At My Side Was The Sight of An Angel

Megels, when I would wake by your side
My feelings for you I could not hide
I touched your face in the morning light
Being with you just felt so right

You made me feel like I was a king
Like being inside of an awesome dream
Although it was real, that I knew
As the love that surrounded us continued to grow

I thought of what the future held
Marriage, children, us growing old
And as I laid there with you darlin
I was so glad you were mine, that you were there

Laying on the beach with you I would day dream
Pretend that I was on the sea
Sailing my boat over the waters
Praying that it would stay afloat

From dawn until dusk
And from dusk until dawn
I would search for you
As I drifted on

I would remember how I felt being lost at sea
Without you and traversing such rough waters
What happened after the biggest wave I couldn't recall
All I knew was that I had to find you

When I awoke I thought I had died
Because next to me at my side
Was the sight of an angel
The most beautiful woman I had ever seen

But lucky for me
I wasn't dead, not even close
For I had found love
And that love was you, darlin

Missing you and how life was
If I am being punished, I have learned my lessons
Pain and sadness should never carry this long
Your smile in the darkness
That is the beat of my heart

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxooxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I Never Want To Stop Waiting For You

Megels, anytime I am down
I think of your face
The one sight that reminds me of Heaven
You could calm my heart no matter what

Your lips, your eyes
Your soul
Are like a work of art
The most creative thing of all
Is your beautiful heart

If you were a painting
No colors could express
The beauty deep inside you
A rainbow, nothing less

If you were a sculpture
The clay could hardly make
Your figure of an angel
Without one mistake

If you were a eupony
No choir could really sing
All the beautiful music
Your eyes could possibly bring

So here I am, an artist
With inspiration beyond belief
But to capture such rare beauty
I'd have to be a thief

I want to create for you while you watch
Kiss you to taste what perfection tastes like
Hold you while we see the world's beauty
Get down on a knee to cement our adventure

I miss you so crazy much
I talk about you more than anything
I feel like my world is on hold
Until we pick ours back up

I'm not functioning well without you
I want to go to Universal with you again
Hold your hand at the end as we walk around the lake
Making fun of those coming in as we walk out

I put videos on that sound like the fountain outside our window
Open my ears and hope one day
I can hear you getting ready in the bathroom
Or playing Lego Potter in the next room

Fantasize about getting up to join you in the shower
Both of us in our purest most vulnerable states
The water running down our bodies as we kiss
Knowing I could see you the whole rest of the day

I don't have any other dreams without you
I bet he doesn't call you Megels, darlin, dew drop
Not the perfect complimentary match that we were
I never want to stop waiting for you
Because I have never believed in something this much
You are the burning in my heart
The love of my entire being

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxooxxooxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

As Long As My Heart Keeps Beating

Megels darlin
The most beautiful princess in the night
I searched the book of the cosmos for you
And there you were
My brightest star
A detailed flame of purest joy
That coalesced the heavens in extreme awe
The world is at your fingertips
And all the worlds and stars beyond
Tell me what you know of them
Do they shine from your essence
Or glow from the sight of your dramatic beauty
Do they travel the universe to be in unity with you
Do they wait for their cataclysmic fateful end
So that the shattering pieces that remain of them
May somehow find their way to the cradle of you
I wonder what miraculous wonders you hold inside
How you make me weak in the knees to gaze at you
Hanging high up there in the blissful night sky
How do you think the stars befell enviously
They all want to radiate the systems of galaxies
But you will be the one to teach them the way
As they will follow in your lead to perfection
It's when I come out late at night
When I feel all alone
I know you are there, Megels
Weightless over me
I know because my shortness of breath tells me
As my heart pounds rapid in my chest
And once again, you seduce me into a supernova
Stellar blaze of glory, luminescent sphere of light
From there to here is where you take me
As you have brightened all my ways of life
When the night arrives and brings with it all the stars
All I can think of is you
I miss you daily in ways that grip my heart
Your face, your smile, your voice
It's so painful to try and move through each day
Not without you
I can't bear to think you may never think of me at all
How happy and perfect we fit together
Two people who shared every interest and hobby
There's nobody I will ever want but you
As long as my heart keeps beating
I will always want you

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxooxxoxooxoxoxxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

You Have My Heart Until Forever Dew Drop

Megels, the girl who I would tell stories to
The girl whose eyes I met at work
The eyes I saw before you turned the corner
I miss hearing your voice so much

I've never known a love like yours
Nor thought it could be true
But every time I kissed your lips
I felt what love could do

With hair like silk
And lips so tender
Each moment with you
Made my heart surrender

I couldn't live
I couldn't breathe
Without you by my side
Never will I let you go
My love will never hide

