish I was stuck in with you
Just being near you is the best adventure

Missing you so very much
Loving you every single day more
Be safe while the world around us becomes poisoned
Know that you are on my mind
Every second that I am awake

Always

Love, Your Edward
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In That One Special Place

These are such crazy and unknown times
I'm scared and don't know what to expect
The one constant I have is writing to you, Megels
I know you probably haven't read these in months
Months and months
But I can't stop
Something in my heart keeps pushing me
Even if the hope of one day  with you
Is just a flicker in the dark

I lie on the ground
And stare into space
The stars start to move
Into the shape of your face

I see you there now
Looking down at me
With that cute little smile
That I like to see

You say close your eyes
Tell me what you see
I see only two people
Just you and me

We're walking the shoreline
With our feet getting wet
The horizon turns pink
As the sun starts to set

We make love through the night
On that white sandy shore
Then I hold you while thinking
I could want nothing more

Oh I wish I could be
In that one special place
As I lie on the ground
And I stare into space

I pray you are safe and not affected by the virus
You never deserve to feel sickness
Only love and sweetness
I miss you darlin dew
Every day I replay our days together in my head
No matter how depressed I get over them
I hope one day we can make more

Always

Love, Your Edward
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You Are The Most Important Part

Sometimes at night
When I look to the sky
I start thinking of you, Megels
And then I ask myself, why?

Why do I love you
I think and smile
Because I know the list could run on
On and on for miles

The whisper of your voice
The warmth of your touch
So many little things
That make me love you so much

The way you supported me
Helped with my emotions
The way that you cared
And showed such devotion

The way that you kissed
It filled me with desire
How you held me with warmth
Like that of a blazing fire

The way your eyes shined
When you looked at me
Lost with you forever
Is where I want to be

The way that I feel
When you're by my side
A sense of completion
And overflowing pride

The dreams that I dream
That all involve you
The possibilities I see
And the things we can do

How you finish the puzzle
That lies inside my heart
How that deep in my soul
You are the most important part darlin

I could go on for days
Telling of what I feel
But all you really must know
Is my love for you is real, Megels

Always

Love, Your Edward
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In Your Soul I Found My Home

The sparkle in your eye
The warmth of your skin
Your breath on my neck
That quivers within

The touch of your hand
The smell of your hair
The kindness in your smile
That strength in your stare

Your kiss on my lips
Your body near mine
The stroke of your touch
That feeling inside

The sound of your voice
Compassion in your embrace
The serenity in your stride
The power in your face

The calming of your presence
The beating of your heart
The promise of tomorrow
That we may never part

The beauty of your kiss
And that magic in your touch
It is for all these reasons and more
Why I love you so much, Megels

So as the candles flicker softly
On the table set for two
There's no one on the Earth tonight
Except for me and you

A nice romantic dinner
A bottle of chilled wine
We would be there together
In a moment stopped in time

A love so few have ever known
This is its birth night
Alone within our little world
You and I and candle light

So soon we will set free the feelings
That we want to share
And I am held here spellbound
By your laughter in the air

Thoughts of love like falling leaves
Swirling in the autumn breeze
Flow in our minds and in our eyes
A tender look and longing sighs

We touch and as the fire starts
That we have kindled in our hearts
We kiss and hear the angels sing
As heavens gift to me you bring

No more to live my life alone
And in your soul I found my home
At peace within your loving arms
Captivated by your charms

And happily I'd die for you
Here at this table set for two

Always

Love, Your Edward
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Forever Is What I Want With You

When you are not here to share my days and nights
My life is so incomplete
For you, Megels, are my heart and soul
The oneness I had known to seek

Without you I merely exist from day to day
With you I know that I will find
All that I have been searching for
My completeness, my eternal peace of mind

You are the keeper of my dreams
The woman who holds my heart in her hands
The one I want to spend my life with
The one with whom I will always stand

Stand beside through thick and thin
Through all that life will throw our way
Knowing that this special love we share
Will guide us, each and every day

This journey was started long ago
Before this time and place
The journey of completeness
As two hearts and souls embrace

Forever is what I want with you
For the search is at an end
Our hearts have found each other
As lovers, as soul mates

Remember those mornings we would eat breakfast
After spending the night under your sheets
Your laptop under your bed
We made a bed fort to play luigi's mansion

I miss you so much
All the fun and adventures we had
You never judged me
You were just like me

There's nobody I'd rather spend every day with
Whether it was phone or video or in person
I felt alive with you
A feeling my heart can never recreate

You are the best thing to ever happen
The best all of it
My constant memory running through my head
The letter you wrote always by my eyes

Always

Love, Your Edward
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When You First Held My Hand

If time could stand still
I'd freeze it here
So you'd always hold me, close and near
In your arms, where I'm meant to be

Filled with the perfect love you gave me, Megels

A bond so strong
A hold so tight
To know you're the one, my darlin dew
A blessing sent from up above

In you I had found my one true love

Our lives entwined to be as one
Upon this journey we just began
Where you and I will find no less
Than eternal love and happiness

