A Forever Connection

You and I are connected
in a way that goes beyond romance
beyond friendship
beyond what we've ever had before
It has defied time, distance
and changes in ourselves
and in our lives
It has defied every explanation
Except one
Pure and simply, we're soul mates

I can't explain, I just feel it
It's there in the way my spirits lift
whenever we talk
The sound of your voice brings me home
in a way I can't explain
It's in the delight I feel, when we laugh
at exactly the same things
When I'm with you
it's a tiny piece of the universe
shifts into place
A place it's supposed to be
and all is right with the world

These things and so many more
have made me understand
that this is a once in a lifetime
forever connection
A connection that could only exist
between you and me
And deep in my soul
I know that our relationship
is a rare gift
One that brings us
extraordinary happiness
all through our lives


I miss you so much
Pained by the mistakes I've made
May my words reach you Megels
for a future of happiness
hand in hand
Soul mates to the end

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxxooxoxooxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxox

No Matter Day or Night

To the Megels I hope to hold again

You made me feel special

You made me feel new

You made me feel loved

With every single thing you did

You held me close when I was sad

You wiped away the tears from my face

Every time we were together

It seemed like the perfect place

My eyes lit up when you entered a room

I smiled when we were together

No matter how bad thing were

You always made them better

I love the way you kiss me

The way you held me tight

I love the way you touched me

I could be with you all night

I love the way you can make me laugh

For absolutely no reason at all

I love how no matter what I do

You would always be there to catch me when I fell

I want you to know

No matter what

Day or night

I will always love you darlin

Always

Love, Your Edward

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The Girl Made For Me

The darkness of depression is taking its hold harder than it has been lately.
The more thoughts of you the more I hate how much I messed up.
To have been so happy and let so much mess that up
Writing to you Megels is all that gets me through a day
Sweet dew drop
Song of my heart
Hold my hand as this journey we start
Lift me up in spirit of joy and gladness
And shield my soul from heartbreak and sadness
Steadfast, honest and true
Your partner is here and will forever love you.

It is my prayer that I will always be
The one who brings you joy and sets your spirit free
With my love I'll cover you and warm your soul with mine
Give you pleasures, like none you will find
You, sweet Megels, the song of my heart
I will love you forever, nothing could take that apart

So hear me sweet darlin and know in your soul
That there is no better future than with you to grow old
Endless caresses, touches and kisses
Our passion a banner for our love's true existence
My hand I extend and my honor I offer
For being with you my love, there is no greater pleasure

Your hand I accept, and all your love as well
My heart sings so loudly, all can tell
I am in love with the girl made for me
Hold my hand, let us walk through this life
Being what we were meant to be
Together

My heart and hand will always be reaching for you
Forgiveness for my mistakes and bad choices
The only one for me will always be you
No matter the time, no matter the distance
The only future I see is one with your beautiful smile next to mine

Always

Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxooxxoxooxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxooxox

Depression may be winning, but the light will always be there as long as I think of you

Too Hard to Sleep Without You

I cannot sleep.  Most nights I wake up and feel a sense of depression and dread.  Looking over and not seeing you there stabs my heart every time.  My dreams continue to include you whether I'm looking for you or somewhere waiting for you but most dreams involve you.  I am not handling the depression without you well and I miss the times when I could talk to you, hear your voice.  You were always there and promised you always would be.  I understand my mistakes and am broken down by them every day.  You know me more than anyone Megels and the true me.  It hurts so badly not to have our life together.  The trips, the laughs, the moments.  Every day I can't help but run through them in my head and seeing where I am now only makes it hurt worse.  Going to work is a test of how long I can go without breaking down and crying.  I miss you so much.  Writing to you every day in hopes that one night, one night, one will come across your eyes.  I think about you every day and something in my every days reminds me of you and us somehow some way.  We went through too much and had too much together for it to just be a distant memory.  I gave up it all to go with you and I'd do it again in an instant.  Being with you felt like home, like I was where God wanted me to be.  I will reach my hand out until it withers and dies because no matter how long it takes and how bad I must feel, if the end result is you it'll be worth it all.
It's so hard.  I'm so sad and depressed.  Every night I try and sleep only to dream of you.  I miss you darlin dew drop.  I miss our life.  As I try and sleep again I hope one of your dreams I can enter just to see you again.