And in my heart you'll always be
From now until forever
No matter what
No matter where
I'll always hope we'll be together

I continue to feel like I cannot live
Every day it's getting harder to breathe
I want to spend our days together
Sharing in all the laughs we give one another

It won't be like how it would with us
With no shared interests it becomes a lonely place
He won't share in them with you but only for you
Don't repeat what happened in the past

Take my hand as we fly on our potter brooms
Fight with lightsabers and drive the Winchester car
Sing in the car at the top of our lungs
Please be my Ramona again

This scott will remain yours
No matter how long I have to wait
I want no other love than yours
You have my heart until the end of time

Always

Love, Your Edward
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You're The Happiness Of My Life, Darlin

I would wake you up this day, Megels
By making you eggs and toast like I used to
Sharing a shower with you
Our naked wet bodies pressed together
Watch you sing to music as you got dressed
Kiss you goodbye as you left for work

Plan out a time to visit you for lunch
Bring you flowers and food
All excuses to kiss you again
Then vacuum the apartment and do the laundry
So when you got home it was just me and you
Food, movies, games, balcony smokes

You're the though that starts each of my mornings
The conclusion to all of my days
You are in all that I do, darlin
And everything i say

You're the smile on my face
The twinkle in my eye
The warmth inside of my heart
The fullness in my life

You're the hand that's entwined around mine
The coat upon my back
My friend and my love
My shoulder to lean on

You're my silly, mature, caring dew drop
Thoughtful, bright, and honest
I love to hold you tightly
Whether for smiles or a good cry

You're the twinkle in my eyes
The ever constant tingle in my soul
The voice that makes me weak
The happiness of my life

You are all I've ever wanted
You are all I will ever need
You are all I ever dream of
You are all to me

Just name what I have to do to be yours again
To wake up to your beautiful brown eyes
Spend the day holding your hand
Sharing in everything we enjoy
I want it all
Our adventure is all that's ever on my mind
All I will forever wait for
I miss you Megels

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxooxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxxo

I Can't Do This Without You, Turkey Leg

You and I are connected, Megels
In a way that goes beyond romance
Beyond friendship
Beyond what we've ever had before
It defied time and distance
And every change in our lives
It defied every explanation except one
Pure and simply
We are soul mates, darlin

I can't explain it or put it into words
I just feel it
It's there in the way my spirits lift
Whenever we talked
The sound of your voice just brings me home
In ways I can't explain
It's the delight I feel when we laugh
At exactly the same things
When I'm with you, Megels
It's like a tiny piece of the universe
Shifts into place
A place it's supposed to be
And all is right in the world

These things and so many more have made me understand
That this once in a lifetime forever connection
A connection that could only exist
Between you and me
And deep in my soul I know
I know that our relationship is a rare gift
One that brings us extraordinary happiness
All through our lives
There's nobody else I can truly call a soul mate

I miss that day you reached out
Wanted to hang out after Ellen had left
To see you again
I had just moved to a new home
You came in and we watched Lego Movie
It wasn't long before we were kissing
Making love
Going back to the zoo

I still remember what you wore that day
That black tube top accentuating your chest
You turned me on so much
That's when you asked me about moving with you
There's no way I could say no
Everything in me wants you to ask me again
So we can have our own place again
Two people who share all the same interests

Do you still look at our pictures
Think about what our life would be like
What we would be doing
How much more of a connection we would have
Our true selves
I would appreciate all of your gifts
Never take you fishing every single week
Do things with you and not for you

I miss you so much darlin
I can't do this without you
Wherever you are, I'll run to you
No matter what
My love is yours

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxxxxoxxoxoxxoxooxoxxoxooxoxoxoxoxo

I Don't Want Anyone Else Darlin

Megels, the beautiful nerdy girl
The girl who I cannot stop thinking about
Who makes my world turn
No matter how far away you are

You make me feel special
You make me feel brand new
You make me feel loved
With everything you do

You held me close when I was sad
I would wipe away the tears from your face
Every time we were together
It seemed like the most perfect of places

My eyes light up when you enter a room
I smile when we are together
No matter how bad things were
You always made them better

I love the ways you'd kiss me
The way you'd hold me tight
I love the way you would touch me
I loved being with you all night

I love the way you can always make me laugh
For absolutely no reason at all
I love how no matter what we would do
We would be there to catch each other when we fell

I want you to know, every single day
That even if we disagreed
I always loved you, darlin
And I continue to do so to this day
No matter what, day or night

I don't want anyone else
My mind and heart are constantly on you
Depression may have me in its grip
My future lonely with thoughts without you
But I will always sit waiting for you
A future without you is no future at all
I miss you Megels
You're worth any wait or struggle

Always

Love, Your Edward
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