The way you make me feel

I made a video for you too dew drop.  When I heard you had made one before, it germinated the idea in my head too.  I've made awful mistakes and wish there was some way to erase them from time.  The one thing that always has been constant in my head is you.  I miss you and I miss us.  I hope you like what I made, I'm sure I missed a thing or two but there is just so so much we have together.  Life isn't life without you in it.

sweet dreams dew drop

xoxoxoxox

Love, your Edward

Have I Tooooold You Lately....

Good evening!   The unthinkable happened with Half Price and I got a text this morning saying that they are delaying opening and to come in at noon!  whaaaaa??!
The snow outside doesn't seem that that bad and the roads seem fine from the all night salting but whatevs.  Reminds me of watching the news in the morning and looking at all the school closings/delays and hoping to see Northgate lol.
So I signed up for this service on playstation called PS NOW and it's basically like a netflix but with games and you can just stream any of the games to play right off of there.  There's over 600 of them and my mind has barely been able to choose which ones I want to try. It's pretty neat.
I hope you don't have a busy or bad day of mail girl duty today.  I want to hear more of those stories of people you've encountered, I can't believe the balls on some of them.  Did I mention that I like your interior decorating skills?  You are good at making a room and place look good and set up in a way that works well.  I still think about you lookin around here and taking mental notes on what you would do and that I should move the couch to the other side.
I want to do some more research on this Bob Ross museum that you said is down there.
I want to start to make our little movie list that I want to watch with you.  Also a list of movies that I own so I have a handy dandy list.
A little story for you Megels darlin, when there would be snow days in high school I would always be told the night before by Bonnie to my mom so I would stay up late.  I remember waking up and playing a game and I was on the third floor of my parents and it was all white and I could see up on the avenue.  I had my desk by the window so I would watch outside and write things or draw.  The one night around Christmas I had gotten the one batman game, Arkham Asylum and I was so into it that I started hearing birds at night and looked outside and realized it was 5 am lol.
Speaking of games, there is a game out now called Yooka-Laylee and it was made by the team that did Banjo-Kazooie and it is just like it.  I wanted to get it for you to play at some point.
I miss sitting with you at night and just being all warm and snuggly and watching the night go on while we watched TV or gamed and you showed me stuff on the ol' Pinterest.  It really means a lot to me to see that you still hang up my art in your room.  You really are the best dew drop.
Movie list and more talking to your beautiful face super duper soon.   <3 p="">
You
are my
shining star

Frank Wizowski here reporting with a turkey leg!

Wheels are moving along and going better than expected here and it was the highlight of my day to have the little middle of nap chat today  :D
It is currently raining and my little bloggy wanted to leave you a little message.
Was very humbled and excited to see that you still hang up my art in your room, I really like those ones and seeing them again makes me want to do more.  You sounded so comfortable and adorably half asleep today but remembered some great memories.  But yes we did go see Avengers 2.  Iron Man accidentally created Ultron who became self aware and wanted to take over the world to promote piece and was making a new body that ended up being Vision.  It's a bit of a mess of a movie I thought.  I remember coming back from seeing it and I just kept saying that it didn't seem good and didn't feel right and you saying that you thought it was good and liked it.  I've been trying to get all my Etsy orders done quicker because I'd like to use that end of day time instead to stream games again because I always knew you would watch and I knew I had the best audience of one, even if I wasn't in the chat.  I got Back to the Future on PS4 today so I'd like to stream that and a few choice others.
I love laying here and listening to the rain.  It always relaxes me and reminds me of you.  The calmness and those once a day rains in Florida.  Running through the rain at Universal to stop at that one gift shop where the guy kept talking to us about the comic con.  Also of that painting I painted you of the couple walking down the path with the lights and leaves all around.  I really loved your little day of buying packs of pog-like things and opening them up and putting them in order.  It made me smile and feel so good, I used to do that with trading card packs and there was just something fun about wondering what you'd get and trying to get the set.
But yeah things are moving along quite nicely which I"m happy about.  I really hope you had a very good little nap on your day off and that your upcoming days of work aren't too bad for you.  It always makes me think back to when you were working your ass off going from Loves to Arcadia and trying to handle all the calls and on calls and getting people to cover other people.  It really frustrated you and wore you out so I'm glad you have a job where at least you kind of have it a lot more open and easier.  I'm sure it's a tough job that isn't the absolute funnest but to me it's nice to know you aren't stressing out over covering shift and being yelled at and such.  I'm going to try and go over my parents house tomorrow night, hopefully we can all bury the hatchet and have a nice little night.  I've been in a crazy Resident Evil mood lately and not sure why, even as far as to take pics of all the Resident Evil stuff I have.   I don't want to be a weirdo!!
Well, it is almost 4 am as I fell asleep for a little waiting for my tables to dry.  Hope you have a very wonderful morning and slept well with some very sweet dreams.  Talk to you very soon Megels  <3 p="">