The first time we met, I could see
That you and I, were meant to be
Your eyes were so gently
Your smile so true

When you first held my hand, I just knew

With time going by, through laughter and tears
Those days I shall cherish for years upon years
Those memories we have, shall never fade
For those are the steps, that we have made

That was the past, the future is near
I anxiously wait, for what will appear
New homes, more laughter, more memories
Everything could be wonderful

If only you were near, Megels

If only I could be yours once more
Missing you so much darlin

Always

Love, Your Edward
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You Are Proof There Are Angels

It is said there are angels

In heaven above

And they shine with the light

Of an inner love

Of these things

I had not a clue

But that was

Before I found you, Megels

For in you I found

A love that is so right

It shines all around

With the brightest of light

It comes from somewhere

So deep within

That it has no beginning

And knows no end

Your love is a light

That brightens each day

Of all of the people

You see on your way

Where ever you go

Or whatever you do

All see the love

That you have inside you

That God sent you here

To a place where you'd be

Sharing such love

With someone like me

Is proof for me

That angels exist

And are filled with a love

That no man could resist

I thank God each day

For finding the time

For looking down on me

And making you mine

So yes there are angels

In heaven above

I know because God

Sent me one to love

That one was you darlin

Not a second goes by

Where I don't think of your face

The sound of your voice

My arms miss you body

Lips miss your touch

Every single memory of us

Running through my head ever so much

Always

Love, Your Edward

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I Day Dream of You

I was sort of hoping
That you would come along darlin
Like the answer to a prayer
And the music to a song

Like the kind of thing that happens
At a special place and time
That will change our lives forever
Like a fantasy of mine

The fantasy was there before
I ever knew your name
And now that I have found you
We will never be the same

So pardon, if I look at you
Forgive me if I stare
At the fantasy I knew before
I saw you standing there

For I was always hoping
That you would come along, Megels
Like the answer to a prayer
And the music to a song

Whenever I day dream
And day dream I do
In my secret garden
I day dream of you darlin

I day dream of you
In a faraway land
Embracing me tight
And holding my hand

Holding my hand
Touching my face
Just you and me
In this peaceful place

In this peaceful place
A pristine river flows
Where the unicorns run
A breeze always blows

A breeze always blows
And sings of a song
Our love in a place
Where you've never gone

Where you've never gone
Is as it would seem
From dusk until dawn
Whenever I day dream

And whenever I day dream
And day dream I do
In my secret garden
I day dream of you, Megels

Always

Love, Your Edward
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Love That Awaits

I'd give anything to see the sun set on the horizon
I'd do anything to gaze at a full moon in the night sky
Even a rainbow would make me smile
And I'd love to swim in crystal clear waters
Of an untouched sea

Sometimes I'll see a shooting star
And try to gaze from afar
All the diamonds in the night sky
The mist on the mountains is breathtaking
As is walking in the rainforest
To see cascading waterfalls I'd do anything for

As to stand on the highest peak in the world
And look at the sights below
I'd love to soar on wings above the clouds
Across the bluest skies
I'd do anything to see
All the beautiful things in the world

Like a red rose blooming in the Sahara
Like a river twisting through a dusty land
All the beautiful things in the world
But I also know I am looking at
The world's most beautiful creation
Every time you smile, Megels
And every time I look into your eyes

A thousand fair suitors all stab at your heart
Those poets of movement and jockeys of art
The high volume vendors who hustle romance
Splashing their canvas with color and dance
The blasters of trumpets, gold banners unfurled
They offer lush gardens in glistening worlds
Bearers of torches and carvers of stone

Who whisper their sonnets and surrender their thrones
And there in your doorway, no shadow is cast
No lingering voices, no ghosts from the past
Just a cluster of walls, and a window of pain
Collecting the heartache like droplets of rain
Still I stand before you, with palms to the sky
No gold in my pocket, no thorn in my side

And all I can offer, where words have no place
Is a body that trembles, and this love that awaits

Always

Love, Your Edward
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Until My Last Breath

Feelings that were once hidden
Are now expressed to you
Days that once were stormy
Are now the brightest blue

Times that once were lonely
Are now filled with pleasure
All that once was mine alone
Are now things we both treasure

Nights that once were cold
Are now comforting and warm
Fears that once were very real
Are now gone with the storm

A heart that once was broken
Can now finally mend
A person once alone in life
Can now call you a friend

Dreams that once were longed for
Are now all coming true
The love I once thought was gone
I had then and forever in you, Megels

The sun rises above the hillcrest
As does the joy of my heart
Rays of warmth and love
From her I will never depart

Fresh dew upon the grass
Young birds chirp in their nests
I watch her gently sleep
My love to her I silently profess

I enjoy the stillness and calm
Watching as she smiles and dreams
She brings me to stillness and peace
Like that of a slow flowing stream

My heart and soul flow with love
And I smile as I quietly reflect
I've been handed a sweet princess
A sweet princess to love and to protect

A vow to myself I make
As she quietly sleeps away
To love and always cherish her
Until my last breath
Until my last day
To you darlin dew

