Love Thoughts Right Before

He sat next to her in the car, his thoughts running wildly.
I can't do this without you.  This crazy chase to this case has taken long but not a day goes by that he hasn't planned his future with her.  His heart aches and there is nothing he wants more than to be with her.  Every single night and day.  With the end right around the corner and everything falling into place, every single thought every single action every single day all of his focus is on her.  He can't sleep right unless he thinks of her, can't plan his future unless she is at his side.  Knowing that he is the cause of this awful chase rips him up inside.  It's never been this close before and the need for her is the most it has ever been.  She needs to know that without her it's just not worth it.  I can't do this without you he says.  Time was always his biggest enemy.  He turns away from her so that he can cry, he is so scared.  It wouldn't matter where she was, he would come to her and be with her.  There is no distance too far in the world.  The life he is living right now is wrong, not himself.  The only time he ever truly felt alive was any second with her.  It's become too hard to sleep and the saddness grows inside to an almost unbearable level.  The way she looked at him, her smile, the things she would say.  Tears pour down his cheeks.  I can't do this without you.  It had been a very rough life and the chase was only making it worse.  You don't get to find your one only to just watch from afar.  There weren't any more words he could even think of to say just how much she meant to him, just how much he loves her.  He quietly vowed to do whatever it took to make sure he was the best self he could be and make sure her heart knew just how much his was hers.  Deep inside himself he knew that she felt the same.  This crazy stupid case chase was hurting her the longer it took to reach that coast.  The true love of his life was just a few miles in front of him, he never hated a case so much in his life.  His heart ached.  It was an odd choice but he wanted to let her know that he was devoted to her.  Loved her so much it hurt.  Wanted to lasso the moon for her to make up for the terrible events that they had gone through the last few weeks.  He was willing to give it all up.  All of it, just to hold her hand.  He missed her more than he had ever missed anything.  He pushed the gas hard and the car sped on even faster.  I love you.  I can't do this without you.  The coast was coming up fast, the chase was about to be over.  His life was dedicated to her, no matter what it took.  The only happily ever after in his book was her.  Even looking upon her now, his heart skipped a beat.  She was perfect.  In turn, it made him be as perfect as possible.  He wasn't going to wait once they reached the coast, the second they were there he was going to make her the biggest display of love and devotion he could think of.  He was in love.  The biggest sorry couldn't erase the chase that they had been on to this point but he knew that if given the chance, he could change that and make her the happiest person in the world.  There was no doubt about it.  He knew the coast was close, could smell the ocean air.  This was it, it was finally coming to an end.  I love you.  I can't do this without you.


TO BE CONTINUED....................
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