Luxury of Sleep

Screwed up my entire night by passing out asleep and waking up at 3 am.  Again.  I'm beginning to think I have narcolepsy.  Feeling kind of sick due to no sleep and bad eating but I want to write you a little something for your morning.
Megels is a girl who is more beautiful than anyone I've ever known.
She makes me feel like I can reach the highest clouds, higher than any bird has ever flown.
Being able to make me laugh with every little joke she says.
Not judging me and buying me more of my little hobby of collecting Pez.
Her skin is smooth and touchably soft that I could kiss all over.
She's the one person I was and am always proud of calling my lover.
A gamer at heart who has the skills to beat the most toughest boss.
But also kick a game in the face with well placed rage after every loss.
Her little dog Sam has more personality than any human and lazier to boot.
We will do whatever we can to make sure he is the healthiest doggy, kicking his illness with a boot.
I think of her every day and night and fall asleep to dreams of her in my head.
Not a single night goes by where I don't pretend my pillow is her in my bed.
I try and rhyme and make this little poem for her.
Even though it's sort of cheesy and would probably sound cuter if it was just just plainly said sir.
I hope you have very sweet dreams and an easy day at your job.
I will talk to you in the morning while I am so tired I could sob.
Love you and miss you and nighty night to you sweet Megels.
No, I don't have a rhyme for Megels but she is the only girl to make me feel like I can accomplish anything in the world, including something to end on a rhyme....like....sexy Legels?
xoxoxox

oh oh sheila

The tired work days drag on but I keep rewinding hearing you laughing at the end of the call.  The restaurant is called Ephasus and yeah I was picking up food and stuff while continously saying the name and spelling it lol
I'm thirsty and very tired.
But
Tonight I want to say that you are beautiful.  You are the adorable girl who stands out in a crowded room whom my eyes gravitate to immediately and through the thick fog of people.  I think I loved best, playing a game with you near me helping or watching something on tv with you on my lap and playing with your hair.  While writing this the thought of a huge cowgirl porn stash under a bed is making me distracted lol.
I can't remember if you said you were reading Girl on a Train or Gone Girl before but I recommend Girl on a Train.  I'm halfway through and it is pretty good and keeps you wanting to continue.  Oh oh, here's a story:
So, dvds and blurays are coded to the region they are from such as North America is Region 1 or A and Europe is Region 2 or B etc
Well, they only work in players from those specific regions.  So, a region 2 dvd won't play here in NA.  Anyways, I was at work and saw a bluray set of Big Bang Theory seasons 1-7 and noticed that it was showing Region a,b,c and had a europe rating on it.  So I brought it up to a coworker and manager and they said yeah no that's not our region and to just trash it out of the system and toss it.  Well, being Edward I took it home with me and tried it out.  Turns out it works in our region.  So, due to my small mistake I now have a little bluray set of BBT seasons 1-7.  Crazy.  Small enough to save space and looks all good on bluray although I haven't watched anything of it because it's kind of our show.  I also got Supernatural season 1 on bluray for like 2 bucks.
I remember a cute memory today as well of when we went to the mexican restaurant on McKnight and you told me about your bucket list.  I miss looking at it on Pinterest and want to make sure you hit all those buckets.
I loved that laugh you had today and it made my year so far.
I feel so bad for Sammy and really hope there is a way to make him healthier or help him out, that dog is so well behaved and great and doesn't deserve to be ill.
Same with you, I really hope you don't get any more super disease sicknesses and we can get you back to super healthy yay megels.
I so tired so I am gonna turn in.  I miss how immaturely excited I was when we tried sleeping naked together that one night down there because it was supposed to be better for us.  lol, I always was and still am obsessed with naked megels.
Sleep very well, hope your sudoku went well, maybe i'll look into another phone game we can maybe play together.  Have very sweet dreams and I shall write another for you tomorrow.
The moon lights the sky and even though miles seperate them, they are still lit in the darkness, their lives intertwined in ways few people are lucky enough to endure.
Miss you, love you, sleep well and tight and no bed bugs biting.
nighty night megels