Always

Love, Your Edward
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You Walked Into My Life Darlin

You walked lightly into my life, Megels

Captivating and lovely to my mind

At first, I only told you stories every day

Now I don't know who I am without you

You kissed me

I felt my world change

You held me

I heard my heart awaken

You loved me

And my soul was born anew

You walked lightly into my life

Now my heart knows who you are

And with every breath

And every step

I take down lonely roads

Your hand is my staff

Your voice is my guide

Your strength is my shelter

Your passion my awakening

You walked lightly into my life

And all my pain

You took as your own

And all my fears

You cast into the sea

All my doubt

Lost in your eyes

You walked lightly into my life

And no matter how long I must wait

My life is forever changed

Just because you loved me

For a moment in time

And because I choose

To love you, Megels

For the rest of mine

If I knew how to write a song

I'd write one everyday

It would say that I'm in love with you

And why I feel this way

It would have to say you're pretty

And as rare as a desert rose

It would say you're a looker

From your head down to your toes

You are funny, dainty, fragile

And as feminine as can be

You're smart, charming, lovely

And everything to me

You're my comfort when I'm lonely

You're my peace when I need rest

Of all the women I've known

I must rate you the best

You're the orchard in the jungle

You're the better half of me

You're all of this and so much more

You mean the world to me

Still so much is left unsaid

It would take me far too long

I know how much I love you

If only I could write a song

I would tell you every single day

How much I miss you

Always

Love, Your Edward

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My Heart Beats Because of You

I was once lost in darkness
A wandering nomadic fool
Teetering on the edge of reason
About to plunge into the abyss
Then a light shone down
Lifted me out of darkness
Touched my soul with grace
And beat love into my heart
That was when I met you, Megels
My darlin dew

For so long
You had continued to save me
Day after day
You gave me the reason to be
To live and to feel love
To go on and find my dreams
As long as you were there
I just wanted to let you know
That I could never fully express
How much I feel for you
When I love you
Seems so simple
How can you put into words
The power of desire I have for you
Pray to God
Channel the muse
And let my fingers type the words

My heart beats because of you
My soul is bright and alive
Because of you
And even when the trails of today
Seem to distract me
My love is always devoted to you darlin
It is eternal within my heart
Like a constant thunder in my soul
Your soul is like the vastest sea
And mine a darting fish
I lose myself within your love
I live within your heart
I breathe your love, it is my air
My element, my world

I know no other ambiance
I have no other dream
I know there is outside your love
A world of rocks and sand
And I could live there, too
How poor and thin each breath
How rich my world, how beautiful
Alive within your love, Megels
Each moment filled with dancing light
Refracted through your eyes

Always

Love, Your Edward
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My World, My Heart, You Darlin

Just three little words
Don't seem like enough
For someone whose smile
Still brightens my day

Whose touch could make me forget
The rest of the world

They don't seem like enough
For someone who's always been there
To celebrate with me
When everything would go my way

To hold my hand
When my whole world
Seemed to fall apart

But even though I love you
Can't express the depth
Of my feelings for you, Megels
I know you know what's in my heart

Because loving you
Means more to me
Than anything in the world
And it always will

If there is one face I want to see
So beautiful, so true
One  smile that makes a difference
To everything I do

If there's one touch I long to feel
One voice I long to hear
Whenever I am happy
Or just needing someone near

If there's one joy, one love
From which I never want to part
It is you, Megels, my special love
My world
My life
My heart

I miss you so much Megels
I wish so badly to be near you again
Hear you
Feel you
Make you laugh

Always

Love, Your Edward
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Gaze Upon With An Open Heart

Regret flows from the depths of my soul
With the strength of a flood
I have held these gates shut for too long
And though tormenting, they should not be stopped

The thought of you far away, Megels
Even as I write to you now
Stops my heart cold
As well it should

What I see in front of me
Is a painting of our love
Its most thoughtful brushstrokes
Mottled by hurried abstraction and inattention

A person who had not seen this masterpiece created
Might think it to be refuse and pass it by unknowingly
Letting be obscured the deep beauty of its many scenes
By layers of the tarnish of mistreatment

But as the painter
I see beyond the dark smears
To recall the hours that I attended to the details
And wonder how I could let it become so discolored

The painting that took me my life to create
Has lost its divinity in my careless treatment
And even if I were to refine it
I fear you would always see it as it is today

So today I paint a new masterpiece
One inspired by the muse of respect
A work that you can love through our old age
One that you will look to each day for inspiration

This one will take some time
As I want my brushstrokes to be carefully placed
I need to move steadily to ensure that this time
My art represents my dream

This is my opus
Don't judge me on my past works
As I have never before had so much skill and inspiration
And never before have I wanted to please you as I do today

With you and my children as my muse
I will paint for you a lifetime, Megels
A portrait of devotion and friendship
A panorama of passion and admiration

All I ask is that you gaze upon it with an open heart
And you shall unquestionably love me again darlin

Always

Love, Your Edward
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