Love always
Yours Always
Your Edward
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My Love Darling Dew Drop

As I sit here gazing out the window
Instead of working, I'm daydreaming of you
And wondering if while you're in your own world
You're thinking of me too

I reminisce about the day we met and how you made me feel
Looking at the glowing smile on your face
Staring into your dreamy brown eyes
Your smell, your touch, your warm embrace

What a special night that was darlin

And now, I'm starting to feel that warmth inside
Like nothing or no one else can make me feel
Butterflies, a constant smile, happy thoughts
Looking forward to the next time I'd see you

What lies ahead, down the road to love
Can it possibly be what I've been hoping for
All my goals, dreams, passions, hopes
Glaring now before me with great anticipation

No one knows what tomorrow brings
One can only wish and believe
I have abounding faith that God will take care of me
And bring us back together in the best of ways

My heart will never give up on you
There's no amount of time that could change that
I feel a special bond between us
My happiest days involved you Megels
I miss you so very much

My slow headbang in the car to Lionel Ritchie
Our turkey leg hand motion at the park
Your beautiful face facetiming until we fell asleep
Dancing while we cleaned the apartment on the weekend

The girl who sings in the car at the top of her lungs
Kicks my butt in Mario Kart
Goes to comic cons instead of concerts
My nerdy equal

Life brought us together time after time
My mistakes have haunted me every night
I wish on every star every night for forgiveness
To once again hold you
To be yours again
I will always be yours

Always

Love, Your Edward
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First Looked Into Your Eyes

When I first looked into your eyes Megels
Each breath became a thousand sighs
My heart drummed out a thunder beat
I glowed with joy from head to feet
The hand of love had touched my soul
As the bell of destiny began to toll
The tide of love began to rise
The world was filled with summer skies
My sodden clouds of cold and grey
Glowed with gold, then wisped away
A brilliant rainbow arched across
As waves of love began to toss
The air was filled with lovebird cries
When I first looked into your eyes

When I first looked into your eyes
All time and space were paralyzed
And in that instant, I was shown
A universe I had never known
I dwell there still, in Paradise
When I look into your eyes
Every night we ever spent together is right there
The way your hands felt on mine
How our skin brushed up against one another
That way you would smile at me
Crinkling your nose in just the right way
Nobody ever has made me feel the way you do
Through every good or bad situation
We were always brought together
No amount of time or distance could stop us
It is here that I sit
Still waiting and hoping that we are together again
Reading your letter
The way we match is beyond special
There may be a new person but you and I both know
It's not us
There is only one us
For that I will wait an eternity for if need be

Always

I love you
Love, Your Edward
xoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxo

The Only Star in My Sky

From the moment I first saw you

Toiling away at the restaurant

We both wore our black uniforms

Yours looking way better

I knew then that something inside me

Had seen exactly what I was looking for

The many days ahead

Each one containing you

I hadn't known happiness

Until I saw you

I gazed into your eyes

Such a beautiful brown

My heart whispered to me

And that's right when I knew

The waves had ceased crashing

On the sand at our feet

Time had stopped passing

My search was complete

I finally discovered

What I'd known all along

A mystery uncovered

That just couldn't be wrong

It wasn't our first kiss

Nor the day that we first met

But I realized something

I will never forget

With the stars shining brightly

From high up above

There's only one word to describe it

That word, is love

I knew then these feelings

For you dew drop were true

The girl of my dreams

And my soulmate, is you

I think of it every time

That I look at the stars

This memory is mine

But those moments are ours

I would trade in every single star

Each twinkle and sparkle above

To spend another night with you Megels

The only star in my sky

That shines brighter than all the rest

Always

Love, Your Edward

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