Way too cold and sleepy

Woke up in middle of the night after falling asleep after coming home because like I said, going to be at 3 all the time is having negative consequences.  I couldn't remember what you said about trying to call super late and didn't want to wake you in the middle of the night.  You did however say you wanted me to go back to daily bog posts for your cute sexy bum to read.  So before I fall back asleep, I wanted to make sure I at least posted something for you.
I loved hearing your voice and I can't stop picturing you in your little mail outfit.  And out of it.  I don't want to write a little bit because I am dead tired and about to fall back asleep so let me write my little work day and some little thinger thangers to have you read about.
Half Price has gotten boring and am only there at the moment for the extra money for my bills but I do not plan on staying there much longer as I orignally said I wasn't.   While I have been there though I have been able to find and buy a lot of stuff I've either been looking for or stumbled upon, such as the following:
Super Nintendo
Banjo-Tooie
Dreamcast
A number of blurays to either replace DVDs or to own like Miss Peregrin's school for peculiar children, the theatrical cuts of the orignal Star Wars trilogy, some old games and this baby--

which is the entire animated ninja turtles series that comes in a little replica of their turtle van.
All the Harry Potter books in hardcover including the newest one The Cursed Child.
The 3 illustrated hardcover harry potter books that have come out so far
and a number of other books.

This past Black Friday I picked up Spiderman Homecoming, Fantastic Beasts and where to find them, lego batman, guardians of the galaxy 2, the santa clause, and kingdom hearts HD collection on ps4.

The etsy store is still going alright with my 200th sale just happening.  I have 7 tables to take care of at the moment and even put them up for sale on a site called artfire as well that have sold a few.  I really miss your pinterest page because the ideas that you were saving were really getting me excited to expand my store.  I would really love for us to really make a real business out of Geek Sense.  Maybe even get on those light switch covers  ;)
It feels so bad to hear about Sammy and it isn't fair.  He is the best dog I've ever been around and is so well behaved and has such a personality. I wish there was something that could be done or bought to help and I can't even imagine the little man being sick.
Sucks that our 2018s are off to poo crappy starts but it will get better, I will make sure of that.

Falling asleep but am glad I was able to write something for you.  I will make sure you get your daily love post and WILL NOT let you down.  Please please sleep well and have the sweetest of dreams dew drop.  Talk to you very very soon.

Love,
Edward

The time when it all comes to a head

There are a few things I want to apologize for first before I get into the goods.
With it being a new year, a resolution is all nice and good but it doesn't come without acknowledging mistakes and being a better person so as to learn from those mistakes.  This is the month I want it all to change and get back to who made me so very happy, make up for a lot of lost time and begin the new chapter entitled Happily Ever After Part 2.  But before I am able to regail my favorite turkey leg with all the sweet nothings that I want her to hear daily, I must first detail all of what I know was not good or where I failed to be her other half to my fullest.  They range from the insignificant to the quite significant.  But all make me want to make up for them because when you are happy and my arms are around your waist and your beautiful eyes are looking up at mine....there is nothing I can think of that would make me feel complete than to return that feeling to you.
I apologize...
For beating New Mario Bros wii once you died so we wouldn't conquer it together.
Making you watch Sinister.
Not being there for your 26th bday, there is never an excuse to miss your special day esp when it wasn't far away.  Which then goes to apologizing for missing your 28,29, and 30th.  You don't know how badly i wanted to celebrate with you and I promise you I won't let it happen again.  I still remember doing gifts over facetime when you opened Funko Potter and Are You Afraid of the Dark and Cinderella, replacing your wii sensor bar  :D
I let job/financial anxieties get in the way of truly living and enjoying our time because time with you is priceless and one of a kind.  I shouldn't have let you take any of the financial burden and tried even harder to get some sort of income while you worked away to help us stay afloat.
Any time I may have accidentally sounded like I was making fun of your tough time reading, I promise you I was never laughing at you.  I love hearing your voice tell a story or take on a character voice when playing a game.
The Christmas that ended at the Casino because I could've joined in and had more fun instead of being a baby and sitting in a chair the whole time or making you feel bad for doing things that I wasn't used to, there was no reason to make you feel bad.
Not helping pay for the U-Haul, we both used it and even had a friend pay for it for us and it wasn't nice or right to not help pay for it as well.
Throwing another baby tantrum when Ellen offered to help redecorate our apartment.
Upsetting you on New Years when all you wanted to hear that I was sorry for any frustration and pain I had put you through and there was nothing I could think of that would make me happier than to continue to wake up every morning next to you.
Letting homesickness ruin your wedding excitement.  You have my word of my heart that it's you and always has been you that I want to say I do to.
Letting the finances get to the point where your bills were past due so I could pay mine and figure out the rent when I was running out.
Annoying you with all the butt spanking.
Being difficult instead of helpful and understanding when Ellen had stayed with us.
Also being the same when your dad stayed with us.  It was family and you once again were a very accomidating great person who went out of her way to help someone.
Not taking you out on enough dates, I love being at a table with you and looking across at you.  Smiling.
Not taking more than one second to know that I wanted to be with you no matter what it took and that you were worth more than anything I've ever known.
Not being a stronger other half for you.  You always believed in me and loved me more than life itself and while I felt exactly the same, I should've shown it more and done more for you.
Hurting you like a complete asshole over the summer when it was exactly what I wanted with you.  It's shameful and embarrassing and I think of it every day as the stupidest I have ever been.  To go through the next couple of months just ended up being worse for me as a sort of karma and I really would give anything to be near you again.
Not staying awake the best when driving on our road trips to and from states.
Any time I was ever upset or angry with you over anything no matter what it was.  A life with you is worth way more than a little thing here and there that I may not like or enjoy because a life with you is so special and lucky that any little issue is just a raindrop on a beautiful sunny day.

I always wanted to be someone you were proud to be with and so many instances you showed that you really were in love with me.

Speaking of those times, now for the things that I still think about and want more of every single day.  Happily there are a lot more of these than there are of the mistakes and if you could see the smile on my face while I write these.  :D

Telling you my stories at Ponderosa and secretly looking forward to them just so I could talk to you for a little.
That magical momentous day that you came into Giant Eagle and smiled and looked back at me before turning the corner to leave the store.
Getting us the Wii U
Feeding you gummy bears while we gamed.
Playing mario bros wii and kissing you for the first time before work.
You getting a ticket on the way back to Ohio and texting me about it.
Giving you crazy directions to my house and showing you all my art while we rubbed arms together quietly falling in love.
You staying home another day just to spend more time with me.
Spending my bday with you at the museum and Hard Rock Cafe and the incline.
Watching all the Star Wars movies with you and having sex during Phantom Menace to make it a better film.
You introducing me to Supernatural.
Our little Christmas tree in my room where we traded gifts like Luigi's Mansion, a Supernatural autograph and when I got you Animal Crossing, Mystical Ninja, Banjo kazooie, Sims, and every year seasons of Supernatural and Vampire Diaries.
Working at the Limited with you and getting you coffee and staying there late to drive home to watch Are you afraid of the dark.
You making your soup that smelled up my kitchen.
Whenever you would put your glasses on after playing a game for a little because it started to hurt your eyes and pushing them up against your face with one finger if they slide down your nose a little.
How adorable you looked in your white winter hat.
Jumping all over the place during Sinister.
Going to comic cons and the pic with the black ranger and stopping at the Monroeville Alfred Angelo so you could see your old work friends.
You singing your little heart out to all the songs that you played off your phone.
Making plans to someday see Harry Potter world.
Your little journal entries that you kept when you went to Mexico for Ellen's wedding.  And the naughty snapchat pic you sent me that still excites me  ;)
The way you would hold me when you slept and how it felt to have you up against me and the smell of your hair.
When you found out that the quote in Banjo "eekum bokum" meant ouch my balls hurt.
Going to the zoo with you and you had on your little tube top shirt and I could not keep my eyes off of you, even when we went to TGI Fridays afterwards.
Visiting you at work and bringing you lunch or getting you Panera Bread and that wonderful welcome when I would show up "hey darlin"
 When you would visit me at Giant Eagle and I couldn't wait to leave work to spend time with you.
Walking Sammy up in Avalon/Bellevue while we chatted away.
You inviting me to come with you to Florida and watching the Lego movie in my bedroom.
Putting together the Mario puzzle on my floor and then having sex near it.
Spending time with you before you left in your bed watching Clerks and then saying goodbye to you in the rain.  I played Lego Star Wars all night trying to stay up with you so you weren't alone, even when you made pit stops.  So cute.
Facetiming while you were there and masterbating together and getting updates from you while you were there.
Sitting in the middle of our apartment with all of our boxes eating Boston Market on the floor and watching Supernatural, our first night there.
Our shopping trip out to a small store to get the essentials like a trash can.
Showering together in our little shower and hearing your music play.
Getting our Fritos pizza and the chinese food delivered from across the road.
All of the movies we saw from Cinderella, Minions, Avengers 2, Antman, Ninja Turtles, and more.
The trips to Universal and your excitement to ride and quote the Mummy ride, Spiderman, Transformers, and Harry Potter.
The way we would hold hands and walk along the lake when the park was closing and our day was over.
Holding hands on every ride.  Kissing while in line.  Filling up our refillable cup.
Our cleaning dance party that you would make every so often to tidy up the apartment.
When I lined the hallway wall with all of my art.
Getting the cats and seeing their little selves running around and Harley battling every sickness imaginable for a while.
The big flea market near our apartment.
Walking on the beach with you and watching the sun go down.
Shopping at walmart and getting meat for our tacos and your chili and your tea packets and Faygo and things for our candy and snacks cupboard.
Making you the table that says Love.
You watching me play games at night and looking up walk throughs if I got stuck.
Our month of Halloween movies
Getting you your Dean shirt
When you thought I was going to tickle you in the hallway and you ran down giggling.
The bug on the railing outside
When you came up with Geek Sense
The hotel mix up that actually gave us a better place that had a comic con going on.  With the little rave later.
The gaming con we ended up at with the awesome game room with video games.
Going to Ripleys believe it or not
Buying our first big real Christmas tree.
Your little bday ice cream that I got you.
You watching me draw
You doing your homework questions and me helping get pics and stuff for your powerpoint presentations.
Laughing and playing around in bed before going to sleep
Playing cooking mama in bed
Coming home on my lunch breaks and you already making me my tv dinners
Watching Friends and how i met your mother with you laying in my lap until we fell asleep
Sitting in our office chairs outside under blankets while you smoked.
Naked man
Slow head banging and thinking we were going to get pulled over for it.
when you broke the key in the door lock
Going through the wendy's drive through and you pushing your boobs up to try and distract the worker.
Getting you milkshakes at steak and shake while we watched american horror story
Picking you up from work and watching you change in your closet.
Going to Blue Dragon with you and looking at all the games and you being excited and proud to have a retron
Watching the force awakens trailer a ton of times
Getting a mani-pedi with you
Our in jokes from turkey leg to wallet and juice to diet coke.

But most of all, just how you made me feel.  Being with other people I can say that there is something truly special about you.  Something I have never seen again and always have on my mind.  For one, you are beautiful.  You are so pretty and your hair feels so silky and your skin so smooth.  Your eyes are big and cute and the way you feel when I hold you actually feels like I am connecting pieces together to form a whole person.  Your voice can sooth no matter what bad day I may have and you have the best smile I have ever seen.  You make me laugh in so many ways whether it be a call back joke or just zooming in on your nose during facetime.  I miss laying in bed with you on facetime until you fell asleep and it was great watching Netflix despite the distance.  You have the cutest personality and a great great heart.  More people need to have the kind of heart and kindness that you do.  You instantly brighten every day and I take time almost every day to look at the pics we took together every day.  You really mean a lot to me and I truly believe in my heart that you are the one.  There is a connection and a realness to us that is more than special.  Just like you wrote, which I totally agree, I do want my Ramona and not my Knives, the girl who goes to cons and not concerts, the girl who can kick my ass in mario kart and sing like crazy in the car.  The girl who knows that she can actually be her real self with me and not worry and know that we have so so so much in common.  I love you, I have you on my mind every day and have for years.  I love the girl who has a ninja turtle on her pencil and wears nerdy shirts and shoes and knows all the Harry Potter spells off by heart.  The girl who still hopes and checks in to read this and wrote me a letter that I look at still and reread constantly.  Even if that door is open just a sliver where only a paper can fit through barely, then that's one door I want to do whatever it takes to get back inside.
You are my fire.  My one desire.
Have I told you lately that I love you
Hello, is it me you're looking for
Don't talk to strangers
I miss you dew drop and this month I am going to make it my mission to change it all and do whatever it takes to get your heart right back where it belongs.  It's hard to breath without you and I feel like life is flying by me, the important life where I am engaged to a beautiful brunette and am working on an animated movie and am seeing and cosplaying star wars with her.  Can't believe I haven't seen Last Jedi yet.  Getting late and I need sleep badly so I will continue but I do want to say, I miss you and love you and I can't think of anyone that I would rather have on my mind all day than you.
PS, I'm reading girl on the train right now and one of the main characters is named megan and she is missing and everyone is looking for her.  Just like my dreams.  You are quite the popular megels.
Have a very wonderful night, stay warm because Florida finally got cold, don't let the bed bugs bite and the sweetest dreams I can possibly send to you.  Nighty night dew drop.  xoxoxoxox